no more wishes...

well.. my wish totally blew up.. dunno shud i be sad bout it or wat.. but, din really wanna tok much bout it d.. its over... i guess...

at this moment, i kind of felt sad.. not sure why.. God really gave me a hard time to digest all of these stuff.. i tried, and tried, and tried..... but, there is ntg i can do.. i struggle, i prayed, i do watever i can... but life is like dat, u wont get all the things u want..

its the end 2molo.. i mean for the year.. and its like one year d.. we din tok very nicely for the past one year d.. everything changes.. i really dunno why do i still like her.. izzit really that i put too much feelings into dat relationship until i cannot pull myself up?? everyone says time can heal hurts, and feelings will lost.. but why am i still having dat stupid feelings in me??????!!!??? i really wanna let go.. i really wanna jus let it out.. at this present moment i had 3 assignments due in january.. and i have to go through lots of emotional struggles.. how la????!!!?!??!?!??!?!?

to tell the truth, i dun wanna enter into a new year wif this feelings.. but, looks like i have to......

anw, enuf of being emo.. Went to KLIA to sent Chen Wee off 2day.. well.. he left for new zealand for 6 months.. haha.. dunno why, but i felt emo too.. coz he is a fren, a teacher, a bandmate and a mentor to me... he left for holiday d.. dunno la.. well, he will be back... wif another person if possible.. hahaha...

but seeing someone important to the church left, is like, weird??? i dunno how to explain dat feeling.. is jus weird la..

i really dunno can i take up that position or not.. wif my heart too divided... i really wanna let it out.. but how??

WWJD, when face wif this situation???

I NEED AN ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!