im dissapointed at my self.. i really really suck in being a leader.. i cant seems to lead the team well.. u CW passed on to me the team, i thot i could handle it.. im really hoping that i can lead the team.. but, in the end, i kinda suck at it.. ntg seems to be working..
seriously, is really hard being a young leader.. let me give an example.. u are a shy person, u dun speak out "loud".. and there is a person, doing things not so correct.. and bear in mind he is older.. and u are much younger.. and u are his leader.. are u going to tell him about his problem?? how are u going to say?? dat is the pressure im facing right now.. i dunno how CW can handle.. but at this point of time, i cant.. and basically, i dunno how am i going to last thru out the year..
i am really praying so hard that CW will stay back and take back his "job" again.. and he wont go travelling to UK.. coz i really dun wan the team to fall... i dun wan it to fall in my hands.. i dunno how to handle all these things..
although God called us to be a leader.. but, at some point of time, i really think im not good enuff.. i jus suck at it... when ppl ask me to be a leader in a group, i jus cant do well.. yea.. im dat way.. wat i always wanted is the team to be committed.. to be focus.. but, looks like i cant seem to lead it dat way..
im really dissapointed at myself....
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so God is calling out to you, are you going to answer "yes Lord!"? or "yes, i'll think about it?"
don't you think that He has his reasons why He put you where you are? that as you obey Him, He will lead you?
we fall down when we were learning to walk. now we can run.
you are not alone.
hei bro:
It's not about whether u think u can or not, it's whether God think u can or not. God put u there for a reason. it is never easy to be a leader, u think it is easy for me to be a leader too. NO!!! if u want people to be committed to do the ways God has call u to do, be an example yourself don let people compromise. Make it clear. " this is the vision God gave me for the worship team, i hope u can run with me, and this will cost u bla..., if u can run with me, really thank you for that, but if not it's ok" if people are not willing to run with u, then fine, find another person to run with u. when people see God's vision thru u, i believe that they will be wiling to run with u. i am even though i m not there. trust God and learn from Him.
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