Sunday, March 30, 2008

is been a while since i posted anything.. yea... jus to say something bout my previous post and those ppl who are asking me who is the leng lui.... well.. the leng lui is........

I WONT TELL...

haha.. no point telling actually... yea...........

anw... bought my new racket yesterday.. and.. is good... 2day keep on whacking ppl wif it... haha.. but oso kena whack sometimes...

so jus drop by to write something... hahah

hmm... wonder how is she 2day................................

Monday, March 24, 2008

after easter

things are jus not getting rite... things pops out of no where.. im tired.... but who is there is hear my complaints and my sorrows?? only u God... i dun have much frens that i can really share deep thoughts wif... there is one last time... but now no more d... haha.. how weird is dat..

jus one question i ask myself.. "If i can choose between being wif her but she will feel sad all the time, or losing her, but seeing her feeling happy all the time, which one will i choose?"

hard eh?? i will go for the 2nd options... haha..

another thing.. CGC ppl came and performed in our church.. their singing is good, their arrangement is good.. voices are good... and of coz God's presence is there... but one thing i realise is..........

there is a very good looking girl in their midst... haha......

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Good friday

it was good.. i can say... although my thoughts stuck here and there, and i er er alot... but there is only one thing on my mind... giving my best to Him.. i have done it.. and I praise God for it.. Thank God...

im very much peaceful now.. "thank you" from the mouth of uncle Thin Fook actually makes me abit more calm, coz at least the church elder is not angry wif the worship today.. haha

There is much to learn.. is not easy to worship lead in church as it seems... coz there are alot of factors have to take into consideration...

I would like to thank all my worship team members for all their effort.. i shall thank them one by one...

in no particular order...


To Yang.. The chief Muzo who is capable of handling the music arrangement for 2nite.. I thank u for serving along side me for years now.. the way u can detect errors, and change some chords and beat to give a different feel of it really amazed me.. use ur talents for God... and ur passion towards serving God really amazed me sometimes.. thank u..

To Jon Woo.. The lone drummer of SWCC worship team.. without u, somehow it dosen seems fun... haha.. coz when u those weird beat, to make the songs sounds more energetic and more lively.. really amazed by how u play electric guitar.. those fingers are crazy fast.. and also, thank u for serving along side me for years too.. haha.. we are old now.. haha... Thank U

To Chris Chen.. My fellow worker in organizing the worship team.. really thank u for ur help, but i noe u wont read this.. ur sharing 2nite and yesterday nite really struck me.. and without ur help in advising me on how to do things.. i guess i will a blur worship coordinator... thank u so much..

To reynard.. u have a very good voice.. so give me back my shure mic.. haha.. although u everytime say that u are not ready to worship lead.. but i can tell u, from the way i see u, u are ready.. serious.. u are walking close to God now.. not like last time.. so try and take up one sunday.. im sure u are able to do good... and Thank u for singing 2nite.. u really harmonize well...

To Jethro... somehow i felt u have improve in ur playing.. very nice playing 2nite.. din make obvious mistakes.. but, u still can do better.. jus keep on practicing.. ur fingers can one day be as fast as jon.. haha.. Thank U

To Maggie.. this is the 1sy year u join the worship team.. but i can tell u... u play like PRO!!!... really.. ur playing does now show that u are a beginner.. serious.. u have good skills.. and i can tell u, u shall be a rocker for God one day.. those strumming from ur guitar will touched ppl's lives..
Thank U...

To Grace.. thank u for ur singing.. seriously, u have a great voice.. voice that most gurls want oso cannot.. haha.. so use ur talents for God.. be more confident in urself.. and ya.. thank u for correcting my english.. serious.. if not, it will be funny wif all the "and" and "then".. haha.. really thank U..

To Jo 'Anne.. finally i can hear ur voice loud and clear.. u sang well 2day.. really good.. and without ur help of asking ur mum to bring the candles, i guess we will be much pretty screwed up.. thank u for also helping me prepare the bread and the wine.. thanks... erm. wait, jus the wine.. the bread is from Yang.. haha... Thank U

To Mabel.. My pianist.. u played well 2day.. cant hear any mistakes from u.. so i guess is good.. hehe.. and also feel the song.. dat will make ur playing sounds better.. and thank u for ur effort for coming for practice despite u are tired from working... yea.. really thank u..

From the bottom of my heart.. Thank God, and Thanks Worship Team...

Monday, March 17, 2008

tiredness

i jus came back from studying and yum cha session wif my classmates... haha.. dis few days duno why i so hardworking to college study.. maybe bcoz i wanted to score well in my finals... hmm... maybe onli la... haha...

today i dunno why i reached church so early... usually i reach like 7.30am sharp.. but 2day i reach there 7.20 like dat... so start to set up the musical instruments, jon's snare, my bass and amp... and guitar stands.. set up mics, do PA, den worship starts.. it goes well, jus dat i think my tempo is off here and there.. haha.. well, im jus not a drummer....

in TC, taught those kids about God is an unchanging God.. it keeps me thinking on how God's love for me is so everlasting..

dis few days, i have one of those worst moment of my life... i lost the enthusiasm, or the mood in doing stuff dat i love to do... somehow there is a feeling that keeps me from doing things... maybe is bcoz of............... but, i really pray is not... haiz...

practice for good friday is quite messy.. hmm.. dunno why.... haha...

anw... life is not easy as it seems..... im tired... will u keep accompany me???

miss it so much.................

Saturday, March 15, 2008

bday surprises...

today i so called attended 2 surprise bday party.. one for jocelyn, the pretty gurl who has good brains, and zheng yang, who is my good fren in college, who looks like a gangster, but wif a kind heart.... i shall not write anything coz im tired rite now, but the amazing part is the shockness in their faces when we all sing the bday song.. haha... it was really really funny.. but it was fun....

God bless them..

Friday, March 14, 2008

Practices

jus finish our good friday practice in church just now.. i dunno how others felt, but i felt it was good, although there are some mistakes here and there.. but we manage to sort it out....

dis will be my 1st worship leading in church service.. dunno how will it go.. i dun dare to imagine.. but, i jus pray everything will go on smoothly..

my heart somehow got a burden....... a burden that i thot i have overcome it.. when i was in pyramid 2day, i felt....... the feeling of like towards her is still there.. normally, i dun feel anything.. i thot everything is over, i can actually forget bout her... but, life is not simple.. jus as the feelings start to dies off, it comes back... stronger.......

im tired.. maybe like wat yang said, jus dun like the way i am...

Thursday, March 13, 2008

my 100th post

this is my 100th post.... but there is jus one thing on my mind now....

"i miss her....."

haha...

Monday, March 10, 2008

Opposition Party

as i was wasting my time reading other ppl's blog, i came across many blogs by DAP like Hannah Yeoh, and Teresa Kok.. and also to grandma... Tok Mun.. seriously.. i was amazed how they wanted a change in malaysia.. I guess they have done it.. wif now 5 states are in the hand of the opposition party..

If u wanna noe the situation in Malaysia.. or for instance on how "u noe who" kutuk DAP insulted them, pls read Teresa Kok's blog.. she have evidence of so many things.. i wont say much here as i do not want to cause any troubles around the land and im not the person who are suppose to say so much things.. but, it really troubled me as i see so many things that "u noe who" done to insult DAP.. pls read...

I am also amazed by how DAP and PKR worked 2gether.. and not forgetting PAS as well.. if u read Hannah Yeoh post when she was in the campaign in SS19 organized by PKR, Anwar ask her to stand beside him.. i dunno fake or not.. but this is to show that PKR and DAP are willing to put aside their differences and work 2gether to denied the 2/3 majority.. which i think is awesome.. Even for Teresa Kok, working wif PAS in the DUN seat in puchong.. dats how malaysian shud worked 2gether.. We are living in a multi-racial country.. and this is the one thing we are proud of as we can say we have leaders from different races..

BN is good.. i wont say they are bad as i respect our Prime Minister, and i personally do not want him to step down.. but, there is a time where ppl began to raise their opinion...

For the DAP and PKR leaders.. i hope and i pray u ppl will govern the state good.. and will continue to fight for our rights in this country.....

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Dah Kalah, kalahlah....

this is the statement made by our prime minister.. it shows that he received the loss of BN in various state around malaysia and the parliment seat that they are fighting for calmly.. they din manage to get the majority seat in the parliment but still able to form the government... which i think is the best results that anything can happen.. if government won 2/3 of the seat, they can do anything they want.. if they cant form the government, massive changes will happen.. therefore, the best way is not win moderately... hehe..

as newspaper have said, DAP and PKR won most of the urban area seat.. this shows how strong the dissatisfaction of the ppl towards the government.. before this, my area, and my college area, are under BN, now, one PKR, one DAP.. my church area oso under DAP.. haha.. maybe is the best results that malaysia can get...

as christians, the main thing that we are suppose to do now is to pray for our nations.. pray that ppl are willing to accept the defeat.. and oso to the new rulling parliment/government.. that they will lead the country in justice.. and no partiality.. and the main thing is.. to reduce oil price and to reduce the toll price in Puchong.. haha...

Therefore, thank God for the results.......... Coz He is the one who is in charge of everything.. if He put DAP in control, there is sure for a reason.. good or bad we do not know.. but we know it is from God....

Saturday, March 8, 2008

wonderful day ahead.....

yesterday i slept late due to some personal reasons, which is watch drama, and play games.. hehe.. haha.. dats wat i always do when im bored and when i cant sleep at all.. jus dunno why.. hehe

woke up very early 2day.. at 7am to bring my mum for breakfast then go marketing.. dunno why i have i have to go every sat.. haiz.. anw.. yea, after sending my mum back, rush off to church for practice..

on the way to church.. i felt there is some heavy burden in my heart.. i dunno wat is our future going to be, in this country.. will there be a change?? will things go better or go worst?? life is full of uncertainty.. seriously, we cant predict wats going to happen... and also when i took up the post of the worship coordinator, things is not easy.. the chinese section has been interfering wif the things we are using and the place.. i really dun mind if they use the music room.. but they jus simply throw their stuff around and make it hard for us to move around in that room... i somehow that time just felt so burden.. then when i listen to the song by Calvin Tay from HGC, who is my mentor.. it goes like this

My Reason

You gently called me
Into Your presence
You always lead me
by still waters

Lead by Your spirit
Into Your courts with
Praise

I found my peace
I found my joy
I found my hope and my strength
My reason for living is You
Is not by my might
Not by my power
But by Your spirit O Lord
My reason for living is You


the part that really speaks to me is the chorus part.. start from I found my peace........ when i hear that part.. i was like, "yes Lord, U are the one that im living for.. through U i can find peace and joy, hope and strength..." tears jus running through my eyes.. and i suddenly just felt the peace of God is in me.. the peace that no one can ever take away.. yes.. there is still problems around.. but i jus dunno why.. i really felt God's peace.. I will also like to compliment the ppl from HGC for producing such a wonderful and anointed EP..

when i reached church.. yang was there d.. so i quickly set up my laptop, and the musical instrument.. then when the ppl arrive.. start to practice..

the practice is AWESOME... at least thats wat i think of la.. coz is good.. real good.. the musicians are playing very professionally..

enjoy today's section.......

Saturday, March 1, 2008

those were the days in CC
















Ps Ryan who is preaching, Chirs worship leading, ariel on electric, me on bass, jane on 2nd keys, Sarah on 1st keys and aaron on drums.. that use to happens most of the time.. haha.. miss those days..

Pic from yesterday

Harvest Generation Church

2day, which is a friday nite, i went to HGC for their prayer meeting.. this is bcoz i promise ps ryan they all that i will visit them, and dats like one year ago.. so yea, finally found sometime off and went there wif Jane aka Yuk Jing.. so we went there.. heard some loud music, and we are sure we reach the correct place, open that door... saw Chris was worship leading wif acoustic, Audrey on keyboard and Aaron on drums.. i was like.. a 3 piece band.. cool.. and i can say they are like professional.. the music sounded like there is bass.. and the worship was AWESOME.. really felt God presence there.. is like something that i have been missing so long.. is the longingness that im missing out all these while.. at that moment.. i was really focusing on God.. and how he made me glad, he gave me everything, it was really a cool experience.. i somehow really miss those time in CC where the "old" ppl are there..

Actually.. i really like HGC alot.. it is bcoz i can say i grow under the guidance of Ps ryan.. he really taught me alot of principles that i really hold on till today.. of coz some i din la.. but most of it i do.. how to live like a christian.. about prayer.. attitude.. these are the things i still hold on to.. and Calvin Tay.. my mentor i can say.. taught me what is worship.. how to worship.. what is the real meaning of worship practice.. Ern Suey, a fren that i admire most of her passion for God.. working in the worship team wif her is really fun.. she and Calvin Tay really showed me by example on what worship is like.. Audrey, Carol.. although they have soft voices, but when they pray.. is like roaring.. but this teach me one thing.. dun be ashame of praying.. be passionate.. Aaron kee, a person wif talents.. he taught me how to play properly in a team.. and of coz Brenda.. also passionate for God.. these are the ppl that really show me an example on how to be a person passionate for God..

to tell the truth, i really wanted to shift to HGC as i felt i will be more useful there than in my church actually.. but i realise my calling is still back in SWCC.. due to some reason i cant say here but is definitely not bcoz of "her".. i really want to build up my worship team.. as i was thinking.. ps ryan told me this.. "pray for ur team" yes.. if i dun pray, or everyone dun pray, our worship team is going to be dead for sure.. we need God's help.. and the other thing is that "have fun".. worship is not dead serious.. is suppose to enjoy the presence of God.. we shud not be so called stress out.. these 2 things struck me most..

after praying in small groups.. ps ryan gave a message.. he toks about what Jesus's reply when He was tempted by mr SA tan.. the 1st reply.. "men shall not eat by bread alone but by everything that comes from God".. this verse is quoted from Deuteronomy when the ppl of Israel was in the deserts bcoz they forget about God.. so He began to humble them, made them hungry, then feed them wif manna which is from God.. This is so that they are reminded that "everything comes from the Lord".. the 2nd reply is "do not test the Lord your God".. This means that we shud not test God grace and passion.. although he loves us so much, but must not forget that God is still a Holy and Just God.. therefore, if we keep on testing His patience, He will make sure we go back to the place where we started.. and start to humble us again.. the 3rd reply is "Away from me Satan, for it is written, Worship the Lord your God, and serve Him onli".. This means that everything that we do, we shud not be self-seeking, but must give God the glory.. one cool thing is when u read these replies.. it start wif God, and ends wif God.. Therefore.. as we progress on in our lives, we will start wif God teaching us, disciples us, and making us the person we are.. and along the way, temptation may come, so we shud not test the Lord's patience.. and lastly, when we got the final results, all glory must give back to God.. really.. it really struck me.. i was like.. WOW!!!!.. thats why i really enjoy His message.. coz he speaks right to the point..

I really Thank God for giving me a support group from HGC.. really.. they really blesses me alot..

This is my prayer for them..

"God, thank You for letting me know the ppl from HGC.. as they continue to grow in U, may U bless them wif everything that they need.. Financial needs, or any other needs.. may they grow strongly in U, may there not be any distraction, arguments, disunity in their church.. may U keep them strong and healthy as they travel around to preach Ur word.. Father Lord, Bless them Lord... In Jesus's Name, Amen"