readiness to sacrifice...

after that the last night of the NTM conference, which they speak of the readiness to sacrifice.. Olie gave a very solid (as quoted by Jon Woo) message... a message that really speaks to everyone dat are there.. are we willing to sacrifice, even to the extend of our lives, for the sake of our Lord.. I heard many people was killed when they went into tribal areas to preach the word.. and yes... and some are being persecuted.. but, all these missionary are willing to sacrifice everything.. they sacrifice to see their children are being sent away for reasons.. some of the parents might sacrifice to see their kids became missionary.. we have to sacrifice some stuff, for the glory of God to be shown... some people sacrifice their money, power, possesions.. and many others, to be a missionary, catched the vision of reaching to the unreached tribe.. and the Lord has really blessed the food of their labour.. seeing tribal ppl, beginning to stop practicing their old ways, but worshipping the Lord.. bringing the gospel to the other parts of the tribal area, hiking in the jungle for 2 weeks... sleeping in unknown places.. in jus bringing the gospel to their friends...

wat are doing here?? are we sacrificing anything for God's kingdom?? are we willing to sacrifice our time to go and listen or to learn from these people?? is such a wonderful event.. and i heard people say they do not want to go because they are not interested.. i got this conviction.. to do mission is not we are interested or not.. is a commandment.. is whether are we willing to be used by God.. we always talk about the calling to be missionary.. those ppl have a calling.. we no calling, we no need to mission.. we can be good christian.. go church every sunday.. serve there, go prayer meeting, go cg.. and etc.......

if ui really want calling.. go read Matthew 28:20 i guess... about the great commission.. that is ur calling.. Go... God call u to go... and He is calling me oso... i hope we will all go together...


p.s... next topic.. Loving God.....

long time......

well.. its been a long time since i blog.. coz of my internet connection... which is real stupid.. dunno how to mentioned it la.. but anw, wanted to blog about the NTM mission conference which i attend for the past 2 nights, and saturday morning.. but wont blog about it now coz im tired.. but, it was a good experience, good talk and sharing sessions by the missionary themselves.. which i somehow felt encourage to hear that they are doing God's will all most of their lives, which compared to me for not doing much for the Kingdom...

but, really thank God that i went for it.. and later 2nite, will be the challege night.. and i will get something out from there...

anw.. better go and sleep now.. if not, i wont be able to wake up 2molo for church...

hmmm..

hmm.. it was fun during home fellowship, where some of us, really torture those 16 years old teens to some serious IQ questions...

but it was fun.. laughing and all.. and we have captain ball in the evening.. and it was fun too..

at night, which is jus now, went for yum cha wif yang, jon and CW... is my 3rd time in old town kopitiam this week.. 1st one is in Jaya 1.. den Jaya dunno wat, den now in USJ.. well.. dunno wats so nice about there.. maybe is that "old town white milk tea".. which i always order... hmm......

anw, quite tired right now..

nitez ppl

its been a while..

is been a week since i blog.. due to some reason wif my internet line, which i shall not dwell too much in it.. but.. yea, it sucks..

been really bumming around for 2 weeks.. i stop work last week.. so, i have officially, 3 more weeks of holiday to go.. coz i jus got to know my class is starting after raya.. so, i have ntg to do till den.. so wat have i been doing at home??

1) sleep
2) play my guitar
3) Go bentley to by drum sticks
4) play winning 11 like crazy
5) watched tvb series until nobody's business
6) sleep again
7) buy chicken rice from the shop i always go.. (even the auntie and the workers know wat im going to order)
8) and sleep again..

so, basically, dats how my life have been.. and is going to be in the next 3 weeks.. hurray!!!

finished LOTR

finally, after 3 weeks.. i've done with Lord of the Rings.. in fact, in every part, im touched by how closed their friendship and bond among the ppl in the fellowship.. how they can put aside their differences, elves, man, dwarfts, hobbits, wizards.. how united they are in completing the mission.. not forgetting one another.. though arguements may arise.. but, they solved it.. and how a "traitor", gave his life to save Merry and Pippin.. and when Gondor called for help, Rohan (horse-riders) came to help.. of coz wif some other people and tribes of men..

another thing dat touches me most is the hobbits.. they are small size, their hands cant draw long swords.. but short... they have short legs.. but they show great courage.. it reminds me in a verse in the bible.. 1 Timothy 4:12 where it says "Do not let anyone look down on you because u are young........" yes.. the hobbits may be small in size.. but they show great faith.. they show great love.. and, the people which is the men, salute them, for what they have done.. seriously, is really hard to describe how awesome the movie is.. it is jus something that u all have to watch for urself...

besides that.. after attending WI yesterday, i somehow have that calling that I want to be in FES.. after being blessed by them, i really want to blessed other people, especially the students... it was jus an awesome time learning about God, and worship Him.. and u noe wat.. I really want to be part of that team.. maybe after I come back from Hillsongs college, where i really want to equip myself.. more towards the students and worship ministry.. although i really suck in planning.. but i want to be a person that can share the goodnews..

dis year, 2 things really struck me the most.. 1stly, is about Grace.. not Grace Lim or Heng, but the Grace of God.. that amazing grace that God has shown me.. everything when the msg of Grace is being preached, im so deeply convicted.. the 2nd thing is the revival of this nation.. we sang a song that day.. i dunno the title.. but it is a song where it speaks of the nations turning to God.. to cried, to pray that the nation will turn to God.. and there are people shouting who is God to them.. "the awesome God".. "Tuhan yang Benar".. and many others.. and Ms AAA, which until now i dunno her name, she challeged us to go to our Nineveh.. places which we wont wanna go.. places where we do not want the gospel to be preached to.. but GO!!! there is the place that God wants us to go.. no matter how far we run from God.. He will pull us back..

and God is good.. All the time... He blessed me... i always count my shit stuff.. but, after counting how many blessing that God has given me.. I praise Him.. for wat he has done for me...

well.. thats all the thought for now.. and yes.. i cant find any movie better than Lord of the Rings.. which have so many many good christian principle in it.. it is the best movie ever produced..

God bless u all my fellow members of the "fellowship".. continue to grow strong in Him.. and pray for our nation.. That God will intervene in this situation..

"Be a fruitcake"

best movie ever produced...

currently, im re-watching Lord of the Rings.. thx to Uncle Mun Kong, i have got hold of the extended version, which scenes are not shown in the cinema... yes.. and i can tell u, it is a show full of hope, full of good christian principles...

the part in the Two Towers, where Frodo and Samwise was caught in Gondor, where Faramir, Boromir's brother,(one of the nine members of the fellowship) wanted to bring the One Ring, for their use.. while that place was under attack by Sauron(who is that stupid eye)'s forces, which is orcs and Naz'rul (which is some dark rider riding on somekind of creatures).. they fight fight fight, and Frodo ask a question, after being the ring bearer for so long.. that burden, pressure of wanting to keep that ring for himself, is all over him.. and that stupid eye keep on wanting that ring back.... so, Frodo was tired, burned out.. and he ask Sam, "wat is the point of doing all these things?" (in my own words la).. den Sam answers.. "it is because there are goodness in this world"..

U see, when sometimes we are so actively involved in our ministry in church, we go here go there.. plan this and that.. and we realised that we are not going anywhere.. we are all drained out... and we felt so burderned with things around us.. attack from the enemy, attack from within our own ppl.. Do u ask urself, why are u still doing all these things?? why do we still hold on to the work we are in?? WHY WHY and WHY?? for that show, it tells me one thing.. is because there are ppl who wants to hear the goodnews.. there are ppl who is still out there not knowing about Christ.. and we as christians, are suppose to be that person, to bring goodness, to bring the Good News, to the ppl in this world... and the Good News is the GOSPEL, which is "God Offering Sinful People Eternal Life".. and by having the BIBLE, which is "Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth".. yea.. we are to reach out and tell of the amazing Grace of God.. not about prosperity and all that kind of shit... coz the main objective of the Gospel is that amazing grace...

the other thing that impact me is the friendship between Frodo and Sam.. those two are best buddies.. Frodo is the main character in that sense where he is the one who will be going to destroy the ring.. but, without Sam, who gave him encouragement, gave him support, helping him to decern from right and wrong.. Frodo will have die long time ago.. and yes.. as christians, we are not moving in this mission alone.. we have company.. we have friends and buddies who share the same vision like us... who will encourage us in times of needs.. by having dat, we will move on further..

ya.. one more thing, that would be my quote of the day

"even the smallest person can change the cause of this world"......

God bless u all my fren... May God give peace to the restless...

"a thought from a fruitcake"

God is good...

Indeed.. God is God.. and His grace, mercy and love, endures forever!!!

I have passed my Management Accounting paper.. although is not high.. but, it is by God's grace dat i passed... I thank u Lord...

Thank U Jesus...
U are all that i ever live for... is not by how good i study and all, but is by Your power.. By Your Grace... Your Mercy.. and Your Love...

There is no way i can stop praising U right now..

dissapointed...

im dissapointed at my self.. i really really suck in being a leader.. i cant seems to lead the team well.. u CW passed on to me the team, i thot i could handle it.. im really hoping that i can lead the team.. but, in the end, i kinda suck at it.. ntg seems to be working..

seriously, is really hard being a young leader.. let me give an example.. u are a shy person, u dun speak out "loud".. and there is a person, doing things not so correct.. and bear in mind he is older.. and u are much younger.. and u are his leader.. are u going to tell him about his problem?? how are u going to say?? dat is the pressure im facing right now.. i dunno how CW can handle.. but at this point of time, i cant.. and basically, i dunno how am i going to last thru out the year..

i am really praying so hard that CW will stay back and take back his "job" again.. and he wont go travelling to UK.. coz i really dun wan the team to fall... i dun wan it to fall in my hands.. i dunno how to handle all these things..

although God called us to be a leader.. but, at some point of time, i really think im not good enuff.. i jus suck at it... when ppl ask me to be a leader in a group, i jus cant do well.. yea.. im dat way.. wat i always wanted is the team to be committed.. to be focus.. but, looks like i cant seem to lead it dat way..

im really dissapointed at myself....

last week for work...

is entering my 2nd last day of work.. and seriously, kinda miss that place.. but, knowing that I will need to have a long break, i decided to stop working, and sleep at home.. so, dis friday will be my last day of work in KDU...

hmm.. but i had a hope this week, is to see someone, or bump into her... well.. if im not able to see her, most likely i wont in the future.. hahaha.. so.. dunno la.. see how it goes...

anw.. hope u ppl have a nice week ahead...

things..

got the clear pic on why mike was lying.. but anyhow, i've no grudges on Him.. coz, everyone have sin and fall short from the glory of God.. even David, who is after God's heart, have sin too.. and no one is perfect... and, i still like the song Healer.....

anw, cant attend ps ryan and brenda wedding bcoz got something on.. i wish both of them the best..

yesterday i taught the song "God of this city".. and thank God, most of the ppl are blessed by that song.. and im glad... Thank God...

exams results will be out next week.. if i fail again.. where will i go??