Frasers...

i off to frasers 2molo.. will be back on monday.. 

was pretty tired after a long day... my stomach is giving me a big problem for the past few days when i had fever.. it was really bad.. i din noe why..

bye bye...

indeed.. God is Great..

well.. i was super sick yesterday night, and dis morning, i got test.. well, i din study due to the sickness, so i jus tembak all my way thru.. but, thank God i manage to answer some of it .. hahaha

anw.. tonight was good.. the christmas eve service was good.. although i felt dizzy b4 dat.. and now.. but, during dat time, i really felt healed.. no dizziness and all sorts of sickness.. focus on God.. really give Him my best.. hahaha.. really thank God.. and aik chinn, zheng yang they all came.. well.. really thank God for their presence.. 

anw.. really felt so tired right now.. the dizziness is coming back.. looks like i got a sick christmas.. 2day... haiz...

i got one lame joke from boon today.. 

"wat is the day b4 christmas's eve...."

The answer is....

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Christmas's Adam

sick

haiz... 2molo is christmas eve and im down wif fever... and i got some stupid test dat i have to go... no marks though.. but, is "i have to go".. haiz.. i really dunno how can i study in this condition.. my hands and feet are cold, but i felt these heat in my body which makes it worst... cold hot and cold hot.. makes it fever.. hhahaha... really dunno will i be ok 2molo or not.. hope i will...

anw.. hope u ppl have a great christmas ahead...

my wish for christmas this year...... hope my assignments will be gone.. hahaha.. nola.. hoping that this christmas will be a meaningful one for me... 

God bless.. (i need to find my santa hat)

tired.. after such a long day doing labour work.. hahaha.. for charity.. so its ok.. was doing sound for the charity dinner jus now.. one thing i can say.. the equipment taylors have really suck... haiz.. mic and all, speakers... all like shit wei.. haiz.. cheat all our money dunno use for wat... 

anw.. jus plain tired of everything.. after so tiring class.. really feel like drop dead on my bed and sleep kao kao.. hahhahaa...

had a not so fun day.. but prayer works.. 

tired.. again..

had a long day 2day.. was tired when i woke up this morning.. go college, jus to be informed that the lecturer is on MC 2day.. wat the heck la.. haiz.. so stay at the com lab listening to song from youtube.. den after dat, go for class, the last class was the killer.. we was suppose to write an essay. but the thing is i have no idea what is the questions about.. so, i jus plainly write crap.. and real crap.. den rush off to church for christmas practice.. well, had a few changes here and there.. but, my mind was not really focus, due to the tiredness (im sorry God).. hope to be focus on the next practice.. 

anw.. i have been listening songs from "Building 429".. well, they are pretty good.. hahaha.. i love their music style, the way they play as a team.. hahaha.. it was good.. so ppl, go youtube and listen to their songs.. awesome....

anw.. wanna do my tutorials now.. 

deleted..

since there are much controversial of me posting my assignment online, i shall wait for some other time only i post it up again.. the fact that i posted it up is jus for the fun of it.. if anyone of u really copy my assignment and hand in, God knows... and pls, u do not want to fail this assignment because of copying this piece of crap, which Grace say she will take hrs to correct my essay...

so pls.. do not copy... dun make ur life miserable... 

the truth is, if u copy my assignment, u will fail.. coz they thing i write i plainly crap....

assignment hand in 2molo....

finally, after much stress and s***, i finally finish up assignment.. cant rmb how i started it after camp.. thinking hard of wat to write.. and now, almost done... haiz... i dun expect good results from it.. and i would say i nv expect good results from any assignment i've done.. if its good, is by God's grace.. coz i know i would not have done well.... 

"thank u God for giving me ideas to write, even at such last minute.. i din noe wat to write, u gave me those points.. i really dunno how much will i get.. but, even if i fail, i will still praise You.. coz U are my God and my everything.. I wont have anymore complaints..."

need prayer....

well... i need prayer for my assignment.. im gonna hand in on friday.. and i seriously got no clue watever im going to write.....

good luck to me...

aftermath from camp...

not really aftermath... hahaha.. jus dat i slept at 7 something.. now cant really sleep d.. hmm.. shud i go for church cleaning 2molo?? or shud i stay at home and do my work.. well, im really not sure lo... we will see how la...

well.. jus an update on my assignment.. is bad.. i cant really do anything in camp.. Thank God.. if i did, i will be a nerd there.. hahaha.. but as the due date is coming, i really wanna rush it.. but, the thing is i really dunno how to start... i have actually run out of ideas of writing this assignment.. 

stress stress stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...... 

Camp.. finally is done...

we made it thru.. it is finally done.. TC camp is over.. and it was GOOD.. and seriously, i cant believe that everyone has enjoy their time there too.. smashing of eggs, water and flour was kinda nice.. seeing ppl united in guarding their "leader" is something encouraging.. and of coz, seeing the creativity of the teens in coming out with a sketch within 3 hrs is awesome... (cant believe jean can act as a nerd.. oh wait, isn't she a nerd?).... hahahahahaha....

i dunno how other committee members felt, bt i felt it was good, and enjoyable time for me.. seeing them singing the "friend" song, it was fun.. i think they will be like us, which the song stuck in the committee's head for i think around dunno how many long years.. i rmb i was in form 2 den, when the committee that time, which is the advisor 2day taught us that song.. 

i shall write down the lyrics.. is original from SWCC TC 2000

Friends.... Love one another

Friends.... Brothers and Sisters

Friends.... All in the family of God

Friends are give from above

Friends are devoted and true

And when the going gets tough

There are Loving, Caring, and Praying for U..... WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

well, im speechless now actually.. really dunno how to explain this wonderful camp... God bless the campers... 

(if any campers happen to came here who are not from SWCC, pls link me and say hi in my cbox)

well, i shall go back to sleep.... again...

more meetings and off to PD (assignments not done)

Camp is 2molo.. and now im in library trying to find some articles.. well, more likely to lepak la.. hahahaha

well.. had one of my busiest moment now.. i have 3 meetings withing 24 hrs.. each meeting around 2 hrs.. well, to add things worst, i have assignment due after camp.. which i have started with..... 4 lines i suppose?? hahaha.. and seriously, i have no idea what im going write about... can anyone tell me wat is Theory of Constraint and the criticism by Goldratt on traditional cost accounting?? and how the developement of these Managament Accounting Philosophy influence company in making decisions?? how did these practices impact the company financial statement... haiz.. damm shitty wei...

really dunnno how am i going to finish these stuff.. and i have presentation next tuesday.. a major one, with no marks awarded.. wat the heck!!! but that "brown cow" is coming, so got no choice but to prepare well........

anw.. hope i have a nice trip to PD... and i will bring my Goldratt book to read!!!

more pictures...

few of the dim sum that we ate.. is excellent....


(pic taken by Elaine Wong)

assignments...

im kinda scared at the moment knowing that many things that has to be done at this particular time.. but after being bombarded with so many assignments, and hw to do, i began to feel restless, not knowing wat am i suppose to do 1st.. everything seems important to me.. really, i began to felt that im jus no where near where im suppose to be.. which kinda freak me out....

maybe is the end results of procastination..

well, if can, i would like to post the pic of that stupid book that i have to read.. haiz.. wat for??

more food....

after eating those nice food in Ipoh, feel like going back there and eat again... kinda miss the chicken rice there as well....















(boss, can i have chicken pls....???) not nice photo of the chicken...

bz month ahead...

for many ppl, dec will be the month where holidays, rest, and more holidays.. but for me, is totally opposite.. haiz.. the fact that i have classes during dec does not makes it sounds fun, and assignment due right after TC camp makes it worst.. to add to those stuff, i have christmas practice almost every monday and wed night.. wowowowowowow!!! seriously, is hectic.. is bz, and really tiring.. but somehow, i felt dat is the right thing for me to do these things.. God gave me time, and i must give Him back a portion of it too.. not dat i will neglect my studies and all, but, God is my main priority.. and i will have studies take over my time with Him..

anw... internet connections these few days really sucks... is like, bad... but, nvm la... got use to it d...














I miss the "dim sum" at ipoh...

"can we go back there and eat ah Elaine??"
(as if she noes my blog.. lol)

friends...

since i think most of u do not know my frens who went camerons with me, i shall den intro them to u ppl...

firstly, our driver, and part time tour guide.. with his excellent driving skill(not really), we reach back here safely.. Reuben Chew....




















2ndly, the "organizer" of our trip, or so called the "secretary" of the trip.. Mr... Thammy....




















Next, the crazy girl of our trip.. laughs like nobody's business, Ms Kiwi......



















Lastly, the money collector of our trip.. erm.. "ah long" will be the best word to describe.. well, if i say anything more, she will come after me and u will not see anymore post updates... Ms. Elaine....




















(if i post other pics, this ah long will kill me d)


well.. dats all for now.. stay tune for more updates.. and of coz, more stories to tell...

emo backside....

well.. since most of the ppl always emo.. so i shall post up emo pics....




well.. dis is not so emo coz she was jus posing onli... hahaha. and the pic is blur... failed emo picture...

















dis ah... after trying a number of shots.. dis is consider one of the best.. well.. noob mar me...













dis 2 are consider quite ok emo shots.. but let me show u all what is emo backside...



Dis is wat i called "emo backside".. why, coz he is posing emo with his backside.. hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

life is moving very fast...















This is the 2 things we brought up there...


















We are moving fast as well....











and one more last thing on why u all must love pentax..

Came Back...

Cameron trip was fun where all sorts of stupid and s*** things happens.. hahahah... is funny when u see all sorts of character starts to appear when they are drunk.. or some even they are not drunk... but overall, it is a nice experience going up with them..

well.. i wont actually post much right now.. coz i will let the pic do the toking.. but oso not at this post coz i haven got tbe pic yet...

off to camerons for 3 days........


adios...

frens from taylors

well.. i gt ntg much to write today... well, jus show some photos of the pic i took 2day...





my fren who loves to pose.. hahahah..


















the other joker in my class.. wait.. i think is the onli one left coz others left to UK...















Well, dis 2 are the ppl i hang out wif most of the nights.. after going to the library..

pictures took in old taste...

last class for bsf dis year..

finally, after 32 weeks of Bsf, it finally end for the class dis year.. seriously, i learned alot from the book of Matthew.. somehow change my way of reading that book like a story book.. reminds me on how God will provide, how God loves me so much...

anw, it oso comes with sacrifice.. tiredness, sickness and all sorts of things come in the way.. hahaha..

i've got presentation 2molo.. a mini one.. but, still have to do welll....!!


anyone one of u are good in auditing?????

studies and more studies...

cant log in to BB7 where my tutorial questions is uploaded there.. haiz.. cant do my work... 2molo have to go college and copy again i guess.. ahahahhaha... nola... wont do such a thing.... hehehehehe...

really got ntg to type about now.. oh wait.. AC is playing later.. hope they can continue their winning streak.. beat all those useless team... hahahaha.. i really cant wait to see the results 2molo morning.. but no matter wat the results are, AC fans will still support u all.....


"FORZA MILAN" (Forever Milan... i think la)

my car fixed.. and clean..... outside...

finally... after breaking my stupid car door handle, and my window thingy got stuck somewhere, and my door cant open.. went to fixed my car... well, thx to my buddy, reuben chew whos lame joke is really dat lame, got a place to get my car fixed.. nice and cheap.. hahaha.. well, it cost me 50 bucks, jus to get back the handle, stick back those windows stuff, and workmanship.. so.. done done done... ntg much to worry d...

well.. is good to have frens like him.. coz he got contacts here and there.. so dats coolz stuff.. better den me who dunno anywhere to fix car accept those expensive perodua car centre... hahaha... anw.. quite tired now..

studies is coming up next.... i mean sleep 1st onli start studying.. hahahahaha..

meetings and meetings...

really felt drained after all the meetings that i have dis week... 1stly, on wed, had the business trip meetings during lunch time.. and it was mind draining.. there are alot of things that we are to confirmed.. somehow things changes n we have no choice but to accept it.. and.. not many ppl will be going for dunno wat sort of reasons also have.. somehow, im quite pissed with those reasons that they give.. but, ppl have different perspective and i do not want to pissed them off as well.. so accept their reasons and dun care..

somehow, quite pissed with some of my classmates as well.. i have already lots of things in hand now, and they still push me to be our class rep for that stupid PNC meeting.. seriously, i dunno wat PNC means.. but, i really do not want to take up so much things in college d.. im in the OC of the business trip, class rep for most of the tutorials.. which i dunno why they keep pushing me to do those things.. den somemore got committed in TC camp, worship ministry.. and i also volunteered to help out in a Campus Ministry in BU.. wow.. lots of stuff to do wei... Christmas is coming too.. assignment due dates are there.. somewhere near d.. even my lecturer was scared that we forget our due dates, so she posted on BB7(student website).. *&%*&*&.. lots of things wei... haiz..

but, i pray that God will give me strength... God will provide me with resources.. God will guide me throught the days.. and I believe He will!!


on a more happy notes, I AM GOING TO CAMERONS!!!!! finally, 3 days of pure rest and relax!!!

a crazy little thing called.............

went to pjefc to watch the footstool players performed their play.. i would say, it is awesome.. the msg behind those sketches are clear.. toks about love, patience, do not assume.. love who the person is and not by the things they do.. love does not measured by plus and minus.. it is awesome.. wonderfully potrait.. and yes... know how to say sorry... hahaha...

and we cant communicate with dunno...not sure.. its fine with me... dat kinds of line... somehow those couples need to know how to express their feelings... and it jus makes me wonder wat has happen long long time ago... maybe not dat bad now.. well... i jus want to move on... focus on my studies... and jus pray dat God will guide me.....

I love u God........

lame day...

to start it off, jie ying, jie yee(her sis), jane (keyboarist), luke (drummer), me (bassist) went to give iris a suprise bday.. well.. the suprise din work dat well bcoz as jane was parking her car and all, iris drove pass her... and she recognize her.. alamak... iris could guess d la... hahaha... den, somemore the wind is strong, we could not light the candle, den stand too long, the candle almost melted.. so, we manage to sing some fast version happy bday song, which luke sang it... yea, so yalo.... den off we went to old town white coffee for dinner.. had my maggie mee again... den been pissing them off wif my lame jokes... until jane could tahan my cha siu pao and tao sar pao... lol.. and of coz that ants jokes.. thx to boon... hahahaha.. had a nice time chatting wif those ppl again.. reminds me of the days of CC... which i really enjoy very much.. but yea, we have to move on.. to the next season in life... i have my commitment now in church... more responsibility and roles to play.. but seriously, i guess im more towards student ministry den teens actually.. but, our church do not have student ministry.. as in college and university students ministry.. well, i think dats my calling.. to see students worshipping and following God's way.. is a joy...

sometimes i find it hard to share my thoughts in church service or in teens, bcoz, i jus scared the words i say might offence them... so sometimes i prefer to jus keep quiet.. well, not a good idea, but, jus do not want to cause any troubles...

heard dat PWC have forensic accounting department.. so, i guess there i will go next year.. to be a forensic accountant!!! oh.. i love that job....

KAKA is the MAN!!!! the HERO of the day!!!

wow.. an exciting match between AC Milan and Atalanta.. well, for those of u who dunno wat is Atalanta, is a Italian football club, which is quite good.. but din do good enuf la.. hahahaha... but they did well in pressuring AC Milan 2nite.. they got good attacks, defend well, but, KAKA, the Hero, saves the day...

He is the key player la seriously... really played well, assist, dribble all so chunted... haha.. if AC is without Kaka, really dunno wat will happen.. if KAKA, Dinho, Pato, Pirlo all work together, AC is the team to look out for... hahahahahahahaha...

The Hero...

life is tiring..

feeling tired and all... read bout that CIMA discussion paper, which we are to read b4 answering any answers.. haiz.. serious dead tired right now.. cant finish reading the paper.. jus read the executive summary.. will read that 2molo.. and dat strategic scorecard.... but well, is a blessing in disguise.. i get to know i can find journals and article about forensic accounting in these professional bodies website too.. looked in the ACCA website, found some good articles.. well, is goooooooood... at least i got to reach my 20 articles target.. if not i sure fail dis time la... ahahahaha...

feel like sleeping d.... but nah.. wont sleep so early.....

pale....

my frens say i looked pale 2day.. well, i din sleep much.. slept at 1am yesterday, wake up at 3 something.. fetch my parents to the airport, came back, already 5.30 to 6 like dat.. tiring wei...den i got class at 8am.. so dun dare to go back to sleep, might be late for class ltr.. so in the end, i din sleep.. keep myself awake by playing games.. went to college, ate the super hot nasi lemak to make sure im awake... bought myself chewing gum, for class ltr.. but in the end, i still cant concentrate in class.. my brains was not functioning.. and im emo most of the time..

at 12, went for meeting to discuss the business trips that we will be having next year.. i decided to joined the organising committee bcoz i noe i get to learn lots of things like preparing proposal, marketing, communications and sourcing skills to get things done.. and it will be good to have business network, which is quite good for my future, though im not really interested in business line.. but, since im in this course, might as well take this opportunity to learn more things den jus to sit back and let the comm prepare.. take the initiative..

so, was thinking of few places to go.. is either:-

Jakarta
Bangkok
Vietnam

ppl, can u all give me ideas on where shud we go, and it will be fun to be there??

holiday... not yet...

jus came back from subang.. went to library, yum cha wif frens... quite tired actually now.. but, dun feel like sleeping.. coz lots of stuff is on my mind.. well.. one of them is assignmnets.. im quite worried actually.. not dat i have not done enuf.. but, i jus dunno how to start all those craps...

well.. ntg much happen this week.. the onli thing i can rmb is being "fried" up and down, inside out, or anywhere u can think of, by my programme director.. she came in to our class.. ask lots of questions which none of my classmate can answer... (the 2 top students is in my class).. wanted to raise my points, bt, in the end, kena shooting again.. so basically, u tok or dun tok oso kena shoot.. hahaha... but, it kinda motivate me to study.. to really want to read more and "challege" her back.. well.. i will do it when i go class next week... hahhahaha...

anw.. have to write my reflective journal now.. basically is jus a diary regarding my lecture and tutorials or AIC... not AIG... (lame)...

and sending my parents off to the airport.............

ntg meaningful....

realized that the previous post are ntg meaningful and worth reading.. maybe bcoz when college starts, i think more about my studies.. which i think is bad.. coz we shud not put God 2nd.. rite.... yea.. but dunno la.. most of the things i blog about is my everyday life... what i went thru.. and din really put much thought into it....

anw.. went to my grandfather's bday dinner.. its been a while since i saw him.. and my uncles, aunties, and cousins... but, i cant click with them.. maybe bcoz im shy la.. and bcoz i seldom see them, so, got the weird feelings.. but le.. its ok.. at least know that they are ok.. hahaha... and my eldest cousins got a DSLR... the brand is Lumix, the lense quite big la.. but dunno good or not... coz i din see the quality of it.. but for me, either Pentax or Sony will be my choice....

well, it feels weird too when u see most of ur cousins bringing their gfs to all these family reunion dinner.. not dat i felt discourage or left out or wat la.. but u noe those uncles and aunties will somehow give "pressure" for me to bring my gf back, which of coz i dun have la.. so all of them keep say, in canto la "bring ur gf next year during reunion dinner".. haiz.. really wanna tell them not so soon la... cant forget the past, how to look to the future le... haha.. well, if they really wanna see.. i will bring my bass and my car there.. hahha.. my "wives".. lol...

the place where we had dinner is right bside a church, Grace Church.. where that time the worship team is practicing their worship... erm.. is a indon church.. well.. quite lively music, charismatic la.. but their eq suck... coz went they play, is ok.. but with singing and all, feels quite messy.. coz their music louder than the vocals.. den the eq of vocals is bad too.. hahaha.. well, not for me to judge.. well pray that they will have a great time of worship 2molo.. heard they practice "Still" in bm... or BI (bahasa indonesia)...

really addicted to Indon worship songs right now.. true worshippers' song is stuck in my head.. "Yesus", "Sungguh Nyata"... and of coz the voice of Sidney Mohede is really good..

although persecution is strong in Indonesia, but the faith of christians is rising.. they stand firm... To my brothers and sisters there.. will u all grow strong...

things dat capture my eyes......

woke up, den went breakfast with my parents to this shop in ss2 where is "famous" for their noodles.. yea.. den went inside.. saw this girl....... chunted.. she is a waitress there la.. well, she looks more like from Philippines.. dunno how to describe.. but yea.. she is pretty........ wait.. more towards cute la... hahahahahaa....

den after breakfast, went to giant there to shop.. den saw another thing, which is the new Myvi SE.. i was like, wow.. not dat Myvi is my dream car... but, still better than Kancil... so went to have a peak inside.. well, is manual, so is my type of car.. den they change the stereo system i think.. looks different than the normal wan.. so shud be better i guess.. the front bumper looks cooler den the normal SE.. yea.. so my next car will be that.. coz cheap mar.... hahaha.. my mini cooper have to wait for few more years.........

GMB...

now im addicted to indonesian worship songs.. it is super nice.. super nice and meaningful lyrics.. thx to leo, which he let me copy his whole lots of GMB and True Worshippers and Sidney Mohede.. din noe they can be that good.. ahahaha.. maybe even better than our local worship band.. which i dunno got who la... hahaha.. but, still looking forward to our 1st Malaysian worship album.. recorded live in Malaysia... maybe the Hillsongs of Malaysia.. the GMB of Indonesia and all... still waiting...

and yea.. GMB rocks!!!

sleepy... but awake...

jus came back from Zen Japanese Restaurant.. and Starbucks.. bcoz my frens bday.. so go there makan and minum.. well, at 1st they wanted to go clubbing.. but, since nobody wanna go, they change their minds... hahhaa... anw.. after so many years, finally get to taste how starbucks taste like.. order a ice blended mocha.. with cream on top.. well.. it taste nice.. hahaha.. i like it.. seriously... hahaha.. but i wont get addicted like elaine lo...

anw.. got class 2molo.. have to sleep early d...

hmm.. i rather be quiet and cool....

sometimes i dun understand why i can make ppl angry without i myself knowing it... hahaha.. dats weird... well, maybe i din noe something was too offensive to them gua... looks like i will have to keep my mouth shut during these times.. and seriously, i sometimes jus want to keep quiet and jus let the day past... being quiet sometimes makes me think more bout stuff.. dun rush into things.. haiz... maybe is jus me...............

life is not easy for me now.. each of my assignments im required to read some stupid thick article and all sort of things... recently i found out that my CRTP assignment require us to read this super long discussion paper.. is bout how fair value accounting.. some discussion going on and we are suppose to talk on that.. im like, those are pro.. we are kalefe.. those cheaplak ppl.. how on earth am i going to discuss on that paper!!! haiz.. somemore if can give our own opinion, got more marks... wth la... and now, all sorts of articles and books i have to read.... die lo....!!!...!!!....!!!>.....!!!!!! this is worse than PMR and SPM and those pre-U stuff.. i hate reading those stuff...!!!

argh!!

my stupid assignment topic.. i cant think of anything now... i really dunno how to construct my topic for my AIC la..... haiz...... stupid~!!!

formal wear day!!

my programme director suddenly have this stupid idea where all students have to wear formal to college every monday.. well.. which means long sleeves shirt, slacks, tie, leather shoe and all.. alamak... wth!! why am i suppose to wear that... haiz... stupid la.. looks like im going to be the black ranger again.... except for my white tie... oh wait.. where it is?? haiz.. have to look for it ltr...

anw.. im proud of myself 2day.. y?? I FINISH MY TUTORIAL HOMEWORK!!!! which is really rare for me to finish... hahahahaha... im so happy... is a good start... rite??????

week 1 is for study!!

yup... week 1 of college is the time where u get to hang out wif ur frens.. ahhaha.. dis week is not really a study week.. coz i have been out most of the time.. go pyramid arcade most of the time.. coz one of my fren is addicted to time crisis.. ahahaha.. so yala... play play play... hahahaha... but, after this we cant play much anymore.. yes.. ASSIGNMENT IS COMING!!!!

is stressed when all ur lecturers keep toking bout the assignments in their 1st lecture... and gave the topic to us during that time.. stressed gila wei!!!

well.. have to relax 1st b4 i can do anymore research......

book a place....

finally, book a place in the area of Financial Accounting in AIC... well, dun care bout those big words.. is for me to know onli... ahaha...wanna noe, ask me la.. hahha.. well.. going to do in the area of Forensic Accounting.. is more of erm.... investigation thingy.. is like the detective of the books.. books i mean accounting books.. which is those cash book and all sorts of nonsense numbers...

find it kinda interesting... well.. hope i can think of a topic so dat i can start my essay immediately...


ISAAC, U CAN DO IT!!!

most likely i have to bring my text book/journals to camp!!!

200th post...

finally... hmmmm.. i shud be studying actually... but... no mood la... hahaha.... haiz.. 4 articles to read.....

reach back....

yup... reach back from subang... went to library to find articles on the topic im doing for AIC... and yea... found some... going to see my lecturer 2molo.. and tell her wat i got... HAHAHA.. anw... i found out that I cant write properly d.. coz long time i din write using a pen.. most of the time is on computer typing my assignment and all.. hahaha... weird...

anw.. happy bday grace...

classes are not as bad....

well.. after some long long day of class, which i have gone thru 3 out of 5 in this week.. is kinda fun.. especially my Financial Management (wow...), Corporate Reporting and Theories and Practices (another wow...) lecturer, is quite funny.. she tries to makes the class lively by asking lots of questions.. asking us to listen to her instead of reading those notes.. ahaha.. at least i din fall asleep in her class.. hahahaha...

well.. the one that worries me most is my Accounting in Context paper.. well.. 60% of it, i have to do a research paper.. which consists of 4500 words in the paper.. another 1500 words for reflective journal.. so tambah tambah, i got 6000 words of essay to do.. and yes.. is tough.. really tough.. i can see ppl being kiasu now.. well, im one of them trying to book a place for FA... but, dunno la.. see how la....

but anws, one thing im looking foward is the business trip dat my college is organizing.. and we are going to bangkok... visiting those organizations, business ppl for dinner.. doing community work, and visiting some world famous uni to show that we are better than them... hahaha.. jk actually.. but yea... is a trip im looking foward to since im in Year 2...

i gtg now.. maybe i will update again ltr......

not sleeping...

well.. as usual, after taking a long nap in the afternoon, i am not able to sleep right now.. haiz.. and somemore i got class 2molo.. so most likely i will have to take a cup of kopi ais b4 my class.. and some nice and hot indomee.. hahaha... as usual, my breakfast partner will be waiting for me at "rafi".. although they changed the name to some weird name.. but, i will still called it rafi.. lots of memories there...

i thought of writing a post about a fren of mind for few weeks d, but does not have the time to do so.. due to the fact im lazy and i was chasing tvb series for the past weeks.. so yea.. finally, i will write some stuff about her.. not really alot...

well, din noe her very well at 1st, coz i seldom tok to ppl i dunno in the beginning.. met in college.. due to the fact that we are in the same tutorial group.. got to know her somehow better.. but, not really la.. coz we are not in the same project groups and all.. but yea.. know her better bcoz of some gossips between her and one of my close frens... hahahaha..

as time past, get to know her better personally.. and seriously, she is a very very good fren.. care for her friends feeling, helping them alot.. although some of them she dosen let the know.. but, yea.. really a good and caring friend.. i learn alot from her actually.. sometimes, her "conviction" saves me from lots of troubles.. get to know alot female perspective from her... in a good way... hahahaha...

but, now she is gone in the UK to further her studies.. hmm.. class is going to be different without her around... coz this bunch of us will love to bully her everytime.. hahahaha..

well.. i wish u all the best...

hmmm.. was trying to find pics of her from my com.. but, dun have wor... haiz... wat a friend i am... hahaha.. anw... u take care my fren... u noe who u are.....

im a student...... again...

yup.. is coming now.. 8am classes is going on soon... waking up at 6.30am is going to be a routine.. yup.. finishing my assignment last minute and scolding frens who din do their work properly is going to happen.. starting from 2molo.. oh.. and printing lecture notes each week... haiz....

well.. gtg go print my lecture notes now...

classes starting soon...

my holidays is ending very soon.. i will be officially a student again on tuesday... dunno why, i kinda miss college life now.. maybe due to the fact that im on my final year.. all the memories, all the laughter, all the rushing assignments last minute, is going to end soon... real soon.. another 24 weeks of studies.. and everything is done...

somehow, i wonder wat will happen to me and my friends in college 10 years down the road.. will the friendship last?? well.. i do not noe.. but, i know i must have fun in my final year in college.. i have great friends there... friends that will rush assignments wif u.. and u cant find that in high skul... the fact that all of us are lazy makes us good friends... u will hear of story of ppl rushing 4000 words essay in one night.. and still score like mad.. and ppl who failed.. stupid lecturer who dunno how to teach.. stupid asst prog director who dunno how to handle students properly, who are rude and all sorts of things.. ppl cucuking other ppl's back.. and dats normal for a college student.. but, is part of life.... hahahaha...

and i din knew so many ppl when over to UK.. until i actually saw their nick on msn... i was like... wat the...... but, i still wish all of them the best.. hmm.. i dun think i can find any pictures of us in class studying.. coz, we dun study.. hahaha...

anw... good luck to u ppl for this final year.... and to UK ppl as well..... lets enjoy our final year of studies...

readiness to sacrifice...

after that the last night of the NTM conference, which they speak of the readiness to sacrifice.. Olie gave a very solid (as quoted by Jon Woo) message... a message that really speaks to everyone dat are there.. are we willing to sacrifice, even to the extend of our lives, for the sake of our Lord.. I heard many people was killed when they went into tribal areas to preach the word.. and yes... and some are being persecuted.. but, all these missionary are willing to sacrifice everything.. they sacrifice to see their children are being sent away for reasons.. some of the parents might sacrifice to see their kids became missionary.. we have to sacrifice some stuff, for the glory of God to be shown... some people sacrifice their money, power, possesions.. and many others, to be a missionary, catched the vision of reaching to the unreached tribe.. and the Lord has really blessed the food of their labour.. seeing tribal ppl, beginning to stop practicing their old ways, but worshipping the Lord.. bringing the gospel to the other parts of the tribal area, hiking in the jungle for 2 weeks... sleeping in unknown places.. in jus bringing the gospel to their friends...

wat are doing here?? are we sacrificing anything for God's kingdom?? are we willing to sacrifice our time to go and listen or to learn from these people?? is such a wonderful event.. and i heard people say they do not want to go because they are not interested.. i got this conviction.. to do mission is not we are interested or not.. is a commandment.. is whether are we willing to be used by God.. we always talk about the calling to be missionary.. those ppl have a calling.. we no calling, we no need to mission.. we can be good christian.. go church every sunday.. serve there, go prayer meeting, go cg.. and etc.......

if ui really want calling.. go read Matthew 28:20 i guess... about the great commission.. that is ur calling.. Go... God call u to go... and He is calling me oso... i hope we will all go together...


p.s... next topic.. Loving God.....

long time......

well.. its been a long time since i blog.. coz of my internet connection... which is real stupid.. dunno how to mentioned it la.. but anw, wanted to blog about the NTM mission conference which i attend for the past 2 nights, and saturday morning.. but wont blog about it now coz im tired.. but, it was a good experience, good talk and sharing sessions by the missionary themselves.. which i somehow felt encourage to hear that they are doing God's will all most of their lives, which compared to me for not doing much for the Kingdom...

but, really thank God that i went for it.. and later 2nite, will be the challege night.. and i will get something out from there...

anw.. better go and sleep now.. if not, i wont be able to wake up 2molo for church...

hmmm..

hmm.. it was fun during home fellowship, where some of us, really torture those 16 years old teens to some serious IQ questions...

but it was fun.. laughing and all.. and we have captain ball in the evening.. and it was fun too..

at night, which is jus now, went for yum cha wif yang, jon and CW... is my 3rd time in old town kopitiam this week.. 1st one is in Jaya 1.. den Jaya dunno wat, den now in USJ.. well.. dunno wats so nice about there.. maybe is that "old town white milk tea".. which i always order... hmm......

anw, quite tired right now..

nitez ppl

its been a while..

is been a week since i blog.. due to some reason wif my internet line, which i shall not dwell too much in it.. but.. yea, it sucks..

been really bumming around for 2 weeks.. i stop work last week.. so, i have officially, 3 more weeks of holiday to go.. coz i jus got to know my class is starting after raya.. so, i have ntg to do till den.. so wat have i been doing at home??

1) sleep
2) play my guitar
3) Go bentley to by drum sticks
4) play winning 11 like crazy
5) watched tvb series until nobody's business
6) sleep again
7) buy chicken rice from the shop i always go.. (even the auntie and the workers know wat im going to order)
8) and sleep again..

so, basically, dats how my life have been.. and is going to be in the next 3 weeks.. hurray!!!

finished LOTR

finally, after 3 weeks.. i've done with Lord of the Rings.. in fact, in every part, im touched by how closed their friendship and bond among the ppl in the fellowship.. how they can put aside their differences, elves, man, dwarfts, hobbits, wizards.. how united they are in completing the mission.. not forgetting one another.. though arguements may arise.. but, they solved it.. and how a "traitor", gave his life to save Merry and Pippin.. and when Gondor called for help, Rohan (horse-riders) came to help.. of coz wif some other people and tribes of men..

another thing dat touches me most is the hobbits.. they are small size, their hands cant draw long swords.. but short... they have short legs.. but they show great courage.. it reminds me in a verse in the bible.. 1 Timothy 4:12 where it says "Do not let anyone look down on you because u are young........" yes.. the hobbits may be small in size.. but they show great faith.. they show great love.. and, the people which is the men, salute them, for what they have done.. seriously, is really hard to describe how awesome the movie is.. it is jus something that u all have to watch for urself...

besides that.. after attending WI yesterday, i somehow have that calling that I want to be in FES.. after being blessed by them, i really want to blessed other people, especially the students... it was jus an awesome time learning about God, and worship Him.. and u noe wat.. I really want to be part of that team.. maybe after I come back from Hillsongs college, where i really want to equip myself.. more towards the students and worship ministry.. although i really suck in planning.. but i want to be a person that can share the goodnews..

dis year, 2 things really struck me the most.. 1stly, is about Grace.. not Grace Lim or Heng, but the Grace of God.. that amazing grace that God has shown me.. everything when the msg of Grace is being preached, im so deeply convicted.. the 2nd thing is the revival of this nation.. we sang a song that day.. i dunno the title.. but it is a song where it speaks of the nations turning to God.. to cried, to pray that the nation will turn to God.. and there are people shouting who is God to them.. "the awesome God".. "Tuhan yang Benar".. and many others.. and Ms AAA, which until now i dunno her name, she challeged us to go to our Nineveh.. places which we wont wanna go.. places where we do not want the gospel to be preached to.. but GO!!! there is the place that God wants us to go.. no matter how far we run from God.. He will pull us back..

and God is good.. All the time... He blessed me... i always count my shit stuff.. but, after counting how many blessing that God has given me.. I praise Him.. for wat he has done for me...

well.. thats all the thought for now.. and yes.. i cant find any movie better than Lord of the Rings.. which have so many many good christian principle in it.. it is the best movie ever produced..

God bless u all my fellow members of the "fellowship".. continue to grow strong in Him.. and pray for our nation.. That God will intervene in this situation..

"Be a fruitcake"

best movie ever produced...

currently, im re-watching Lord of the Rings.. thx to Uncle Mun Kong, i have got hold of the extended version, which scenes are not shown in the cinema... yes.. and i can tell u, it is a show full of hope, full of good christian principles...

the part in the Two Towers, where Frodo and Samwise was caught in Gondor, where Faramir, Boromir's brother,(one of the nine members of the fellowship) wanted to bring the One Ring, for their use.. while that place was under attack by Sauron(who is that stupid eye)'s forces, which is orcs and Naz'rul (which is some dark rider riding on somekind of creatures).. they fight fight fight, and Frodo ask a question, after being the ring bearer for so long.. that burden, pressure of wanting to keep that ring for himself, is all over him.. and that stupid eye keep on wanting that ring back.... so, Frodo was tired, burned out.. and he ask Sam, "wat is the point of doing all these things?" (in my own words la).. den Sam answers.. "it is because there are goodness in this world"..

U see, when sometimes we are so actively involved in our ministry in church, we go here go there.. plan this and that.. and we realised that we are not going anywhere.. we are all drained out... and we felt so burderned with things around us.. attack from the enemy, attack from within our own ppl.. Do u ask urself, why are u still doing all these things?? why do we still hold on to the work we are in?? WHY WHY and WHY?? for that show, it tells me one thing.. is because there are ppl who wants to hear the goodnews.. there are ppl who is still out there not knowing about Christ.. and we as christians, are suppose to be that person, to bring goodness, to bring the Good News, to the ppl in this world... and the Good News is the GOSPEL, which is "God Offering Sinful People Eternal Life".. and by having the BIBLE, which is "Basic Instruction Before Leaving Earth".. yea.. we are to reach out and tell of the amazing Grace of God.. not about prosperity and all that kind of shit... coz the main objective of the Gospel is that amazing grace...

the other thing that impact me is the friendship between Frodo and Sam.. those two are best buddies.. Frodo is the main character in that sense where he is the one who will be going to destroy the ring.. but, without Sam, who gave him encouragement, gave him support, helping him to decern from right and wrong.. Frodo will have die long time ago.. and yes.. as christians, we are not moving in this mission alone.. we have company.. we have friends and buddies who share the same vision like us... who will encourage us in times of needs.. by having dat, we will move on further..

ya.. one more thing, that would be my quote of the day

"even the smallest person can change the cause of this world"......

God bless u all my fren... May God give peace to the restless...

"a thought from a fruitcake"

God is good...

Indeed.. God is God.. and His grace, mercy and love, endures forever!!!

I have passed my Management Accounting paper.. although is not high.. but, it is by God's grace dat i passed... I thank u Lord...

Thank U Jesus...
U are all that i ever live for... is not by how good i study and all, but is by Your power.. By Your Grace... Your Mercy.. and Your Love...

There is no way i can stop praising U right now..

dissapointed...

im dissapointed at my self.. i really really suck in being a leader.. i cant seems to lead the team well.. u CW passed on to me the team, i thot i could handle it.. im really hoping that i can lead the team.. but, in the end, i kinda suck at it.. ntg seems to be working..

seriously, is really hard being a young leader.. let me give an example.. u are a shy person, u dun speak out "loud".. and there is a person, doing things not so correct.. and bear in mind he is older.. and u are much younger.. and u are his leader.. are u going to tell him about his problem?? how are u going to say?? dat is the pressure im facing right now.. i dunno how CW can handle.. but at this point of time, i cant.. and basically, i dunno how am i going to last thru out the year..

i am really praying so hard that CW will stay back and take back his "job" again.. and he wont go travelling to UK.. coz i really dun wan the team to fall... i dun wan it to fall in my hands.. i dunno how to handle all these things..

although God called us to be a leader.. but, at some point of time, i really think im not good enuff.. i jus suck at it... when ppl ask me to be a leader in a group, i jus cant do well.. yea.. im dat way.. wat i always wanted is the team to be committed.. to be focus.. but, looks like i cant seem to lead it dat way..

im really dissapointed at myself....

last week for work...

is entering my 2nd last day of work.. and seriously, kinda miss that place.. but, knowing that I will need to have a long break, i decided to stop working, and sleep at home.. so, dis friday will be my last day of work in KDU...

hmm.. but i had a hope this week, is to see someone, or bump into her... well.. if im not able to see her, most likely i wont in the future.. hahaha.. so.. dunno la.. see how it goes...

anw.. hope u ppl have a nice week ahead...

things..

got the clear pic on why mike was lying.. but anyhow, i've no grudges on Him.. coz, everyone have sin and fall short from the glory of God.. even David, who is after God's heart, have sin too.. and no one is perfect... and, i still like the song Healer.....

anw, cant attend ps ryan and brenda wedding bcoz got something on.. i wish both of them the best..

yesterday i taught the song "God of this city".. and thank God, most of the ppl are blessed by that song.. and im glad... Thank God...

exams results will be out next week.. if i fail again.. where will i go??

Shocking NEWS??

as i was reading one of fren's blog from Manila, it says dat Michael Guglielmucci was not diagnose wif cancer at all?? i was like... HUH?? den wat about that song Healer??

olympics done.....

while watching the closing of the olympics games.. it suddenly reminds of the sermon this morning about the fixing our eyes on the prize... the prize which is in Christ, the author the perfecter of our faith... it jus gave me this image.. u know, athletes compete to win the prize, which is being watch by millions of ppl in the olympics.. those ppl felt happy to be in the game.. standing in front and on the stage where many ppl dream of being there.. to the biggest game in the world.. bigger than world cup, and all those things.. is a place where everyone athletes wanna be... to see them running, jumping, celebrating, showing off their gold medals.. is makes me think..

wat are the dreams of a christian? wat will make their dream come true?? for me, is to received the prize from God... to received that gold medal.. it will be awesome... i know i might not be able to received it now.. distractions, other stuff are there.. i haven give God fully my life.. maybe i din have that childlike faith.. i really want that faith.. seeing 41 kids receiving Christ yesterday make me realize how wonderful God's love is..

yesterday is one of the most happiest moment in my life... after jumping here and there praising God wif the kids.. wif the song "Victory Chant".. i was like, eh, i haven done this for quite some time.. i mean wif kids.. seeing those kids jump around also makes me happy... seeing them praising God wif all their strength... dunno how to express this happinest...

anw.. downloaded lots of songs from passion.. meaningful..

VBS

after much tiring set up for the sunday skul vbs, is now over d.. had a great and fun time playing around wif the kids.. wow.. and they are so cute la.. hahaha.. got one not cute la, call me uncle.. hahaha..

after cleaning up and arranging back the pews(again), was so tired, so when back and sleep like nobody's business.. ahaha.. but now still sleepy.. tired...

but, yea.. have a fun day taking pics wif Jon's camera, although the shots are not nice.. got a chance to play wif Uncle Jimmy's cam too.. wif flash unit and all.. hahaha.. wish i got one.. K200D.. RM 2499.. haha.. i hope i can get it... well, Mei Xin wanna get it too.. haha.. found a fren who also likes camera in college.. hahaha...

anw.. dunno wat to write d.. jus pray that those kids will come back to sunday skul.....

after exams..

finished my exams.. good or bad, i leave it to God.. i know I have done my best.. I know I have done enuf... if i really fail.. I oso dunno how.. hahha..

anw, dis weird feeling is here again.. after i went thru any big things in my life, when i enter my room, i will always be emo.. i dunno why, but there is ntg that i wanna do, ntg dat i wanna tok about, i jus wanna be alone.. everytime... dunno why.. maybe there is something going on which i jus cant express out and all..

to tell the truth, i really dun wan to go work.. i really dunno how to tell my parents.. not dat im lazy.. i just felt not happy to be there.. i jus wanna be alone at home.. i dun wan to go work and put on a mask to be happy everytime.. seriosly, i felt sad.. i somehow feel like jus drop down and cry.. somehow, i jus felt i wanna be all alone by myself... and of coz go out wif frens sometime...

anw, enuf of being emo.. i jus wanna forget bout stuff..

"emo fruitcake on the run"

Lord, Im scared

im scared.. seriosly.. 2molo is my last chance for my studies.. is either i die or alive 2molo.. Lord, pls help me to do my exam.. I really cant do it without u Lord...

Amen..

thinking about........

well.. there are lots of things that im thinking rite now... hmm.. 1st and 1st, my stupid lovable girls who keep on stalking me all the way.. which is Ms Audit and Ms Management Accounting.. well.. is 2 stupid subjects that i have to do for referral... and im so stress out actually.. knowing that i dun have much time left... haiz... dunno la.. weird la me.... some part of me is scared.. some part of me is not scared.. so i really dunno how... but, anw, i will have to study hard.. dun think i will go work except for friday, where i have promise to go back.....

anw.. the other thing i think about is someone.. well, din noe her dat well, coz onli met like few times for less than 5 minutes i suppose.. but something bout her that is cool.. she is quite good looking, wears black all the time i see her... but, watever that is, she is good.... but, i dun see anything i can do right now.. anw.. dun think i will be seeing her when classes starts...

anw, think i have to buck up on my assignments and exams.. good luck fellas.. and fruitcake of coz..

anw.. better write something i learn from BSF 2day..

"If we are to follow Jesus, we are to deny ourselves and take up the cross and follow Him".. is not going to be easy as a christian.. there are alot of choices around.. maybe both are good.. jus an example, if u are to choose between church and studies/work.. which one will u choose my fren?? and if next day is exams... and u noe if u go church, u will dead tired after dat and wont study anymore... WHICH WILL U CHOOSE??

I will choose GOD!!! which is to go church.. I have been living wif this principle in mind.. Honour God with ur time, and He will bless u more and more... during my year 1 finals, i have one subject which is at 4, if im not mistaken, and b4 dat, i got lots of time to study.. i mean that day la.. but since it was a thursday, Campus City was on dat time, so, i went there at 2, for prayer b4 the service, and i rush off at 3.30.. jus to get back in time for my exams.. and in the end, i scored that paper the highest.. This year, i have one paper on saturday.. and the day b4, we have cell group.. well, at 1st, i thot of not going bcoz there is a paper 2molo.. im quite scared actually, bcoz i hate that subject.. is tax!! any tax lover, sorry but dun be offended.. yea, so i went to cg.. i reach home at 12 something.. den i started taking out my sample exam questions, study it.. and do of coz.. until 1.. den i gave up, coz im too tired.. so i prayed, and sleep.. exams time come, i finish my exam within 1.30 hours... and i have 1.30 hours more to go... but in the end.. i scored the highest for that... and u noe wat.. If u honour God wif ur time, He will honour u back... i noe is going to be hard for me this week, most of the nights im not free.. due to meetings and practices.. but u noe wat.. im not going to sacrifice these times...

"God.. i pray, U help me wif this exams.. i noe it might be late.. but, i really need Ur help Lord... In Jesus Name, Amen"....



'A prayer from fruitcake that God has made...'

Latest News from passion!!

well.. i wont write as good as Ps louie... haha.. so anw... the blog says there is 6000 ppl filling the longest hall in the world, in .. Johannseberg? watever u called it.. yea, but it was awesome!!! well, i do pray for them a while.. haha.. but anw, is good to hear that ppl are getting into God seriously!! It was amazing.. the photos and everything.. i really hope we can joined as one family... to worship God...

Anw, Cape Town is up next if im not mistaken.. will pray for them..

God bless the country in South Africa....

"a fruitcake made by the hand of God"

hows church people??

hope those ppl i know from passion have a great time in church 2day... pray that God spoke to u jus now in church..

anw.. i have a ok time in church 2day.. not that great bcoz got lots of things are going thru me right now.. spoke to my youth advisors about the things im going thru right now.. the stress and everything.. basically, my work there have been dropping.. really.. the things dat i handle, always seems to have mistake here and there.. and im quite worried bout it actually... i somehow din noe how to handle stuff.. and get dissapointed along the way.. at one point, i dun really find the joy of serving God.. everything seems to dosen work for me.. so 2day i jus pour out wat i have in mind.. and jus let it be.. got encouragement from them... which i really thank God for... one of them actually ask me whether do i want to become the treasurer for my youth.. well, i thot of it and thot is a good chance for me to practice what i have learn in uni (im doing accountancy and finance)... but, as i look at wat i have done this year, everything seems to be not going on well.. everything looks so cincai and lack of planning and all that kind of things.. i noe we are suppose to say "yes Lord".. but, looks like im going to say "let me think about it Lord".. haha... i really need prayer support now...

but basically, im ok la... wif everything.. jus pray that the trip to Melaka will be good..

"i claim the promises from God that says, all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose"

I got this "project" not by coincidence, but is by God's calling that im in charge of it..

Now Lord, will You bless this trip.. make it a memorable time there.. and may all things bad been taken away.. I know there is purpose of You making it a succesful one.. I pray may your will be done and not ours..

" a prayer from fruitcake made by God"

God provides...

Amen to God coz i got my new desktop.. is HP... hahaha.. well.. got it for a price out of my budget.. but yea.. God provides.. Have been praying for it for a long time.. finally.. it arrived!!! hahaha...

anw.. really need to say sorry to dad.. for my previous post.. well.. come to think of it, he is not wrong at all actually.. jus that people are different and opinions and priority are different.. maybe he thinks different than i am.. but, no matter wat it is, he is still my dad and i cannot change dat.. yup.. he is consider as one of the "goodest" dad around town.. fetch me here and there when i do not have a car.. teaches me, spiritually, or studies in the sense.. he taught me lots of stuff...

well... im now really really broke.. i dunno whether i have enuf money to go for trip or not.. but, i noe he will provide me.. Amen....


"fruitcake from God"

Reasons...

No one noes how i feel..
No one noes my deepest cry..
everybody seems to wonder..
why am i doing here..

Im here for a reason..
A reason that God has given me..
Is to bring glory to His Name...
And make Him famous in my generation..

Times I thought im useless..
Times I cry because im a failure..
But Your grace has save me..
And bring me back to You..



the lyrics above jus came to me.. is original.. from a fruitcake made by God..

had a so called argument wif my dad again.. He ask me not to go for the trip again.. and if i failed one more time, he is not going to pay for my education anymore.. this make me university dropout.. yes.. im on a big risk of being drop out.. again... im sad.. not bcoz of he is not going to pay for my education if i failed.. but jus dat he dun understands.. maybe he has his points of asking me to stay back and study.. but, i noe for sure, IM NOT GONNA STUDY PROPERLY.. bcoz i will be so damm regret of not going for the trip.. dats why to makes things easier.. i thot of not going work for this week... BUT, he ask me to go.. i noe for sure, if im to go.. i oso cant study.. so wats the point?? basically im jus emo rite now.. i cant seems to do anything right these days..

anw.. to tell the truth, if i were to pass my exams, and assignment, he wont say anything either.. no encouragement.. no praises.. wat to do.. is my duty to do well.. so if i do well, is im jus doing my duty.. if i din do well, den i failed to do my work properly.. haha..

but seriously, no one understands me.. except God...

i jus wanna be in Your presence..

(a cried from ur fruitcake)

Olympics

well.. went to cg jus now.. haha.. but is cancel coz all of us are watching the opening ceremony of the olympics games.. and it was awesome.. the lighting, the volunteers and many other make it awesome time to watch.. and not forgeting all the countries that are represented there.. 204 countries... haha.. it was BIG..

but, when now i sitting down here thinking bout it, if people can do such a wonderful stuff for the olympics games, why cant they do better stuff for God.. jus a thot.. if we are to host such a big christian event where everyone across the world come and gather at one place, to worship God all day.. wont it be awesome?? i dunno la.. but it is really my desire to see all these things happen, and be part of it.. and seriously, if i were to die now, i will regret.. coz i have not seen all these things happen... i wanna see a revival here in Malaysia... is something that is so awesome....

anw.. getting very tired now... hope u ppl who read this blog will have a fun time on saturday and on sunday in church..

God Bless..

from a fruitcake....

I need a new COMPUTER!!

it was quite a meaningful day for me.. not toking bout work, except i got my salary 2day... YEA!!! i got money to go Melaka.. haha.. but b4 dat, went to CF.. well.. the worship leader was also playing the keyboard.. so i thot, wow, another colin is in the hse... mana tau.. he play a while, dun play awhile.. so the keyboard got sound den no sound.. i was argh!!! distraction my fren.. but, while praying to God and ask God to help me focus on Him, i manage to feel His presence.. which i thank God for dat.. but seriously, i was quite dissapointed wif the worship.. is like, a combination of passion conference and hillsongs concert, but cannot have that kind of feel.. seriously, after passion, everyone is crazy wif chris tomlin's song.. including me actually.. downloaded most of his old albums.. well, i do dat bcoz i cant find any of his album in salvation.. so no choice lo... hahaha...

anw.. well, try not to be to judgemental anymore... anw, the speaker was speaking on the doctrine of end times.. well, heard dat b4 i suppose, so nothing much new to me.. jus a reminder to be prepared for the 2nd coming of Christ.. den after the meeting, got the cf t-shirt, den while i was helping arranging the chairs, Wan Si, ask me for my number.. i was like, wat for?? she say the cf need musicians.. any type of guitarist they wan.. either bassist, electric guitarist or accoustic.. must be jus now i was helping the guitarist to get the tempo, she realize i can play.. hahah.. yea.. so i agreed lo.. though i thot of not working there anymore.. but, i will still go back to the cf there if they need help.. i will dedicate my time for it.. im doing this bcoz i see the need there to have a better so called "music"... and less distraction...

well.. din tok much about passion 2day or challenging ppl.. not to say my fire is dead.. but there is the other side of me... hehe...

God bless people.. well, God have answers prayer for Anna... glad to hear that...

"making Jesus famous in my generation"

from a fruitcake made by God...

God of this City..

Since National Day is coming.. i pray there will be a change.. change for better.. praying for Christian to rise up.. we cannot be silent for the rest of our lives.. do we want to live our lives so normal.. living a normal life.. born, grow up, go church, go school, go college, go university, go work, get married, get kids, grow more old, retire, and go to heaven.. that is normal life.. wat a normal christian will live.. well.. I want to be different.. A amazing God, does not create a normal christian.. He create us for us to be not be a normal christian.. i always ask myself.. is there more to life, than jus that normal life... We are to be the spark... be the fire to light up the world... we see how prayers work.. if we are to pray to God for a change, and if it His will, He will answers us.. rmb the story of the feeding of the 5000 and 4000, there seems to be no food.. BUT GOD, sees the heart of the people who followed them, who have to desire to see Him, He provide them wif food.. Just the same as us, if we are to pray for change, it will happen.. Manila prayed for us, God answers.. We prayed for Jakarta, and God answers (sorry to leave out the other countries).. If we are all to pray, God will hear us... not might, not maybe, but WILL!!!!

I've got this lyrics, from a blog, is called, God of this City

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You Are

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things are still to come
And greater things are still to be done here

You're the Lord of Creation
The Creator of all things
You're the King above all Kings
You Are

You're the strength in our weakness
You're the love to the broken
You're the joy in the sadness
You Are

Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Where glory shines from hearts alive
With praise for you and love for you
In this city

Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things are still to come
And greater things are still to be done here

And yes, Greater things are coming.. and we know that... Coz, God is wif us.. i dunno bout u all, i will forever serve Him until i see Him... i may fall, i may sin, but i will not give up on my God..

In Isaiah 26:8, Yes Lord, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you; your name and your renown are the desires of our hearts...

Renown = Unfading Fame..

Fame that wont go away.. Human fame will go away.. but not God's name.. the Name of Jesus wont fade away...

"Its rising up all around. Its the anthem of Your Renown"..
(taken from the bridge of Holy is the Lord)

Thx..
"fruitcake from God"

exams, assignment and trip!!

is will be happening one after another.. is really a tough decision for me to choose.. i will be going Melaka on the 16 and 17 of aug, after that on the 18 im suppose to pass up my assignment, and on the 19 is my exams.. i was like whoa!! wat a joke that is happening on me!! my dad ask me not to go to Melaka, but, i jus felt that in Melaka, something is going to happen.. not something bad, but something good.. not me getting a gf or something like dat, but something spiritual.. i dun go to passion KL jus to keep to myself everything that i've learn.. but if it is the passion i got from Passion KL, i want to spread this passion around.. all these while, we have been very less passionate about God.. well, maybe not we, is me.. i rmb i was so fired up after rbs.. but den, it was gone due to the stuff im facing, den during Campus City when ps Ryan was leading, i was all fired up again, going to GIG, spreading God's love by playing the bass.. but when i ciao to Scotland, everything died off again.. den the passion was not there anymore..

as i look thru wat has happen, i rmb wat i've learned in BSF and also the short video b4 the start of Passion KL.. where the seed that is planted on thorny grounds, it can be grow, but it will be choke by the things of the world.. and at the end, that flower or that plant died and wear off... i know that it is a warning.. not to be passionate and worried at the same time.. coz if not, this passion feeling or i dunno wat u called it, will be gone, and to get back the same fire will be harder the next time.. therefore, im using every resources i have to spread this passion that i have...

Of coz, God has promised good to me.. good in the sense not life will be good and all, but, is that peace, that joy that when we go thru troubles, He is here... His peace, will be wif us forever.. And that is the work of the Holy Spirit...

well.. i know im taking a big risk here in going to Melaka, knowing that im not smart in studying and the risk of losing my chance to study... if i failed this time, i know im not able to continue anymore... and i wont want to waste my parents money anymore..

Be passionate ppl, whoever is reading this, tim lam, rachel, Joanna, if u all ever bump into my blog again.. like wat rachel said in my chat box, this month is where Malaysia celebrate independence.. and Aug 31st is a sunday as well.. is time we Malaysian rise up and take the nation by storm.. we have heard of many movement outside of Malaysia.. lets be History Makers!! I will do my best to be part of it.. i dunno whether i can do it or not, but if it is God's will, He will allow... So may the 3 of u continue to shine in ur own church, which i dunno which church are u from btw.. but anw.. Press On For God and Make Jesus famous in our generation!!!

Same goes to the ppl i know who leave comments on my blog from Manila.. Jez and Merie.. continue the good work u all are doing in ur country.. and read thru ur blogs and it encourage me.. we will also heard news of the ppl of Philipines(i dunno how to spell) will take the nations by storm too!!

and for my church members.. although u all have not gone to Passion conference for any reasons, i encourage u all to be passionate for God whenever u are.. is not about coming to church every sunday onli.. is about coming to church wif a desire to worship Him, to spread His love to other ppl.. i know is not easy.. coz for me, i have not done anything similiar too.. I have just learned this principle...

hmm.. feels like writting a will onli.. looks like im going to die.. hahaha.. but watever it goes, i hope will continue to serve God will all ur heart...

thx
"a fruitcake from God"

lastest news!!!

the post bout passion Jakarta at 268generation.com/blog is crazy.. in one day, they have 500+ nearing 600 people responding to the post, passionate about their city!! passionate about the next city...

Be crazy for God.. be the fruitcake for God...

Ashley's Journal - a summary.. (of coz taken from Timothy Lam's blog)

Ashley is a student of University of Florida, the Top party school in the States. Now you can imagine what happens when the parties would start. She is an unbeliever, living in an apartment with her boyfriend. She was in her senior year when one day she went home and caught her boyfriend sleeping with another girl; of course she was devastated. She broke up with him, kicks him out of the apartment and posts an ad at school about needing a new roommate. A girl named Christa found it and later on became Ashley’s roommate. While Ashley was on her depressed mode, she wrote about how screwed up her life is and every once in a while mentioned details about her new roommate Christa, how she acts crazy and is a freako believing in God and all that Christian stuff; Ashley says:

“what a fruitcake”!(now that’s supposed to sound mean. and provoking)

Ashley gets more and more intrigued at how her roommate lived her life, there was a day Ashley was wallowing over her situation crying whole day and eating ice cream, and her roommate took time to ask her if there was any problem. The roommate sat beside her and started eating ice cream too. Ashley told her roommate what happened and she said she never heard the response she was expecting to come out; no condemnation but genuine care and sympathy. The roommate asked if she could pray for her but of course, Ashley refused. Ashley’s Mom and brother are Christians. She said she would have expected her brother to be good to her, but it’s puzzling her that Christa, the fruitcake, acts that way with her.

Ashley becomes all the more bothered how Christa had been living her life which was opposite of how she lives. It was obvious that the roommate didn’t drink, and when asked if she slept with her boyfriend whom she’s been with for three years she said she’s still a virgin. That was crazy stuff for Ashley who could sleep with a guy she’s only been with for three weeks. She asked why Christa was living her life that way, and the answer was a desire to please God in all that she does.

Christa shared about how much Jesus loved her. Ashley kept writing on her journal, and just can’t accept that God could forgive her. God is just not for her type. Ashley was on her moment of unbelief. But it was funny how Christa would share about her experience at a Passion conference and even had a DVD of Louie Giglio sharing a sermon. Ashley writes about how crazy that was.

To Ashley, God just can’t forgive a crap like her but God was working in Ashley’s life, and Christa is doing her work in being a good witness of God’s love and grace. As they lived together and the days passed by, Christa had shared about the good news of God’s grace that forgives, even to the worst of all people, even Ashley. She saw that love in “fruitcake” and wanted that for herself. One day, Ashley finally believed and gave in and she said in her journal, “that was it”, the day she became a Christian; the unconditional love of Jesus flooded her heart with peace. She experienced this love and grace that God has for everyone.

Ashley attended one of the Bible studies where Christa attends. The youth didn’t act in a crazy way but were interested at her and were genuine. So they sang and Ashley didn’t know the song but she really liked it and felt like raising her hands too, but she didn’t. When she got home, she googled the lyrics of the song they sung and it just communicated to her so well.

Everyone needs compassion
A love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgivenessA
kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

SaviorHe can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
ForeverAuthor of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We’re singing for the glory of the risen King…Jesus

Ashley and Christa talked about how God’s children worship Him and that’s one of the ways.Ashley made her family know about her being a Christian and her mom cried and her brother was so happy to see her. Their prayers were answered. Ashley emailed Louie about her experience, and Louie shared this story to many people, even writing it to the passion blog and it’s being heard in their podcast. Ashley was thrilled that many people can know of her experience, that of God’s unconditional love forgiving her and changing her.

Thx Timothy Lam for taking time to dig out this wonderful life testimony.. Hope anyone who found this touching will copy paste in their blog..

Passion Jakarta!!!

It was an amazing night as i read about wat God has done there.. is up in the passion blog... pics of people crowding in to worship God.. over 7000 people was there worshiping.. and is in a muslim dominated country!! Surely, God's presence swept through the nation... Our prayer are answered.. God has done amazing things there, and I believe, one day, this generation will rise up, and take the nations by storm!!! Everywhere in the world, people will worship the one and onli God.. Because when God wants to use His people, nobody can stop it...

Lets be the fruitcake to influence the people around us.. It takes onli one person to be crazy to influence the people, when the people catch it, they will start to go crazy for God too... Lets be "passion"!!!

My slogan for this year

"Make Jesus famous in my generation"....

And I believe this is the same for everyone..

Go Manila, Go Jakarta... God bless u people!!! and not forgeting London and other place before...

Reunion!!!

wow.. it was a great time talking back wif all the rbs frens that i have not seen for quite some time now.. although we are quite cool in the beginning, dunno how to start toking, but suddenly, wif all the games and teasing each other, we broke the ice, and talk and play "black" magic and all sort of things.. haha.. really really great time of fellowship...

well, Passion Jakarta shud be ending by now.. i know that they had a great time, they will continue to be passionate for Jesus.. I know they wanna make Jesus famous in their generation, their country.. yes... and they will..

well.. i think dats all for now.. getting tired now.. lol.. became driver.....

Ashley... thx to tim lee...

Ashley Akinns
Hi, I feel kinda weird writing this email. And i doubt if it ever gets to Mr Louie Giglio. I am a Senior at The University of Florida. I got a new roommate this semester and she is a Christian and I have never really been into the whole Christian thing because every pastor or speaker that I have ever listened to didn’t speak in a language I could understand. I have believed in God and Jesus, but never really understood it because the preachers at the church that I have always been forced to go to every Sunday of my life. They speak all high and mighty and I never really felt connected, and I felt like God was only for the perfect people.
Well my roommate went to this Passion Conference over winter break. And she came back and moved into my apt and she was real and genuine about all her Christian stuff, like I have never seen before in a person. She said that God changed her at this conference, so i was like what are you talking about. And she told me. She told me about how God was cool, and how God really wanted a deeper relationship with her, and she wanted to really love God the way he loved her, so of course I was like well huh? She then said you need to listen to Louie talk about God, so I asked who Louie was, and she put on the Indescribable talk, and then we watched the Passport talk. And in the Passport talk you said that Christians do not have to just hope for the best at the end, that they do not have to do enough good stuff. You explained how to get to heaven in a simple way, in a way that I have never heard before. I actually got it, I got it that it is not about being so good, cause I am not a good person. I have screwed up a lot. But then you said grace, and talked about how is was different than other religions. Because God is a loving and a kind God who wants to forgive me. My roommate then explained that he wants to forgive me.
Now for one of the reasons I am thanking you. One, I am now a Christian. And two, my roommate said that she had never really cared about telling others about how much God loved her before she went to this conference. So though I am not sure who will ever read this. Please tell Louie thanks from me, for talking about Christ in a way that a college kid can understand. I know that Jesus has changed my life and as I get ready to graduate college in May, I am gonna be a different person. I am sorry this is kinda rambling but I just had to tell you that I now know about the Grace of God, and I have life for the first time in my 22 years

Ashley

I will never forget the day her message came. And I’m not going to forget last Friday. Waking early for the last day of Thirsty, I happened to see this on my Blackberry and opened it.
Dear Mr. Giglio,
It is with a heavy heart that I send you this email. My daughter is Ashley, she wrote you an email that went on your blog and podcast Well, today May 3rd at 4pm we buried Ashley. She was killed in a car accident late on Sunday night. She lost control of her car and hit a light pole. She was the only car involved and had serious internal bleeding. She died in the arms of my husband at the hospital from unstoppable internal bleeding. But I have hope of seeing my daughter again. I have this hope because after years of praying for her, and watching her live a lifestyle in college that is known as the typical college experience. The last semester of her college career I saw a woman, not a college girl that I have never been more proud to call my daughter. I can point the thanks to you and Chris Tomlin, David Crowder, Matt Redman, and everyone else involved in your Passion Conferences. Ashley fell in love with our Savior over the last 5 months of her life. She was so excited about graduation this week and moving to California to work her first real job. She had a life ahead of her. I miss my beautiful princess more than anything in this world.
But I just felt like you should know that she listened to as many of your talks as she could get her hands on and read your book I am not but I know I am and she was so excited about God and her new found faith. Words alone can not thank you enough. I may never meet you here on earth, but I know that someday I will be able to meet you and give you a hug in heaven, but only after Ash does. Thank you so much for praying for my girl, and your support of her as she was starting her new life. Also thanks for being a man of God who has a passion, and love for college students.
Your vision to share the gospel and getting college students to do the same made all the difference at a funeral today. Instead of being sad and scared for her. We were able to sing praise and worship songs today. Though there will be tears and I am so very heartbroken and crying as I type this, it is only because I will not hold her for so many years. And I will miss her for the rest of my life. I know I have said thank you a lot in this email, but because of you and Christa (Ashley’s roommate) and people at the Bible Study that she was going to she was happier than I have seen her in a very long time. In the email she originally sent you, it said she had life for the first time in her 22 years, and please know she meant every word of that. She lived the last few months serving and loving and learning more about Christ. She will now spend eternity in heaven with Him so one more time thanks. I know this was long and I debated for the last 4 days as to whether or not to write you. I know you are a very busy man, but I also figured you would want to know.
Ashley’s Mom
Anna

By the third line tears were streaming down my face, blurring the words, but not the sudden reality of it all. I had just received an e-mail from Ashley a few days before saying how excited she was to finally be through with college and headed to a “real job” in the Bay Area of California. And now she was gone.
I was crushed, but I found myself pumping my fist in the air, confident that Jesus Christ overwhelmed death and the grave. And just in the nick of time, He reached through the confusion and hopelessness and brought Ashley back to life again. Her mom was kind enough to allow me to share her e-mail and sent a photo of Ashley so we could all put a face with the name that has brought much rejoicing throughout the Passion world in recent months. Anna, please know that you and your family will be in our hearts and prayers as you begin the process of living without the daughter you so deeply love. You will see her again. And with our prayers we are praising God for matchless mercy…mercy that saved the day and carried Ashley safely home.

dedicated post...

i would like to dedicate this post to 2 countries...

1stly, to the people in Manila...

Thank u guys for praying for passion KL.. Thank u all so so so much.. Indeed God has answered ur prayers and we have a great night worshiping the one and only God.. God will continue to use u all as the people who will carried His glory to the others part of the country.. God bless u all.. Shine for God!!!

2nd, to the people in Jakarta...

U are in our prayers.. We pray that u all will have a great night wif God presence surrounding u all.. Rmb to be strong.. Times are difficult, but this is the time for us to rise up.. to declare God's Name, to all the people in the country.. U guys will have a great night!!!

well.. thats all for them...

anw, The passion thing is still in me.. So strong, the passion of wanting to make Jesus famous in Malaysia... really.. dunno why, but the song God of the City keeps on playing in my head.. Is really a wonderful wonderful experience.. and really, God works in many ways.. 2day bsf also talks about that if we are to go to God wif a sincere heart, God will received us, and by His amazing Grace, we are saved, and been cleansed.. That reminds me of the story of Ashley.. Who really really touched my heart.. Although she has not been here anymore, but her story impact all nations and races.. God use the one who desire to seek Him, desire to know Him.. Who have that PASSION!!! seriously, if we do not have that passion, God cant use us... Is a reminder for me...

God, use me, so that i can make U famous in my generation.. and no matter where u ask me to go.. i will say "yes LORD"!!!!

I dunno whether i can do it or not.. sometimes i fall from my words.. but, i pray that this will not hinder me from doing His work...

Amazing Grace

A song that makes me cry, makes me yearn, for the amazing grace from the amazing GOD!! thanks jet for the lyrics...

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine