Monday, June 9, 2008

im not stupid 2....

Im not stupid 2, is a show which... i dunno how to put it in words.. but it really teaches parents and children to really respect one another.. i wont tok much on wat happen to those ppl in that show, but there are 2 main part in the show.. the 1st part is the parents nv have time for their kids.. they are so busy their work, and career.. they did not spend time wif them.. they jus thought that by giving them lecture, scold dem is good for their kids.. but, as kids grow older, they began to think more, and have their own mindset.. so, the moment parents scold, they will shut their ears, do watever way to get out of it.. coz they dun see it a point.. and in that show, the parents of this brothers are hypocrites in the sense, coz they say that they are not allow to use hp when they are having meals.. but, they still do the same thing.. which i think is really bad for the upbringing of the kids.. kids follow by examples.. they see what u are doing, and they will follow.. when they saw that the parents does not walk the talk, they will not respect them, coz is not worth it.. and when they do not found respect, love in the family, they began to look for outside and worldly things to fill all their inner feelings.. which some are bad if the company they mixed wif is bad.. somehow, they will treat their house as hotel.. home = house = hotel = jus go back and sleep.. dats the formula... In the end, with such bad influences, and parents does not noe how to communicate and do not noe how to praise their child wif the good things that they achieved, things are going to bad to the family, and when things gone bad, is really hard to bring the family back 2gether...

the 2nd part is about this boy who lives wif his dad.. single parent la.. so, his dad is brought up in a very violent family last time.. so most of the time, he will whack his son high and low, until the son really hates him.. this violent thingy began to fill the son's heart and he began to enjoy fighting... well, his dad was a gangster last time too, so he is good in fighting... well, to cut the long story short, he somehow got himself into trouble, and his dad saw it and came to the rescue.. and somehow, when he tried to rescue his son, he accidentally kena push by someone and fell down the stairs, which leads to hospitalized.. den, the son began to know that actually his dad loves him, but he jus dunno how to show it out.. eventually, the dad died, and the last thing he said to the son is that, "if u love fighting, make sure u fight in international level", "i love u".. den *toooooooooooooooooooooooooo*...

in the current trend of life, whether is in singapore or malaysia or anywhere else in the world, is the same.. most parents, i wont say all does not praise the child for the good things that they did.. dey onli rmb the faults that they do.. and as petrol price/bread/rice/electricity price increase, i believed parents will be more stressed out.. and they will work their hearts out to provide the best for their family.. i wont say is wrong, coz if they dun work hard, who is going to take care of the family.. but for family which have young children, or teens.. those kids need more something more than material stuff.. which is LOVE, RESPECT.. if they dun get all these from the parents, somehow or other, they will jus feel home = house = hotel = jus for sleeping.. and the family wont be strong...

at one point of my life.. i felt disappointed with my parents.. well.. after doing my Pre-U, i actually thot of doing sound engineering.. if u all dunno wats dat, is basically, doing mixing of tracks, recording, producing, and handling mixers and all... and of coz sound wave.. is jus a nutshell of wat that is.. so ya, i have that passion in doing those things.. but after much "persuasion" from my parents, which i think is quite true, i went to scotland to do actuarial science... but, somewhere throughout my studies there, i noe that or i realise that this is not wat i want.. den, when things got worst and harder, i began to failed, and lost interest in the stuff im studying.. when i came back, i tried to explained all these to them.. but, maybe is parents la, they try to ask me to go back there to study, or try to do a different course, but somewhat similar.. which is say, i really cannot cope.. den dey ask me wat i want to do.. i say sound engineering.. which lead to me being going through all the lectures and all again.. well.. dats the time things start to go from bad to worst for me.. somehow, i jus felt that im not in the family.. i jus felt dat im good for ntg, since my parents did not praise me or wat.. and im jus plain useless.. i rmb when i joined a band for competition, our band won... i was really really happy, and i really felt dat im so on top of the world at that time.. but, somehow, my parents was not there to support me that time.. well, after so happy for few minutes, i have to go back to study for my referral that time.. den when i reach home, i show them my trophy(to tell the truth, dat is my 1st trophy in my life), they jus say "oh, so now u happy, can go study now".. i was like........ argh... is really something so meaningful for me.... but now im jus ok wif it, coz i noe is them la... coz when things will start to grow numb after few times.. im not angry wif them or wat.. but, is jus some "memories" la...

there are some other things, which i think im not good at.. and after negative saying bout me from my parents, i began to felt that im really useless and all.. and dat time, i jus wanna get out of this world, and jus forget everything im stressed about.. and i began to be more quiet than usual.. and somehow, i jus kept every unhappiness in me, until one day i explode.. i mean really got so angry at my parents.. and the next thing is, followed by few series of cold war.. but somehow, children are the ones who will be blame for all this things la.. but, who will understand us??

the reason i wrote this is not to critised my parents or wat.. but jus some thoughts after i watched the show.. of coz there are few times i do not understand them as well, which leads to disaster, and of coz time have past.. so im ok wif it now..

if there is one question that says "who understands me, my problems and everything im facing??", the answer is God knows... even if ur parents does not knows, God knows... dats how i get my comfort from........

this post is long, and most of them are my thoughts.. and is very disorder coz is 3am in the morning.. so if u wanna read, thank u for ur patience.. coz i noe some part is very sien....

2 comments:

h0cmun said...

"...this post is long, and most of them are my thoughts.. and is very disorder coz is 3am in the morning.. so if u wanna read, thank u for ur patience.. coz i noe some part is very sien...."

after finish reading all the words, only you put that at last?

Triny Esther said...

for me who has the same parents as u, i feel the same way as u or worst when i was in form 2, do u know i'm actually jealous of u, i always felt left out coz u r always the center of attention. but when i start to see things with God's love it became different. to be fair, i have to say that parents have their own considerations, maybe sometimes the methods they use is not wrong, but we are all human and that we are also in the process to be a better parents, or even children. u will only understand what a parent feel when u become one next time. i also score well in my studies wat but they never really complement me for it, coz they wanna me to do better next time n not to be proud (i know it even they don say it) most parents are like that. so like me try to be understanding to them too as all of us are learning.