a new year, a new hope

dats rite.. new year come wif a new hope.. life will nv be the same for me this year.. im a year older, holding a much important role in church, being a better fren i hope.. actually, i still do not noe whether am i good enuf for all those things.. whether am i ready.. life is not simple for me actually.. i think life is nv simple for me.. i've gone through stuff which i nv thought i would have gone through.. i began to see life from a different perspective.. i began to see myself as a different person..

When someone from my church actually says that he is planning for his funeral, when he is only 40 plus, i was like, eh, how can it be?? but he says dis, u nv noe wat will happen 2molo.... it kept me thinking.. until jus now i cont watching the drama, which dats bcoz i lazy wanna do my assignment which is due next monday.. a gurl died.. den the guy regret on how he treated that gurl, eg, din care bout her, misunderstand her and all sorts of things.. but only when the gurl died, he found out that the gurl still love him, (they were couple b4).. but dats too late.. coz no matter how u say i love u, the gurl cant hear it.. he was sad, and all sorts of things happens la...

den i ask myself.. wats the things i wanna do before i died?? and there is this thought bour her that came to me... and i was like, why?? after so long??.... if there is one thing i will say to her before i died.. it will be this..(btw she wont read dis)

"im sorry for how i've treated u..................................", others i wont write out la.. but dats the main thing..

im not good in toking.. i mean i was nv good in toking.. most of the time i will be the one very quiet when hanging out in a group.. so i guess i can jus write......

so ppl, live ur life according to how God wants u to leave.. U do not want Him to question u when u're in heaven rite?? (for Christian)

For those who had not known Christ, i pray that all these things i write on this blog will actually touch ur heart.. i've gone through tough times, but bcoz of God, im still here writing all my experience down..


Trust GOD... He will pull u through.. He has done it for me.. im sure He will pull u through too..... God Bless ppl.. hope u guys had a good new year ahead of u.. life is challenging.. so dun give up...