guess dis...

Is this sunset of sunrise??

This is our God

Jus bought the new cd from salvation.. listen to the song healer... im touched.. is a very very very beautiful song.. with such a great meaning behind it.. im so gonna teach this song in church one day...

tired yet peaceful..

practically, im tired.. yesterday i woke up at 7 something, go breakfast, rush off to church, come back and fetch my mum to hospital, go back home, do assignment, go out and fetch my mum back, do assignment again, lunch, play game, go out for shopping and dinner, watch Astro Talent Quest.. and do bsf/prepare bs lesson.. and sleep...

wake up 6 something, go fetch jet, go church.. now, jus reach back....

well.. the point is.. im tired.. physically and mentally. but 2day meeting was good.. din kena much shooting.. finally noe why the budget is that much.. and really, God works in different ways..

i will like to say congrates to the astro talent quest winner.. though she wont noe me and read dis.. but yea.. really like her voice.. she is jus erm... 18... but, her voice is like super geng.. her performance yesterday was really awesome.. dunno why.. i kind of like girls who can sing very powderful songs.. i mean their voice is not like those high pitch singer.. is more middle low kind of voice.. which is perfect.. hahaa.. kinda been attracted by her voice now, where one of the judges say, sleep oso can dream bout her voice.. haha.. but yea.. really good voice to hear... hope she will be better next time...

combined class 2day.. somehow, i jus dunno how to lead combined class.. i somehow dun have the confidence in teaching in large group.. although i jus try to act im ok.. but, i dun think im... haiz.. same like my life.. i dunno why i felt really down dis few days.. i really have no mood, no motivation to do anything actually.. sometimes, by forcing myself to move, it makes me get worst.. and ya.. it really do suck...

but, i hope as the days are coming, i will be able to move on.. and God, will U pls guide me and teach me where to go... i need Ur help Lord...

back from kuantan..

somehow, i felt like im a hypocrite in someway... and is really hard for me to walk the talk.. and is really hard for me to keep up... i always tell ppl that trusting God, and surrendering our desire to Him, and letting God guide you.. but in the end, i din do dat.. i dun really trust God, i say i trust God, letting Him take control.. but still, i still take back the control over my life.. and I say I believe He is the King of Kings, Lord of Lords.. A mighty God, A mighty God who can break down my problems, who can solved my problems.. but when problems come.. i din trust Him dat He will solve my problems.. I jus din trust Him... and seriously, i really really cant take it anymore....

jus 2day.. when i was listening to worship songs dis morning while walking down the beach.. seeing and admiring His creation.. And i told myself, Im letting God take control over my life.. i will trust Him, bcoz he made those things, and He made me.. but jus when i reach KL, things start to pile up.. August is next month.. I have got my assignment due, my exam... and the Melaka trip which im really sorry for Grace who kena firing bcoz of my lack in planning... somehow, i jus wonder, am i really into planning?? am i into TC?? i really dunno.. but after planning for this trip and TC camp, i think i really need time to think of wat im going to do....

after going thru so many problems, so many dissapointment, being irritating.. and irritated of coz.. my brain really come to a point where it jus stop thinking... and seriously, i really messed things up dis few days...

with me now looking at 4 walls and all, i realise i have onli God to turn to in this present moment... maybe i din surrender my all to Him.. I din really give my life to Him.. And seriosly.. i need time to really ponder and reflect.. i jus want few days.. for me to really think of wat are the things i need to change...

i noe i make lots of ppl angry.. sometimes bcoz of my bad temper, my jealousy, my thinking too much, or jus being undecisive at times.. well.. i will really wanna change dat..

jus rmbered, cannot be self pity.. not being self-pity here.. but i think i really need time to really get off of this world.......

off i go...

will be going kuantan wif my family 2molo.. well.. i dunno wats so nice about there.. and yang has confirmed so many times that kuantan is a boring place.. well, so going to spend my time there rottng.. haha... anw.. will be back on sunday....

I have booked my ticket for Passion Conference.. have u???? if not........ MUAAHAHAHA

losing....

have u ever lose a very very close fren?? wat im toking is not bout bgr... is bout a very very close fren... lose dosen mean that fren past away or wat.. is jus dat, no more close fren...

i dunno wat i've done dat have made this fren of mine get really upset bout me... and now she dosen treat me as her close fren d... i dunno lo.. i mean, things were ok at 1st.. but, i jus dunno wat happen.. i cant really put it in words when i received her msg dis morning... abit of sacarsm i suppose, but normal guys cant guess wat the girl is feeling... and dats very very true..

she was there when i needed someone to hear when im down.. she has been really really good fren to me.. and this friendship, i really really will rmb for the rest of my life.. im toking bout pure frenship, not bgr (just to make sure u all get wat i meant)...

throughout the whole day, i was wondering where have i gone wrong.. and wat did i do dat make me lose that fren... i really dunno... maybe that is the worst part... dunno where is ur mistake... haha.. weird....

but, if"u" are reading dis, im sorry for wat i said.. and yea, i will still treasure that friendship.. good luck, and take care........

hanging post..

is been awhile since i posted anything.. well.. is bcoz after work, i will be so damm tired and cant think of anything to write.. well.. seriously, sometimes work gets boring, and when it becomes boring, things start to pile up for me.. haha.. anw, wonder why i will be writing this on a friday afternoon.. and u all shud be asking, why am i not at work.. well.. i PONTENG!!! haha.. seriously i need time get my life back on track...

my life have been off sometimes.. ok.. is most of the time.. and sometimes i jus wondered, is there more than life than jus scoring good grades and getting my dream cars, which is Skyline and mini cooper?? well.. i went to FBC on tuesday nite, coz got this pastor from City life Church, Melbourne is here in KL.. so they managed to get hold of him.. so went there.. and the 1st thing he ask is... WHAT IS UR PURPOSE?? and when he asked dat, he was looking straight into my eyes...

so wat is my purpose?? wat can i do dat can have impact on this world?? but, i dunno wat can i do...........

restless

i met a dead end.. and i dunno what to do.. all the road seems block... i cant climb.. i cant jump.. i jus felt so helpless, so useless, and, jus wanna do ntg........ but i cant.. i cant run away from the troubles behind me.. things are jus so bad this time round.. at 1st i thought i wont be going thru this again... but i have to.. and the time is now........