many months have past...

After so many months, my blog is finally restored.. well.. maybe some crappy a**hole hacked into my gmail to do stupid stuff.. sigh.. This is wat i called, Internet Security..

After few months, many things has past.. good, bad, happy, sad...

Firstly, went to JB for work with 2 leng luis for 3 days.. During the 2nd night, we went over to Singapore for a few hours trip. My "whitey" has accompany me thru many towns, and now a new country.. oh yeah.. haha.. Met up with my RO guildmember (yes, i still play RO, on private server though), which i called "hexy".. Quite fun driving around Singapore.. though not knowing the way and roads around.. Thanks to last min

ute Google Map to Woodlands, and wat i always say, Drivers need to have "feel" and "fuel"..

On the way back, met up with "pok kai" in Melaka.. Had a good time eating with him and other people.. den balik to my hse.. haha..

after dat, took 1 week off to study for my ACCA P3 paper.. had a hard time studying for it.. No motivation, no mood until the final 3 days.. But i really thank God for that 3 days when God gave me dat motivation to study again.. and Thank God, miracle happens.. I pass my P3.. so Im left with 3 more papers to go.. Thank God for His guidance..

after exam.. work for few more months, ntg happen.. den, here comes the Interyouth fellowship with Bandar Puchong Gospel Center.. Had quite a fun time there.. playing games, throwing pillow around, watching ppl get their face smash up with "sme

lly" cream.. yucks!! hahahaha.. but it was fun.. met new frens.. and make some goo

d frens too... they have good musicians too.. GIRL DRUMMER!! hahaha.. any girl who played drums is a whooooo!!

Here comes holiday after the fellowsh

ip.. went to singapore with "shiro", "hel", orangie", and "tezzie".. had a fun trip there.. but my legs failed me after 1 day.. =/ Met up with Auntie Neo, and she brings me around singapore.. and n

ot forgetting nice brunch and dinner.. managed spend sometime alone going around using the MRT.. manage to see some good views there too.. oh well.. picture time.. no good pictures though.. lacked of practice...

There is the 4 of them, naming tezzie, hel, orange, and shiro.. all blacks... wait.. am i wearing black? hmmmm... i think Im...

Nice view eh.. oh!! THERES THE CRUISE!!!

I saw 3 leng luis, and since cant take their face, but from back, seems pretty too..

After d trip, sigh... =/ cham cham.. go to Batu Pahat right after it.. haha.. so dam freaking tiring.. haiz.. but oh well.. enjoyed the trip there.. with healthy and cheap food.. but EATING MCD'S BREAKFAST MOST MORNING REALLY SUCKS!!

Came back from the trip, dead tired.. =/ oh well.. at least theres a fren who always there when i need one.. (thank u)

After that trip, stuff happens, which im sad, but I really thank God dat He never leaves me alone.. When im down, He brings me up again.. which im really glad..

sad, down, and thinking bout future.. not knowing wat will i do or who to be with.. but, oh well, God will provide me with a way for me.. ^^

As at now, I dun wanna think too much.. If it wont come, it wont.. so im not having any hope anymore.. jus wanna be who I am, and be the best I can be.. I dun want to fake myself.. jus wanna be me, and who God wants me to be..

Busy with work currently, preparing for christmas.. And.. finally a break off to LANGKAWI dis wed..

Oh b4 dat, Had a great time with my church members for a trip to Bentong and Genting.. although is jus a short trip, but had a fun time with them..

oh well.. Imma signed off now...

~priesthead~ or most ppl called me now, ~fishy~

craps

haven been blogging.. lots of stuff in my mind which is jus bugging me all ard.. cant seems to focus all along..

work? i dunno shud i say im lucky or is really bad luck.. when ppl are mainly bz doing stuff, i think im the most freee auditor around there.. with 2 pending company, 2 other companies which im almost done.. so yea.. basically... im out of job again.. and my boss doesen seems to like giving me jobs to do.. and oh well.. kinda demotivating.. for now i guess...

sad and happy news around... but which has nothing to do with me as well..

mix thoughts about life.. and yea.. i have been very judgmental these past weeks.. maybe pride? or maybe jus my own thinking.. but, im no where far from dem as well.. i dun consider myself a good christian.. i nv did.. though i join alot of church stuff, but, dat doesen makes me a better christian.. when i actually lead the bible study class, as in the discussion questions, i sometimes do felt, im not qualified enough to teach dem.. ppl may see me, "wow, bsf student elder's son, bible knowledge sure ok wan, can teach wan".. but, dat is not the way.. oh, is not self pity btw... jus in case u all misunderstands..

also been wondering shud i quit TC? as in quitting being a discussion leader as well.. I have been there for years... but, as i grow old, felt something is different.. maybe is my own thinking, dat i dun think im efficient in serving God over there.. 11 years.. and i think i have really grown old.. not as gangho as b4..

oh well.. jus some thoughts dat i have been dealing with.. and alots more of coz.. including work/future..

i think i better go take a nap... very tired...

oh.. and pls pray for boon.. she shhud be in NZ by now... hahaha.. have a good trip there...

wat shud i do?

theres alot of thoughts in my mind right now..

1) Am i in the right job? am I in the right path, as in career? am i really an auditor?

2) am i in the right place? i dunno.. am i serving right with God? am i in the right ministry? right church?

fishy is having a hard time...

Night Fury...

Oooooo.. sorry bout it.. but after watching dat dragon show.. i would give a thumbs up to dat... same old plot, as in the story line.. but cool effects, cool way of riding the dragon, and nice flow... hahaha..

cant really do a good review now, coz got to do some work though.. Well.. i would recommend it... GO WATCH!!

from Penang..

blogging from penang.. well.. tired from work.. but oh well.. will be back on friday.. hope will be on time for good friday service...



~priesthead~

in penang soon..

will be driving up north to penang soon.. man.. still sleepy.. but oh well.. cant sleep anymore.. hahaha.. gonna be a long drive.. sigh..

be back on friday... enjoy ppl..

shud i blog it?

haha.. wat a title.. well.. it is an honoured to play with one of the best violinist in Malaysia, whom she performed for so many big shots over here, as well as overseas.. u noe, david tao, jackie cheong.. no kidding at all..

well.. thoughts are really jumble up rite now.. jus noe dat, a famous person, is a very humble person in real life.. can see the dependency on God all the time.. there is not a time b4 any performances did she not pray for God's leading.. things to learn about.. To depend on God.. All the time... no way we can do things alone..

also learned that even though how many times u performed in front of crowd, u will still be nervous.. dats wat is happening in the band.. we were like stressing.. especially the guitarist, coz he got to get the correct beat/tempo/groove.. hahaa...

but overall, i think we did great.. at least the crowd din noe where our mistakes are.. hahahaha.. good cover ups and blufferlogy...

thanks to the teaching of SWCC worship team all these years.. we manage to bluff our way thru... hahaha..

hmm... performance up on friday...

well.. think it is one of the best thing dat can happen to me dis year.. is get to play on stage with Joanne Yeoh, one of the famous violinist in Malaysia..

last week is our 1st practice.. and man.. im so scared to make mistakes and all.. pressure, coz, is my 1st time playing in a instrumental band.. so, basically, we communicate thru our instruments.. means, i got play for stuff with my basss.. but oh well.. my bass skills is sucky...

but 2day practice was good i think.. manage to play better den d 1st practice... ahhaa.. which.. im glad..

oh well.. gtg sleep d.. if not.. zombified 2molo..

wonder...

jus wonder.. if u noe wats the ending of a drama series, are u still gonna watch it from the beginning, a looooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggggg episodes of middle part, and finally the end..

some will, some wont, some dun even bother.. well.. true enuf..

but wat if, b4 u made the decision, u already noes wats going to happen, which is bad/shit/screwed up stuff, are u still going to take it knowing dat it is the best thing u could do? well, after reading thru my question again, there are alot of flaws in it.. hahaa.. but oh well, is jus a thought of wat ppl would do..

while preparing for my bible study class 2molo, which im teaching, i realize dat Jesus, knows dat He is going to suffer alot, as in humiliation, pain, rejection, all bad stuff, u named it, he gone thru it. But, because of fulfilling the Father's will, he still chooses to go thru it. Well, if He wants to turn away, and forget bout His "duty" on earth, He could, as He is fully human as well. Not to forget He is fully God, which means, He is God. But yet, He still wants to save us from sin, bring us back to the Father.. This concept cant be understood by everyone.. i fully understand dat.. I mean, who will be so dumb to save human from going to hell. Humans are useless being, though we can think and all, but we still sin (talking bout myself). Knowing dat doing a certain thing is wrong, we still do it.. sometimes we rationalize dat, "im only human, and is perfectly normal for human to fall." I agree that we are easily led creatures, and we can fall easily.. but, without putting a

stand against it, jus accepting the defeat, man, dats sucks (talking bout myself).

Well, seriously, i wonder how usefull am i.. maybe im, but, maybe im not.. i dunno.. not emo, if u think im, but.. jus a thought.. not siao either..

looks nice to me.... hahaha...

impossible...

its impossible isaac... dis will nv happen to u.. and im sure of dat.. why do u keep thinking? why do u keep wondering? u noe its impossible.. so dam it.. jus forget bout it...