Song that speaks to me now...

Mighty to Save

Everyone needs compassion 

A love that’s never ending 

Let mercy fall on me 

Everyone needs forgiveness

The kindness of a savior

The hope of nations 

*chorus*

Saviour he can move the mountains 

My God is mighty to save

He is mighty to save

Forever author of salvation 

He rose and conquered the grave

Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me 

All my fears and failures

Fill my life again

I give my life to follow 

Everything i believe in 

Now i surrender

Bridge

Shine your light and let the whole world see 

Were singing for the glory of the risen king JESUS

same feeling again..

jus finished worship practice, and im now back home.. but somethings are jus so weird.. i have dat feeling again..

after i worship lead or play in some sort of rally or special meetings, i will have this kind of feeling that felt tired, empty at times, or jus plain emo...

well.. i always have these feelings.. weird weird... i really dunno why lo.. felt like.... so down.........

haiz........ pls help me....

RBS 2004.....

while i was tidying my room, i found a book, which i haven open for ages... guess wat... is my RBS journal.. well.. i din noe it was hiding somewhere in my cupboard.. and when i open it and read some of it.. it remind me of some of the happening that really encourage me most that time... well.. i would love to write out one by one.. but... nah... lazy la.. hehe..

here is the pic of the front cover...

after some tiring night...

well.. jus came back from hillsongs concert.. and i tell u, i manage to lose 10kg of fats from my body and alomost died of heart attack, loss control over my legs... but is worth it!! seriously, worshiping God wif almost 3000 ppl and one of the best worship team around the world really makes the atmosphere so awesome...

the worship is jus so amazing.. felt God's presence so strong throughout the place.. its really really awesome.. the best moment of it is when we sang "All of Me".. everyone is jus worshiping...... really really worshiping.. and at that time, i really pray that God will take all of me... take my heart, change it, renew it.. so dat everything i do will be according to his will.... and seriously... i felt refresh, that peace.. that long time peace i have not experience for so long... due to busyness, tiredness, stressfulness, i have lost that touch, that peace, dat joy.. and 2day, when i sang those songs.. reminds me that God has control over us.. God is there for us.. Jesus has taken up everything.. by His wounds and bruises, we are HEALED!! physical and mentally.. GOD IS THE HEALER!!!!! HE IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one thing that really struck me most is when Joel said that when we are not alone worshiping like dat, we are not the only one on fire for God.. coz other parts of the world, the youth generation began to rise up.. they began to step up in faith.. no matter how much the government will stop them, they are still willing to follow His will, His WAY!!! each country have their generation rising up for God.. standing up bcoz of our faith in Jesus Christ.. ARE WE MALAYSIAN DOING THE SAME?? we have all the facilities we need.. we are consider doing quite well economically.. we have extra food, extra cash... extra money to go for concerts.. why cant we do something for GOD?? why do i still see lukewarm christians around... those ppl who are not serious in their walk wif God.. who are not serious in the things that they are suppose to do for God... not dat im perfectly good.. i do make mistakes.. that makes us no difference.. but once we make mistakes, we are suppose to repent, and try to do better next time.. God did not expect us to do things perfectly.. even jus now the concert, there are mistakes made by the musicians.. but will God punished them?? NO!!! bcoz they have done their best to lead ppl into a time of worship.. that is their call... to lead ppl into God's presence.. God desire us to do our best.. when we have done our best.. God will make dat into something great.. even wif small things...

so when we play any instrument, when we sing, when we do any presentation, when we are doing things for God, we must be serious.. i have to admit that im not serious at times.. that is where things gone bad.. being serious dosen mean we cannot have fun.. but fun is fun, serious is serious.. some churches when they practice for something, they are too serious until they forget to have fun while doing it.. and some churches make it so fun until the seriousness is not there.. HOW CAN IT HAPPEN??!!!

haiz.. thats all of my thoughts for now.. might be more 2molo... seriously, im concern of my church... especially the teens.. jus wondering, are we able to take up leadership position next time?? are we ready enuf to teach, to preach and to share?? we cannot jus look at the present moment.. jus see, after our elder step down, who is going to step up?? if u say those older ones, den after those older ones step down, are we ready to step up??

enuf of kutuking and challenging.. anw, wat i write here is also to remind myself... im not perfect.. i still need to improve.. so we are all in these together...

and seriously, i really hope that the worship team this year, will improve.. and will be committed and serious and at the same time have fun worshiping......

anw.. these are some of the pics... i onli took 2 pics...


Mabel, Grace and Maggie...
















Reynard and Yang...











notice all of they sweat like crazy.. ahah.. coz they also manage to reduce 10kg by jumping here and there... hahaha

missed those days......

after watching many hillsongs video jus now.. see how they played wif so enthusiasm.. with passion.. it remind me when i was serving in Campus City... during the time when Ps Ryan they all are still around, we normally do lots of funny stuff.. me and aaron will look at each other when we heard something is wrong.. den Sarah will push her chords to me when she realize i play the wrong note.. haha.. den ariel will play like a rock star.. jane will be doing her sound sound thing.. haha.. that was the time when i began to realize that worship is fun.. worship is enjoyable.. not something sad..

that was the time when everything was so jus so in tune wif God's frequency.. i mean for me.. began to learn new stuff.. play songs in a diff way.. den bring it back to church...

from focusing on music itself, God through Calvin Tay and the worship team teached me that we are to focus on God, on prayer.. without prayer, God, ntg will happen... Revival wont happen if we are not ready, bcoz God cant use us....

a song that Calvin wrote is called Beautiful Worship... the words that touched my heart is "Beautiful Worship, starts from our hearts".. yes.. Beautiful worship, dosen start from the guitars, bass or musical instrument.. it start from our hearts.. if we desire to worship him, everything will go in place.. These principle convicts my heart, and changed me to focus more on God than on music.. yes, music part of it is important.. thats why we have a practice session to sort out the arrangement, dynamics and all those musical jargon that u can think of.. but on the real day, we must let God lead us.. no matter how bad is sound like, if we focus on God, he can make those bad sounded music into something pleasing to His ears.....

its been few months since UCM @ ss 15 closed down.. im taking these time to pray dat God will lead me to some campus ministry.. coz i have seen so many broken hearted ppl that need God's love in campus.. if can, i would like to start one itself..

as many things are happening nowadays, like the earthquake in China which destroy places, people's life.. it is sad news for many of us.. even my fren who is quite strong oso felt sad when he saw all those pics and read those story.. yes it is sad.. but it is a WAKE UP CALL for us CHRISTIAN!! jus think, if these happens in our country, we will see so many unsaved ppl dying... DO U PPL WANT THIS TO HAPPEN?? not for me......

when i was back in Sibu for my great grandma's funeral service and all.. all my uncles and aunties are non-christian.. same goes to my great grandma.. the bible says that those who do not believe in Jesus will go to hell.. no offense to non-christian, but this is the fact.. so dat means by great grandma will go to........ no need for me to say la.. which i do not want to see... i do not want to see any of my family members going "down there"... when i was sitting outside while they are singing "hymns", i began to pray.. asking God to look at my great grandma's life.. pray that God will be merciful to accept her into heaven.. but......... knowing that God is a holy God.. haiz...

i rmb when we did the book of revelation in cg, henry says that no matter how bad the time is, when the trumpet was sounded and all.. God still gave us a hope.. which is in Jesus Christ.. that is the hope.. the bible was toking bout this hope over and over again... that is the thing that comforts me most...

i noe this post have alot of thoughts dat overlap here and there.. but the main thing is urging ppl to focus on God.. to run the race wif ppl who have started running.. Christian who are lukewarm, pls rise up!!! to stand up for GOD!!! this is the time!!! The time has come to stand up for wat we believe in... since the government have given us so many open doors now... IT IS THE TIME FOR MALAYSIA TO BE REVIVE!!!

for those in SWCC, i noe is funny but its a challenge for us... especially those in the worship team.. "u are there for a reason.. not by chance.. i ask u to play, ask u to sing not by chance... so when u play, when u sing.. be focus, and know that God is there to help u.. do not be afraid to play wif ur hearts out.. we have the skills, we have the people... but do we have the heart of worship?? Do we ask God to guide us?? When the atmosphere is down, do we pray that God will change it or jus complaining bout it?"

no offense to anyone.. if any of u are angry at me bout these challenge, so sorry... but these are the things that we are suppose to think about..

i use "we" instead of "u" bcoz we are a team.. and those challenge above is also for me to check myself where am i..

is almost half a year i took over chen wee's place as worship coordinator.. i do not noe whether im capable or not.. or whether am i doing a good job.. my aim for the rest of the year is to build a team that is full of commitment.. when we sing and play, we meant it.. i do not want a team that is jus going for hype and excitement.. and when next year come, i will pass that team of committed musicians and singers back to chen wee..

SWCC worship team: u guys have done very well so far.. and im proud of u all... continue to build up ur faith, and ur walk wif God.. together, lets build a team that is so strong, that are so committed.. are u ppl up to it???

Hillsongs!!!!

yep... im going.. im going.. im going!!!!! im going to hillsongs concert.. muahahahahha!!!!! cant wait.. after missing it last year where practically a fren of mine jus gave me the ticket which i den decline the offer... how stupid am i... hahaha.. nvm.. i will not missed it again!!!

anw.. since i got ntg to post about.. well.. maybe i shall jus post some photos which i've taken.. comment on it ppl... i need to improve!!!



dirty pond outside the hospital in SIBU...













pic of some plant outside my great grandma's hse...

goodbye great grandma...

on friday morning, i received news that my great grandma passed away.. on that day itself, around 4 something, me and my dad went to LCCT to buy ticket to go back(i write back bcoz i was born there).. yea.. on the way, i was praying that there is still ticket left for us, coz is quite last minute, and if we cant get the ticket, we have to come again the next morning.. Thank God, we managed to buy the ticket..

while in the waiting lounge, we met 2 of my aunties and one uncle.. well, they are oso going back when they heard the news...

when reach my great grandma hse, met lots of my aunties and uncles.. those whom i have not met for almost 3 years.. my grandfather, my granduncle.. all the grand grand wan la.. all there... so after toking, and get ready some stuff, my family(my mum was there on friday morning) went to my 3rd auntie hse there to sleep... wif my 8th auntie..

next morning, when to my great grandma place there.. her body was in the hospital.. she was a buddist, so was most of my aunties and uncles... so they had the "memorial" service, which is putting her body into the coffin.. that was one of the saddest occasion... my grandfather, granduncle and his wife, grandauntie, one more granduncle, my mum, my 2nd auntie, uncle Patrick, Auntie Pauline and Auntie Pamela.. they were crying and crying the most.. coz they were the one whom my great grandma took care of them.. they cry until i oso almost drop my tears.....

well, after they put her body in, since they are buddist, so they invite those ppl to sing those buddist "hymns".. and they bought in a group of "choir" to sing... since my family are christian, so we went outside to sit down a while.. well, there i get to catch up wif one of my cousin whom i have not seen her for like dunno how many years.. i think since she was in form 1.. she moved to other place in sarawak.. so when i saw her, i was like, eh, so big d ah... hahaha... rmb me, and my cousin brother, always fight against my sis and her... like see who can eat the "kampua"(sarawak mee) the fastest and all... really funny la last time when we are small...... so now she is big gurl d..

so after that, went for dinner, den go shop for another long pants, den went back and sleep coz the next day is the burial service.....

on sunday, which is 2day, woke up so early, den rushed off to my great grandma place to prepare.. ya.. i have to wear a white t-shirt provided by those funeral ppl, and a cloth around my waist.. look like kungfu ppl.. is to show each generation by each generation lo.. haha.. ya and a white shoe.. which i think is kinda comfortable... haha.. yea, so went to hospital again, den there the ppl sing "hymns" again.. same like yesterday... den went off to the burial ground....

there, she was buried 2gether wif my great grandfather... side by side........... too bad i cant take pic there, if not is quite touching... haiz haiz...

i personally do not know my great grandma dat well.. onli noe she is old, she took care of my mum, she onli noe how to speak fu chow.. and she gave me angpau when i go back.. i din really tok to her coz i do not noe how to communicate in fu chow.. the onli sentence she found to amuse her is when i say "wa me hiu tia, me hiu gong", which means, i dun understand, dunno how to tok... den she keep toking and toking, den i quickly ask my auntie or grandauntie to interpret.. den i answer.. haha... but i noe she is a very strong women... her age when she passed away is 87 years old.. leaving behind lots and lots of grandchildren and great grandchildren...

rest in peace great grandma................

and of coz, with my camera around, i get to take some pics...



Picture from the field of hospital... while they were singing "hymns"...













taken outside my great grandma's hse...




















Blurry picture of the nightlife in Sibu...

Random Pics...

went to college jus now.. to "study".. take a few night scenes... i kinda like night time, coz i gave me a cool feeling...





This was taken on the way to college, in subang... and i was driving and taking photo at the same time.. quite blur la... no skill.... haiz..









This was taken in the library... well.. im studying.. hahaha












TBS... hahahaha.. nice logo... dats where they spend our fees on... haiz.. stupid college...















well.. this is my good fren during exam period...
RAMLI BURGER!!!!!

Bentong Trip

went to bentong wif my dad's cg members.. and it was tiring.. i guess u can read more from those ppl who went and who blogged.. bout it.. lazy to write so long 2day.. hehe.. nvm, let the pics do the toking.. i took alot of pics, but some are really not nice.. dunno why, maybe skill takde...



This is the waterfall dat we went in Bentong...
















Maggie drinking water.. like the story of Gideon..


















Reynard eating the bottle....













Jethro Emoing... hahah...


















Introducing the new band... The EMO girls

from left: Mabel(Piano), Maggie(Guitar), Grace(Bass and vocals)..

hahahahahahaha!!!!!






Yea.. this are some of the pics... hehehe....

Congrates China and Forientina...

yes.. as if they will read dis post.. haha..

well, 1st of all, China won the thomas cup.. and i can say, they did well in beating Korea... well, i din manage to watch the Lin Dan match.. but he lost the 1st set, but manage to pull it through the second and third set.. den the Korean's doubles, beat China.. i mean KAO KAO... haha.. and the 2nd singles match was the most amazing wan.. when the score as tied at 26-26.. dat is the most kan chiong part la.. but bao chunlai still manage to beat them... well, 2molo newspaper going to write reports bout them.. yea.. and congrates to china..

Next is to Forientina... well, they manage to win their last match and manage to qualify for next year champion's league.. haha.. although Milan beat Udinese 4-1, but wat to do, they still cant qualify for champion's league.. well, they still have UEFA CUP.. haha.. nvm, they will owned in that cup.. hehe..

really funny when the teams i support sure lose wan.. hmm... i noe, i shall support MU and make sure they lose.. haha...

Elaine's bday...

yup.. 2day was elaine's bday.. i mean on the 18 of may.. but celebrated for her on saturday, which is 17th.. hehe...

actually, was very busy today... in the morning, teman my parents go makan, den go to subang, fetch aik chinn, den go all the way to Puchong to fetch Vivian... den go all the way to Digital Mall to get hard disk.. i mean aik chinn wanna get la.. to store up all his tvb series.. haha... den went to Jalan Gasing there eat chicken rice.. and someone got conn.. haha.. his food was charged more expensive.. haha..

yea, den fetched vivian and aik chinn back.. den was so tired, but thank God i can catch a nap before going for elaine's bday dinner...

so, wake up, bath, prepare, fetch Kiwi up, den Jocelyn, den Aik chinn.. bought a cake, den went to Sunway Pyramid.. well, at 1st wanted to go to Italianese or watever way u spell it, but den, change place to ZEN.. which is a japanese restaurant.. well.. actually the food is quite nice.. let me show u some pic....





Yea... ZEN!!!











From top left: Elaine Kiwi
From bottom left: Me, Aik chinn













Some chicken set...
















Elaine's bday cake....... and donut..


















Inside pyramid...























After ZEN, we go there for round 2....




well, i would not tok much on wat we did at Station 1.. coz is late..

see ya...

3 down, 3 to go....

yes.. finally, im wif stupid mr cf, and stupid mr tax.. they are the worst subject for now.. CF was harder than i expected... nv thought it will be that hard.. simply do most of the questions coz i not sure how to do... and stupid tax come out taxes which i dunno anything about it... wat the heck!!!! stupid tax and cf!!!! u stupid K.D and K.....

well, i got 3 more to go.. 2 next week and 1 more the following week, which after that means... FREEDOM!!! for 4 months.. haha..

so, life has been ok for me.. for the past few days, been out in the morning to study, den go for exams, stay back in college to do revision, play games, "tapao" burger, balik watch movie and makan, continue study, sleep at 2am to 3am like dat, wake up 11am, study abit, and it goes on and goes on.. haha.. weird life i got during exams period... haha..

but that few days makes me feels that im treating my home as a hotel, coz i onli go back there and sleep, see my parents less than 5 minutes jus to reverse my car in the morning.. if not, i wont be seeing them at all.. weird 2 days i got... maybe it jus makes me appreciate my parents more.....

Done wif 1, 5 more to go....

yes.. finally finish my Financial Accounting paper.. now im waiting for my frens to come to the library.. haiz.. so finally found time to blog abit...

2day paper was quite easy i suppose.. wat i study came out.. although i din get to balance one of the calculation questions, but is ok, at least i still get my steps correctly.. yea.... hehhe.. den my essay questions was not bad too.. got points to crap and crap.. and the really shocking thing is dat i write until the lecturer ask us to stop.. i normally dun write until the last minute..haha... 1st time so crazy...

so, 2molo is corporate finance.. hope it will be as easy as today... i hope..........

and dis is not a football blog...

AC Milan WON!!!!

yes.. check the score... AC beat Inter in a derby sunday match and they won 2-1.. thx to KAKA for that wonderful strike.. hahahhahaha.. they are still on for champion's league... well, i shud thank God for that coz KAKA is a christian.. ehhe..

mother's day thingy was good.. got alot of good comments on it.. well done team.. i din do much, jus playing bass.. haha..

haiz, the next problem is, we have to crap out another thing for father's day.... haiz.. mafan la all these things...

hmm.. exams coming in 3 days time.. and i have not really study, and i will most likely be dead soon.. haha.. really dunno wat to do d...

a post on someone...

when i woke up dis morning, is around 7am like dat.. i try to go back to sleep, but, i cant.. coz i was thinking bout someone whom i dearly respect and love...

times i do not enuf money to spend, which i can say i overspend every month, this person will somehow gives me extra cash to use and of coz wif some "toking" asking me not to spend so much..

times when im not back home yet and the time is late, she will call to find out where am i and when im coming back.. though sometimes is pretty annoying, but it shows how much she cares for me..

times when i do not understands bout my studies, she will help me, teach me, and make me understand how to answers those questions.. especially in chemistry.. but maths, i will teach her...

from monday to friday, since i was in primary skul, she will wake me up in the morning, making sure i will not be late for class, for morning session onli la.. and prepare a cup of hot milo for me, without fail.. and sometimes nice breakfast too...

times she will buy me stuff that i really like, and really make sure i work hard for it..

times she will be the middle person between me and my dad..

times she will cook delicious food for the family..

times she took effort to plan for holiday..

i rmb when i reach scotland, i did not noe wat to do.. i sat at my bed.. jus sitting down there.. she called me, and asking me how am i...

the person i dearly love and respect.......

my Mum................











Thank God for my mum who care so much for me...

Happy Mother's day....

setapak!!!

after practice yesterday, yang decided to go for a drink at setapak.. so, hop into his car, and drive all the way there wif jon.... met up wif those ppl at the christian homes there.. and tok for a while, den go to the mamak near by... well.. dat is a very interesting mamak to go.. u get to see all the famous cars around...

anw.. i really thank God i got up on time to go to see my audit lecturer wif my frens.. coz he really discuss, and teach us wat are we suppose to do during our finals.. at 1st, i thought he is one lazy joker, but den, he really teach, and somehow, i understand everything he teaches.. well, maybe i like auditing, but i dun think i will ever go into audit line.. coz, it will take up alot of my time, and i dun think i will have enuf time for God... haha...

exams coming, stressing over it.. and sometimes relaxing over it.. and... jus pray that everything will be ok.... haha..

nice voices around....

dis few days i have been listening to songs from Brooke Fraser and Juwita Suwito.. these 2 persons have such a wonderful voice.. the way they sing really really good.. ya, and oso, they are christians.. not many ppl might noe them bcoz of lack of publicity from the media, especially Ms Brooke Fraser, except christians may noe her as one of the worship leader in Hillsongs... but yea, she have her own album.. and i can say, her voice is so good.... and Juwita Suwito, though she is a malaysian, not many ppl might noe her too, coz she might be in the back stage for too long.. but, if u wonder why some malaysian Idol improved alot, is bcoz of her.... haha... and of coz have to tok about her brother, aubrey suwito, if i spell correctly.. anw, he is one of the famous producers in Malaysia, and he work wif many superstars before.. so these are the ppl who seems not so famous, but they are really really good...



see how cool is she wif a guitar.. seriously girl who can play guitar.. is amazing...


This is from Wikipedia.. hahaha








Yea... and this is Juwita Suwito, courtesy from her website..







k... dun think i can find any pic of Aubrey Suwito.. these ppl are really really good...


anw.. gtg now... practice in church later....

where am i heading??

yes.. 2day is the start of may.. which means......... exams is coming soon... haha... and holiday is coming rite after dat... wheeeeeeee!!! nvm... lame... i cant walk...

everyone in my class has somehow started their revision, i mean, they must have bcoz exams is NEXT WEEK!!! but me, still have time to waste, watch series, play game, and do stupid stuff... izzit bcoz there is no motivation to study?? i rmb last year, i was quite hardworking, really putting in alot of effort.. but dis year, the motivation... is not there anymore... and the question that im asking myself is "why am i studying? what am i studying for? wat is my goal when i study?" it seems to be there is no point of studying...

previously, i have came across the same feelings, 2 years ago, while im in scotland.. these questions came into me.. and i seriously dunno what is my goal?? when u do things without a goal, there is no meaning.. coz there is nothing for us to achieve... haha.. really wonder why dis happens.....

is there a goal for me to achieve?? last time, i still can see myself working in an office, and seeing numbers... but now, i cant see myself there... and the thing is, i cant see myself anywhere... the question i would like to ask is... "where am i heading at this point of time??"