no more wishes...

well.. my wish totally blew up.. dunno shud i be sad bout it or wat.. but, din really wanna tok much bout it d.. its over... i guess...

at this moment, i kind of felt sad.. not sure why.. God really gave me a hard time to digest all of these stuff.. i tried, and tried, and tried..... but, there is ntg i can do.. i struggle, i prayed, i do watever i can... but life is like dat, u wont get all the things u want..

its the end 2molo.. i mean for the year.. and its like one year d.. we din tok very nicely for the past one year d.. everything changes.. i really dunno why do i still like her.. izzit really that i put too much feelings into dat relationship until i cannot pull myself up?? everyone says time can heal hurts, and feelings will lost.. but why am i still having dat stupid feelings in me??????!!!??? i really wanna let go.. i really wanna jus let it out.. at this present moment i had 3 assignments due in january.. and i have to go through lots of emotional struggles.. how la????!!!?!??!?!??!?!?

to tell the truth, i dun wanna enter into a new year wif this feelings.. but, looks like i have to......

anw, enuf of being emo.. Went to KLIA to sent Chen Wee off 2day.. well.. he left for new zealand for 6 months.. haha.. dunno why, but i felt emo too.. coz he is a fren, a teacher, a bandmate and a mentor to me... he left for holiday d.. dunno la.. well, he will be back... wif another person if possible.. hahaha...

but seeing someone important to the church left, is like, weird??? i dunno how to explain dat feeling.. is jus weird la..

i really dunno can i take up that position or not.. wif my heart too divided... i really wanna let it out.. but how??

WWJD, when face wif this situation???

I NEED AN ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

same day...

well.. got lots of wishes from my collegemate, church members, frens, high skul frens.. well.. i really appreciate it.. hehe.. thx alot once again..

i had a memorable bday 2day.. ppl celebrate their bday in malls, mamak, and other nice places.. but i celebrate my bday in church, cleaning up.. it was superb tiring.. haha.. but dunno why, i kind of enjoy it.. seeing everyone helping each other clean up the church, pouring out water from the baptism pool, vacuuming water(u actually can do dat).. shifting stuff from upstairs to down stairs.. and lots more.. really tired rite now..

but there is one more wish before the clocks hits 12... is too personal to write it here, but my cg gangsters shud noe wat i wish for.. haha.. if it is God's will.....

maybe i shud not hope for much.. i do had a fun time 2day.. thank u everyone.. especially my cg members.. u guys made my bday a memorable one.. especially dat "facial".. haha.. yang, can i have a pic on dat.. haha..

jus checked.. ntg.... maybe, nah.. nvm..

2molo will be my 1st day taking over chen wee's position as worship coordinator, pray dat God will guide me through.....

the day

went to teluk Gong yesterday for our cg outing.. it was fun.. eating and eating and eating.. one of the best seafood around town.. haha...

din really noe how to explain on wat happen dis morning at 12.. the whole bunch of ppl come to my hse wif a "bun" wif a candle.. i was like.. ok....... but im really happy.. haha.. though lots of stuff go through my face.. some weird "facial" on.. but it was fun.. haha.. though i din make it fun.. haha.. coz i was "cool" all the way... muahahahahaha...

but, wat i wish for 2day.. most likely wont come true.. i shall make the same wish again for next year... haha

1++ more days......

a day dat i've been waiting for one year... has finally arriving soon.. din noe wat to expect, so i will just wait..

watched a drama, dat episode is about this gurl coupleing wif another guy when her ex din treat her nice enuf, or like take her for granted like dat... so makes me thinks back on what happen last time.........

Christmas is the time when memories flashes back... sometimes, is jus so hard to let go when it keep coming to u...

The only hope i left now is God... Jesus Christ, which is the reason i live....

God, will U guide my way.. be the Light of my life...

Thank U God...

"Emo now, so will post other things dat happens 2day later..."

hay wire

haha.. Christmas eve service was not as good as i can think off.. the only thing dat was nice is the lightings.. dats the only thing nice.. i wont comment much on how the worship and drama thingy, coz it wasn't dat good.. i mean not them, but the small small technical stuff.. received alot of comments, good and not good.. but who cares.. its over, and im glad.. haha..

Things din go the way i wanted.. but, it was ok in some sense la.. we really need to practice more, and rehearsal more to get the feel of the things happening on dat day.. dats the thing i learn from all the mistakes i made..

slumber party was ok.. everyone was pretty tired after a long day.. so we slept at 4am.. after makan and some chit-chatting...

woke up at 11 something, watched cartoon network, went to uncle thin fook's hse for lunch, makan, sing song, and jus had meeting wif chen wee and chris for the worship ministry stuff..

Chen Wee is leaving soon.. well, i bet all of us will miss him.. though onli for 6 months.. haha.. he is a blessing for the church.. his talents is like WOW, and really, those times dat we come for jamming session at church on wed nite, that was the killer, bcoz of that, our skills improved..

anw.. those jokers will be going rbs 2molo.. hope they will experience God in a diff way.. haha..

ciaoing now, very tired, but dun think i will sleep.. the next question i had to ask myself again...

"wat to eat for dinner?"....

today is the day

well.. im feeling worried, exited, being sien(coz got 5 hrs break).. and many others mix feelings.. hmm.. dunno how 2nite will be?? hope it will be nice, and fun.. i hope.. haha..

well.. doing stupid things now.. i mean real stupid.. haha.. im feeling very the tired.. feel like sleeping d.. sure dat joker will put me to sleep in 20 minutes time.. haha..

anw..

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

Christmas Eve......

2molo is Christmas eve.. yup.. and i will be playing bass for worship, and sound guy, and lighting guy.. haha.. have to rush after class to church 2molo to set up..

dunno why.. i felt scared/worried.. is jus not me.. i kinda felt lonely.. serious.. my mood is not really dat happy.. felt drained out.. and many not good feelings.. well.. i really dunno how am i going to react 2molo.. if there is a wish that confirm can be fulfilled.... i wish..... she will really enjoy herself.. rmb last year, funny year.. but at least i had fun..

i really thank God.. i actually can biasa without smsing her every single day.. i thot i would be siao for this whole year.. but i actually made it.. i kinda felt relieve.. God really pull me through when im in need.. Thank God..

yupz.. i really kinda felt lonely now.. hope a miracle will happen.. haha.. but my personal hope normally wont come true..

Im going give my best 2molo....... I promise I will......

Taman Desa Waterpark

it was fantastic as i can say.. but din manage to play the most interesting part.. haiz.. sorry ppl.. and now.. kena sun burned.. painful la my face and shoulder.. ouch..

haha... well i dunno how to explain wat we did 2day.. but wat i can say is FUN.. we actually can start a story based on the shots dat jon took.. haha..

looks like no more GIG

well... i dun think i will be playing d.. coz Luke din update me on anything, and the person din call.. so i suppose no la.. but its ok.. at least i have time to rest more.. quite tired dis few days..

anw.. i bet grace and maggie will jumping up and down when they saw the match between MU and Liverpool.. haha.. coz MU won.. well, for me i think the shot was a "kai" shot.. haha.. nvm nvm.. den had a fun time in tax class jus now coz keep on ejek mr kumar bcoz liverpool lost.. muahahaha.. dats funny.. now i got kaki d.. Yvoone and Zheng De.. keep on making fun of him.. haha.. maybe im such a bad influence in class.. hehe

anw.. really got to type out my essay plan for my assignment, if not, IM DEAD!!!

Christmas

as wat henry said, when u're getting older, christmas is not as happening as it used to be.. well.. since a kid, i loved christmas, well, not really bcoz Jesus came down to earth.. but i was exited bcoz of the gift i will received from my parents, and from church.. haha.. but, as days past, i began to view christmas differently.. Christmas became more personal, more indept den present.. i began to feel more grateful to God of such gift that has given to us.. for now, i still do not have mood for christmas bcoz, a bz week coming ahead.. well, have to give my assignment draft to my lecturer, den meeting for the buddy system thingy in my college, my performance, practice for christmas 2 morning in a row, tc outing.. and others la, which i cant rmb.. was really tired of running around yesterday.. getting gifts for the teens..

anw.. back to christmas.. yea, it was not really exiting, coz i dun have any wishes dat i would want, or any gifts im looking forward to get.. the only thing dat really exiting is my performance on wed nite, if everything is as planned.. the only thing is of coz "Christ"mas.. well, we wont celebrate His bday if He is not born.. that is the only reason dat i wanna fully focus on.. last time is to attract someone, but now, got a different mindset..

anw.. i've been praying hard bout my future, as in where does God wanna place me in next few years.. I really dunno, as i cant envision how my future will be like.. so jus go with the flow..

haiz.. have to go listen to some lawyer about wat writing a will.. well, my dad is not around, so ask me to go listen.. haiz.. dunno for wat..

ciao

Joker

i look at ur smiling face again.. its nice.. but, is not me who can make u smile.. im gone...........

GIG

finally had a change to do gig.. luke called me dis afternoon and ask me whether do i wanna perform in an annual dinner.. solo.. i mean acoustic solo.. well.. at 1st i was still thinking whether shud i agree or not.. but, it is a good experience for me.. since when do i have chance to perform like dis in an annual dinner.. haha.. well, yet to get any details from him.. but hope it will be great.. will be performing carols..

anw.. finally our cf assignment due date is 2molo... hope everything will be ok.. haha..

ciao..

not a really happy sunday..

2day.. wasn really quite good.. morning worship was well.. but was not really happy, due to some reason.. not bgr as most of u would think so.. den during tc worship, looks like i screwed up everything.. bcoz of some remarks dat i make.. but the atmosphere was so dead and we are singing "my redeemer's lives".. it suppose to be a happy song.. well, but when i "encourage" dem to sing wif a more happy mood, and some thing like dat, things got worst.. din really like d feeling of it.. but wat can i do.. jus have to accept dat.. somehow i felt wat i did dis year did not get much so called appreciation from other ppl, be it in church or in college.. especially in college.. nobody cares how u done it, they jus care about the results.. i've gone all out to ask most of the ppl on how they are doing their cashflow(some assignment thing), korek here and there, den wif Kiwi's help, finally done everything until nice nice.. but in the end, din noe how to cont.. but i really cant tahan.. haiz.. i din intend to be a free rider.. but they keep doing stuff on their own, din tell me anything, fine, den i might as well be a free rider on my report.. i left them when they are discussing.. coz i dun felt being there, somehow it jus like being "rejected".. and dat hurts..

i've been thinking.. how can i lead the worship team next year? i've been coming out wif crazy ideas, but din tell out.. is not a good judgment on my teens/worship team members, but, i somehow felt dat if they worship in TC wif d tak ape attitude, dey are not ready to really play in main service.. actually, there is one thing which im scared when i take up the post.. dat is ppl wont agree wif the way i do things.. or maybe i would say they dun like me taking up d post.. u see, im jus a young kid, will they backed my up.. i oso fear dat they will think i will simply use my "power" as a worship coordinator.. if i start to "shoot" those ppl, coz i was not really happy wif their attitude in serving, they might think dat "isaac is simply using his power to scold me, coz im not his fren" or something like dat.. argh.. dat sucks.. wat i really want is to have ppl to enjoy serving God, and at the same time being serious wif Him.. i think there is only one thing different between our worship team and hillsong's worship team.. dat is when hillsongs play, they play all out.. which is giving their best.. dats why they are succesful.. if we play without giving our best, wats the point of playing.. if we sing without giving our best, wats the point of singing.. if we do not meant wat we sing, wat for we wanna sing out the words.. if ppl cant see how important this ministry is, i really got ntg to say.. i cant do it without my team support.. i really cant.. its a one man show thingy.. maybe my ideas are jus too ambitious.. i hope.. at least, their attitude towards worship will change.. who am i?? nobody..

really emo rite now.. i din noe wat to do.. felt left out.. no one to turn to.. onli Jesus.. thank u God for being wif me.. seriously.. i dun think im a good fren, teacher, musician, and a leader.. i screwed up most of my stuff..

im such a joker...

im tired..

Yesterday i dreamt something i shud nt dream about.. i woke up having a blur face.. dunno wat is happening to me.. den next, go college, having discussion.. feeling tired of arguing bout points, and at this point of time, i would really want to be a free rider.. serious.. im tired of doing this assignment, finding how to do dat &^*()^% cash flow really makes me wanna die d.. somemore now keep on arguing wif my group members, i felt tired.. din wanna tok bout dis assignment d.. if my cash flow is wrong, there is one more group cash flow will be wrong.. and i will feel bad for the rest of my life, coz teaching them the wrong thing.. argh!!!.. since they want to do it this way, up to dem.. i did my part.. and dats all..

anw.. jus tired and plain emo..

year 2008..

after watching some music video of hillsongs, like point of difference, hosanna, and breakfree, there is one statement/phrase going in my mind.. that is "building a bunch of musicians that fear God, will play their best, and will be the difference in their circles of friends".. this will be my motto for next year, or wat they called, mission statement (thx to Management Accounting assignment).. its really important for musicians to live a life dat is honorable to God.. this is the area which im weak in.. really weak in, i fall into temptation, and i realise dat God does not want this to happen.. i really need to change, with God's help coz i cant do it alone..

for SWCC musicians or worship team members who are reading this post, i hope dat we will actually strive our best to be a person that fear God, who has the right attitude towards God in our serving.. we are serving God, not serving ourselves.. I pray dat during this year, we will build a strong team.. a very very strong team.. not group.. Group is a bunch of ppl jus gathering there.. but a team is a bunch of ppl who have the same common goal and the bonding among team members.. let us be the difference, the light among all other darkness.. If God is for us, who will be against us.. Let us breakfree.. breakfree from our bondage, comfort zone, and all those which is holding us back.. and let us praise God in the highest.. dis 3 songs really speaks to me.. and lead us to the Cross, which is where our 1st love is, which is Jesus dying for us.. let us united, as we stand against the enemy that will pull us back.. and let there be a revival in our land.. dat is what we want to see.. it will be great if u all are in this together.. we might lack of musicians next year, but, let us not be discourage bcoz of dat, coz God will provide, and we will make do wif wat we have.. one guitarist, let there be one, one drummer for the next 10 years, let there be one.. the number does not hinder us from serving God.. if there are onli 10 ppl in the church service, are u going to play as if there are onli 10 ppl, or are u gonna play as if there are 100 or 1000s of ppl?? are u willing to see wif eyes of faith??

think as this year is coming to an end.. dis year is good.. but, do we want to be better??

"God, as we continue to serve u, continue to give u our best, i pray, U bless each one of us, keep us united, and play as a team.. not a group.. In Jesus Name, Amen.."

crazy stuff

yesterday, i really felt my hse was like a hotel.. onli yesterday.. coz after my class, i stay back until like 12 something in the morning, den bath and everything.. den go sleep, den wake up, and go class.. i mean like is like a normal hotel.. haha..

basically cant really opened my eyes rite now, and i think i sort of had "hang over", coz i felt dizzy rite now.. must be due to not enuf sleep.. i think.. haiz.. tired tired...

anw.. brain jam.. oh ya.. i did another crazy thing again.. which is driving my kancil at 130km/h.. well, coz too sleepy, din realise i drive fast.. haha..

finally realised

finally.. i've learn how to let go.. based on alot of incident, dat makes me think, and rethink, and maybe is time.. is time to let go..

there is one thing i cant seems to forget.. her happy, feeling kind of joyful looks.. i can nv forget that.. but when i come to think of it, i realised dat i cant make her have dat kind of looks.. i cant seems to make her happy like how i did last time.. no matter how hard i tried, it jus failed.. but when she was reading her sms, dat look on her face, makes me wonder.. and there is this voice.. "hey, look at her smile, is dat wat u are trying to make to do?? but u cant, if other ppl can make her smile, why dun u jus let go of her and let her be happy all the time.. wat u r trying to do now is making her more sad, the more smses u sent, the more upset she will be.. she is more upset, u will be upset, wats the point if everyone is upset?? if u really love her, u must not let that smile be away from her.." den i realise, im doing stupid things all of dis 2 years.. i din make her smile, laugh, that joyful feeling.. but instead, im giving her more pressure.. her smile makes me go after her in the beginning, but, it makes me wanna stop now.. she had the sweetest smile ever.. for me la.. if i dun care bout her, can make her smile more, why not?? in the end, to love a person is to make her happy.. u dun care can make her happy, den dun care.. dats the only way left..

and ppl, i think i tok bout this understanding ur partner topic alot of time.. but i really think, this is one of the most important aspect in the relationship besides God.. a relationship is good or bad, is based on how "understandable" are u towards ur the other half.. if u cant understand her, no point.. and this is wat she told me last time, which i think is true.. "if u wanna noe whether the other person is ur true one, jus see whether u can tolerate his worst habit.. if u can, he/she is the one, if u cant, forget it and look for other ppl".. i guess she cant tolerate my worst habit..

this are some of the things which i had in mind about BGR.. is really good to have a very good experience, and a bad one.. it makes u grow, change ur perspective.. i hope it change her too..

Signning off
jOkEr

i really like ur smile, keep smilling.. coz u look the best.. i dun bluff u, i nv did it to u..

headache

haiz.. din have enuf rest.. haiz.. wat a joker la me.. so now im so freaking tired.. until got headache.. thank God there is panadol.. well, at least now not so painful like dis morning.. haiz.. cham cham cham..

anw.. class starting liao.. ya, for u who has astro movie, go and watch the show "accepted".. i forgotten when it is showing, but i can assure u, its a nice movie to watch..

ciao

Signning off
jOkEr

i got headache.. how are u?? feeling ok??

Retreat

wow.. we had our tc's student comm retreat.. well, i wont write so much here.. coz u can actually read more from my other frens punya blog.. coz too many exiting happens, and as u read from there, u can see how they view this retreat in their perspective.. well, mine is not so important, coz im too tired to think... haha.. anw.. really learned alot, makes me use up every juices of brain fluids i had, and i did quite ok in giving a sermon.. maybe i shall be a pastor.. nah.. i will bored those jokers up..

anw.. fun is the thing i can say bout this.. had to rush through my assignments after class 2molo.. if not.... we are doom!!!!.. well, we are soon to be doom actually.. really getting fed up of those meetings.. dunno la.. i prefer working wif those ppl from group 2.. not to say my group is not good, but preference...

anw.. think i gtg now.. its getting late.. very late i mean..

ciao

Signning off
jOkEr

i had fun.. do u?? i hope u do.. well, can see from ur face, u did...

Amazing race... Asia

jus finished watching amazing race asia 2.. d 2nd episode.. well.. its was funny and nice, and dunno why alot of girls pairs joining dis time.. and all of dem are... not bad.. in terms of looks and character.. haha.. u shud watch.. u all shud watch..

d one i would like to highlight is the last pair.. well, i dunno la.. they are couple, but they dun seems to have any communication between dem.. while doing their last task(which is fix up a bicycle), they argued alot, coz the girl dunno anything about fixing up a bike.. den d guy keep on scolding in foul language.. well, most likely they are from Hong Kong.. coz they speak Cantonese, and they dunno wats a "kerbau"... and i rmb the guy say to dat gurl, "u are useless in this".. i was like wat the hell, she is ur gf and u scold her like dat.. ish.. well, most likely dey are going to break up.. i hope dey do.. coz the guy is really a sickening person.. he shud not scold her.. even if u're having some major stress of losing, u shud not scold!!!.. haiz.. if i noe dat earlier.. haha..

anw.. it was nice and funny.. really.. but, for couple who wanted to joined that race, make sure ur relationship is strong, if not, it will break u all up, coz words can be hurting there.. and be prepare.. dat race will either make u, or break u.. yup.. dats my conclusion.. haha...

Bored

2molo will be our student comm retreat.. well.. not really prepared for it coz im suppose to do the devotion on sunday.. but, i still dunno wat am i going to do lo.. how????.. haiz.. dis time die d.. i wonder how this year comm retreat will be?? haha..

anw.. feeling very sleepy after watching finish another drama, which is called, "Kan Yan Kin".. wonder where i find so much time in watching all these shows.. haha... shud pay more attention to my studies.. haha.. will do..... after student comm retreat(i wonder this is how u spelled it)..

ya, although that show was quite boring though alot of ppl say its funny, ya, is funny, but still lacking of somethings.. dunno wat, but its a nice show.. very nice.. i recommend those of u who is a fan of tvb drama to watch it... haha.. giving bad advice...

anw.. feeling very sleepy now.. haha.. duno later will i have to go to college for discussion.. see how la my condition...

signning off
jOkEr

2molo is the thing.. how will i react to it????

struggling with CF

well.. CF is not christian fellowship.. but is Corporate Finance.. haiz.. very fan.. confusing.. and is sucky.. and got no much time left.. hmm.. so how are we going to finish it.. well.. currently having discussion.. headache discussion.. haiz... how how how??????

anw.. my groupmates are still having their discussion while im writting this, and dey dunno im writting this.. so see how focus are they and not me.. haha..

ciao

Tired

well.. cant really sleep well again yesterday... not becoz im thinking, but bcoz alot of bugs keep on kacauing me.. so i cant sleep well.. haha..

well, finish my tax assignment d.. well, i wont say is dat good, but i hope can get some good grades... well, i hope so.. did i bring to college?? ya.. i did.. haha.. thank God...

anw.. think i've ntg much to say 2day.. hope u ppl have a great day ahead..

Signning off
jOkEr

sorry yang, for putusing ur strings..

Finally.. a long rest

Yes.. yesterday i was so freaking tired, so i slept at 10pm.. wow.. wat a long rest i got.. coz for so long i din get to sleep at 10pm.. coz, things jus pop into my mind.. but yesterday, too tired to think at all, so jus sleep sweetly.. haha.. i shall try dat few more times.. haha.. its so a wonderful thing to sleep.. haha...

anw.. ntg to blog about now.. jus dat i noe my assignment is at stake.. but i somehow cant focus on wat im doing coz of things dat really drain my brains out.. haiz.. wat to do.. haha

anw.. ciao

Signning off
jOkEr

Wat can i dO??? NTG!!!

stupid sleep

argh.. even blogger is making a fool of me?? my post cant published and all i write is gone.. argh..!! stupid.. everytime got this feeling in me, even in the middle of the night.. argh... wat has happen???????

feeling stupid

was feeling stupid all the way jus now.. thinking of wat i've done but all gone to waste.. really dunno how on earth am i to get out of it.. argh.. how how how?????

camp was postpone.. due to some forseen circumstances.. not much ppl are going.. no choice so have to cancel it.. i felt disappointed actually.. really.. after much planning and all.. but, maybe God has His own purpose.. anw.. started to plan for our outing.. which for quite sometime TC does not have any outing at all.. well.. hope Taman Desa Waterpark is the place where we can go.. rmb the last time i went was in 2003.. after my BK quiz..

really felt bad bcoz of postponing the camp.. dunno la... the teens looks quite sad, i suppose.. haiz.. din really noe wat to do at that point.. dunno la.. now felt so stupid, so lazy, so jokerish.. argh.. all the weird and lousy thoughts jus came to me.. i need PHIP 4:8..

dunno why.. her words seems to pierce through me very easily.. when she uses words which i think she is not really happy, i gt this feeling of pain, i would jus go blank.. shud i go on like dis?? i felt tired.. ppl say although the year is coming to an end, but is not over.. wat can i still do to make dis year a memorable one?? there is jus so much hurt and pain which i cant seems to forget.. i've been asking for a breakthrough.. so at least dis year, during Christmas, and my bday, i wont keep thinking on wat has happen in the past.. thinking of wat happen last time makes me happy awhile, but it wont last long..

"God, i know U heard me, i really need a breakthrough.. im not going anywhere wif dis condition, things are jus not like dat anymore.. it has gone worst.. I really hope, there is something i can rmb from dis year dat is memorable.. In Jesus Name, AMEN..."

God will make a way

jus came back from yum cha after cg.. well.. din bring enuf money so jus ordered my usual drinks in mamak.. dunno why i dun really change.. haha.. since working until now.. haha.. each time i go kedai melayu or mamak, sure order dat drink.. haha.. maybe ntg else better to drink..

ya.. in cg, reynard worship lead.. and he choose the song God will make a way.. it really speaks to me as the camp is having some problems now.. i really dunno wat to do.. i keep finding way out.. i try to be as cool as possible, but some voice jus tell me im not as good.. but when i sang dat song, i realised dat God will make a way for us.. for everyone of us who believed in Him.. dis song actually is a song dat someone actually sang for me when im in dilemma.. and really.. i miss those time alot.. rmb when im not happy, someone is there to cheer me up..

something really bad happen to me dis morning when i buy breakfast for my mum and myself.. i really dunno how to overcome it.. and i really dunno who to tell.. haiz.. im so tired of being me now..

anw.. hope u ppl have a great weekend.. and Johanna, Phip 4:8.. rmb..

Signning off
jOkEr

when will those days be back?? i miss it.......

meeting

well.. after my worship practice in CC, when for dinner wif my classmates.. well, den suddenly i rmb there is a teacher's meeting 2nite.. i quickly finish my dinner and rush back home.. den manage to catch a nap b4 the meeting..

so discuss on certain issues like the comm retreat, youth camp, and bible quiz..

haiz.. din noe wat to write d.. maybe there are other things dat are distracting me.. haha..

anw... 2molo will be the last CC meeting of the year.. yup.. pray dat it will be a BANG!!!

signning off
jOkEr

really hope i can tell u my problems...

Bursa Pursuit

Finally, i have registered for the bursa pursuit thingy.. haha.. well, not dat i really like to play in stock market, but its a good training.. hehe.. yup.. so if u guys wanna play, jus play..

anw.. ntg much happens 2day.. jus dat quite tired 2day, and i have 5 hours of break.. i was like.. oh man, how am i going to survive???? haha.. so i spend my time in the lab playing facebook and dat bursa thingy.. haha.. and of coz try to find info for my presentation.. but thank God, my group no need to present coz, time is running out.. haha.. but the class was boring.. real boring.. feel like sleeping.. haha

got to really finish up my assignment.. if not.. die die die..

Signning off
jOkEr

hmm.. how would i do to make u smile??

too many things

argh.. there are really too many things on my mind rite now, dat makes me cant sleep. really dunno why.. once i lie down on my bed, thoughts jus come to me.. makes me hard to sleep, get up try to do some work, lagi cannot, coz too tired.. haiz.. dunno why dis happens to me most of the time..

Things im worried..
1) that 'thing'
2) my studies
3) my assignment
4) TC camp, alot of things not confirm
5) dat thing again..
6) wat am i suppose to do

haiz.. im jus so not me rite now.. jus dunno how to change the situation.. i rmb something.. Cast all ur cares upon Him.. hmm.. that will help.. yea.. trust God..

Went to visit Caleb jus now.. well, when i was there, the doctor is giving him an injection.. well, he cried, like poor little baby.. but rite after dat, he seems to be normal.. his mum told me and my dad dat, although he was crying, he still wanna see how the doctor poke him.. i was like, he is insane, haha.. but dis boy really teach me a great lesson.. on how to be brave to face the problem no matter how "painful" the poking is.. really.. I learned alot of things and really, Caleb really thought me on how to trust God like child like faith.. if we can have faith in God like a child, God will really bless us.. coz child like faith is really believing whole heartedly.. yea.. dats the thing most ppl forget.. And he is so CUTE!!.. when he called me "koko".. haha.. so cute, den when he say bye bye.. really wanna pinch his face.. haha.. really cute.. anw.. those of u who are reading dis post, pls cont to pray for him.. he is getting better d.. but, still need our prayer..Thank u..

2day's class was bad.. my taxation tutorial is going bad.. i seriously dun understand a single thing that joker was teaching.. haiz.. duno how am i going to pass dis module.. really need God's help.. really need!!!..

was chatting wif san.. haha.. everytime ask me question dat is so direct.. haha.. but nvm la..

anw, now trying to find stuff for my presentation 2molo.. hehe

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jOkEr

God, i cast all my cares and worries upon U.. pls help me to go through them.. having a major stress rite now..

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wat a day after church yesterday.. well.. after service, went to buy breakfast for my mum den sent her back coz my dad is in termerloh.. den rush to EFC coz i thot i was late.. mana tahu yang is later den me.. so have to wait till he comes to open up d gate.. ya.. uncle steven from penang gave a talk on outreach.. yup he was good.. really enjoyed his sermon.. after tc.. yang and me sent him back to his hotel.. had a nice chat wif him during the journey.. really thot dat we are going to have captain ball.. den who noes most of the ppl cant make it.. haiz.. dunno why.. announced d but cant make it.. haiz.. nvm.. wat to do.. so wait until 3.30pm, not many ppl came, so we jus ciao back lo.. ntg else we can do..

not much things going on dis past week bcoz i dun have classes and ntg special happens.. so, really had ntg much to blogged about.. went yum cha wif my frens around 9 something like dat.. come back, had a hard time trying to study, so i jus forget about it and go to bed.. dunno how am i going to go class without my hw.. haha.. but nvm, i biasa d..

anw.. din have much 2day... maybe later got more.. ciao

Signning off
jOkEr

Thank God dat at least one of my hopes actually fulfilled..

Reaching for U..

was listening to dis song.. reaching for u.. when i heard dat song.. it sounds familiar.. if im not mistaken is the song that yang choose for his worship leading.. yupz.. dat the song.. coz got alot of changing of key.. haha..

actually, dis few days was quite lazy to update my blog.. not bcoz i got ntg to write.. but things i dunno how to write.. sometimes things jus happens like dat.. haha.. i dunno how to write la.. i hope... really hope things will change..

hmm... wonder how those spmers are duing now.. yea.. i've faith in them for them to score alot of A's... coz.. they are smart.. haha..

tired again.. 2day have been planning to go out for movie.. everything planned.. haiz.. but all my fren suddenly ffk me.. haiz.. so no choice but have to cancel the plan lo.. haiz.. wat a day.. make my day moody.. haha

anw.. nothing really much happens to me.. jus dat i've not finish my assignment dat im suppose to finish by this week.. haha.. die lo this time.. anw.. ciao

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jOkEr

i wish everything will be like in 2005.. the year that i love most..

Tiredness 2

jus came back after Campus City 2day.. as normal, tired.. use up all my energy.. haha.. 2day i was really blessed by elder's msg.. he tok about obedience and willingness.. the part that struck me was when he said "everyone is obedience, but not everyone is willing".. if we are not willing, God cannot do anything with us.. but if we are willing, he can do everything to us.. Sometimes we pray that we will do God's will.. but what is God's will for us.. His will is to take control of our lives.. and when we can let God take control of our lives, he will den lead us to other place.. that is the thing which really makes me thinks..

I dunno la.. den i jus thought of things dat happens in the past.. not dat its nice to think bout it.. but that are things i jus cant let go off.. is like the past jus stuck there, in my heart.. i really hope.. serious pray dat i can let go asap.. still praying hard.. haiz..

anw.. im going out to watch the bee movie 2molo wif my classmates.. and one ex-classmate.. muahaha.. yea.. finally watching movie.. dunno y.. love going to cinemas.. but.. i haven been there wif her.. maybe got no yuen.. haha..

anw.. tired.. so ciao..

Signing off
jOkEr

when is dat day going to come?? im waiting..

tiredness

Tired.. jus came back from practice.. in Campus City.. hard a quite fun time.. dis week im on vocals.. but my voice dunno why cant seems to push out.. maybe im sick.. thank God i dun have any cough or something like dat.. if not.... die lo.. haha.. well.. but dunno why i cant really hear myself wan lo.. maybe when i sing loud, the whole place can hear.. hehe..

Anw.. haven got any updates on caleb yet.. dunno how is he 2day.. din get any sms yet.. but im really happy wif our church ppl.. hehe.. coz yang and hocmun oso use blog to ask ppl to pray for him.. den uncle thin fook and henry send mass sms to other church members to update the condition on caleb.. this is how we shud use technology to do the work of God.. yea.. hehe.. dats the way ppl..

was trying to ask aidan for dream theater cd.. coz wanna let my kids listen to their songs.. see how syiok dey play.. haha.. maybe is a good chance /exposure for them.. but dunno can get or not..

anw.. i gtg now..

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jOkEr


was thinking.. wat can i do to make her happy..

Pls pray for Caleb

For those ppl who are reading the post.. pls pray for Caleb Gwee.. there are some complication in his condition now.. and really needs prayer rite now.. so when u read dis.. pls pray.. He is a sunday skul kid in my church.. but he is strong.. he thought me things too.. Yup.. so ppl.. pls pray for him.. thank u..

Sick.. real sick

argh.. sick.. must be bcoz i got soaked in the rain on sunday.. argh.. now began 2 have fever, flu, headache and sort of things.. haiz.. wat a day.. have to cancel my lunch appointment bcoz i cant really drive now oso.. haiz.. sad case la 2day.. my whole body is like hot, but den i felt cold.. hot and cold add together becomes big prob.. or luke(is dat how u spell, my spelling is bad) warm.. The bible say, cannot be luke warm.. haha.. i mean in other sense la.. not my case now.. dun understand?? well, tell me.. den i shall explain..

anw.. although i was sick, i still watched the TVB series, drive of life.. its so kan cheong in the sense.. i actually like this kind of show bcoz it shows how bad a person can be in the business world bcoz of money and power.. as alot of ppl, with that 2, u cant survive, and u will being looked down on ppl.. when ppl began to want dat 2 things, they do stuff dat is against the law.. really no point.. coz u still have to go to jail after the authorities found out about it.. well.. wats the use of having big lump sum of money but dun have any frens..

den. there are also some examples of long distance relationship.. there are 2 couples.. the 1st one, they are so close since young, when the gurl wanna go overseas to pursue her studies in the US, the guy actually dun allowed.. but den have to give in bcoz he really loves her.. when she is in US.. she tried her very best not to fall in love wif anyone there.. but, this kind of things very hard to say.. so she fall for another guy who care so much about her.. maybe dats what she wanted.. so she broke up wif another original guy.. which is quite sad la.. haha..

the 2nd couple.. who met only for few years.. the gurl is a reporter and the guy is a racer.. so the guy when over to US to learn how to be a better racer.. when he comes back.. both of them get back 2gether.. dis is short.. but a very nice happy ending.. of coz the 1st couple oso found their loves one.. the moral of the story is........ nothing.. coz i jus think is nice.. haha..

anw.. suppose to start on my assignment 2day, but i think cannot la.. haha..

Signning off
jOkEr

i dunno wats the plan that God have in me.. but like the 1st couple, he will show me the way..

Pictures

Dis are some pic dat are ok..




This is in Caleb's room in GH.. can see dat there are alot of ppl praying and caring for him..












this is his personal prayer card to God.. well.. i din rotate it.. coz i forgot.. haha












During my Taxation Lecture.. was too boring, so i take dis pic..












Well.. dats bout it..
hehe

A post about a fren

2day.. dis post of mine will be toking about a fren of mine.. well.. quite close fren of mine.. and her name is Jane Loke Yuk Jing. yes.. is u jane.. haha.. well, since my previous post are all emo-ness, i shall write something diff..

well, i met her in my skul form 3 trip to cameron, where after pmr those teacher organize these trips to bring us to look see look see.. well, dats when i noe her, but not dat close la.. coz i got my own groups of frens, she oso have her own groups.. i rmb sneaking out at night to go mamak.. dunno u went or nt.. cant rmb.. haha.. dats form 3..

Well, form 4, din tok much to her.. coz diff class mar.. smart student get to go pure science class, and d not so smart ppl have to go sub-science class (no offence to those in arts, is jus a comparison between pure and sub).. but still got say hi and bye..

in form 5, while i was having my Bible Knowledge class, i saw her popping into the teacher's hse.. i was like, eh, wut u doing here??.. haha.. i was wif the same bible knowledge class wif her.. haha.. funny.. but dunno why she everytime come late, den miss yeo always like marah her.. but she still get A1.. haih.. genius..

after spm, i went for rbs, came down, go lepak in form 6 for one month, den decide to do CPU in taylors.. one day while chatting wif her online, she ask me where im i going to study, i told her taylors.. den she say she is studying there, doing a-levels.. so yea, must ask her to bring me for lunch.. hehe.. den she say she will bring me to dis place called campus city.. i was like, "huh, is dat a cult?".. haha.. it turn out to be a place where i really grow alot.. haha..

She serves as a keyboardist, den move on to be a worship leader.. serving wif her is fun.. i rmb we had dis group dat always on the same team 2gether.. me on bass, Jane on Keyboard, Ariel on Electric, Sarah on another keyboard, Aaron on drums and Lawrence on Accoustic.. all of us most of the time always play 2gether.. haha.. syiok la.. haha.. den Calvin Tay will be worship leading wif Ern Suey and Pei Teng..

I actually learn alot from her, although she is same age as me.. but her thinking are much more mature den me.. i rmb when i start to have a relationship, she give me alot of advice, and all.. den when i faces alot of trouble wif that relationship, when i was in oversea, thank God i had a fren who will listen and pray for me.. well.. Yea Jane.. Thank u for being there.. hehe

anw.. wanna see some pic of her?? haha..















anw.. dis is jane.. hehe.. and dats me wif spike hair..

yup dats all about her..

Signning off
jOkEr

funny sunday

2day is funny.. is bcoz of the funny things dat happens during worship.. 1stly, today is hymns.. well, not to say hymns are not good, but, we dunno how to play most of the songs.. and most of the times, we are jus bluffing all the way.. haha.. den 2nd thing is yang broke his strings.. he broke the same strings twice.. well, dat is not dat funny.. coz something wrong wif his bridge.. dats makes it cuts the strings..

anw, teens club was ok 2day.. had a good time listening to songs wif my students.. well, at least most of the time dey are paying attention to wat im teaching.. last time they din really show dat.. haha.. good good.., i hope they learned a wonderful lessons 2day..

den got soaked in the rain.. haha.. so my whole body was wet, when i reached back home.. den now start to feel abit giddy.. haiz.. teruk la ni, 2nite got meeting somemore, hope can end earlier, den i can sleep sleep sleep.. hehe.. 2molo im ok break.. yes!!! but got lots of assignments to do.. haiz.. no time for more break.. haiz.. nvm, uni students are like dat.. no choice..

anw, getting tired d.. will update later, if i go online.. haha.. ciao ciao..

Signning off
jOkEr

yea!! no emo post 2day.. maybe i dun feel emo now.. but jus now yes.. haha..

a saturday

i wake up early dis morning, but after my breakfast i cont to sleep.. coz was too tired.. might be bcoz of the things i drank at henry's place.. makes me sleepy.. haha.. well.. and was back late yesterday coz have to fetch ai soon back to her hse.. so was tired the whole day.. in the afternoon, went out to do some shopping.. den pick my my laptop from the shop.. well.. its running perfectly now.. haha.. Thank God.. for new life.. haha..

anw.. was at the MBS graduation thingy.. coz uncle thin fook was graduating.. well.. he looks smart in that robe thingy wif the square hat.. well.. it shows u r graduating.. (lame).. anw.. will post the pic later on..

den after dat, went for the dinner.. well.. din really enjoy it, coz the food is not dat nice, the presentation is not up to par.. and u noe la.. haha.. din wanna share much bout it.. coz that makes me realise im actually in deep trouble.. haha..

anw, on my way back jus now, was somehow being kacau by uncle tee eng's children.. haha.. but its ok, a good clean fun anw.. jus dat not really in the mood of being kacau bcoz of wat had happen earlier.. haiz.. im worried actually.. did i spoiled her day by appearing there?? coz she might be very happy b4 i came.. but?? haiz.. is my fault..

anw.. got to rush to do some things for my class 2molo.. and the permission slip for camp..

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jOkEr

i thot she like blue?? well, maybe not..

weird..

sent my car for service dis morning.. well, waited from 8.30 to 11.30.. exactly 3 hours for my car to be service.. coz they dunno why go test drive my car for 2 rounds.. ya.. so waited there for dunno how long.. anw.. when i got back my car, it feels better.. i mean can drive faster.. more performance la.. maybe bcoz of the wheel allignment and balancing.. so it makes it better gua.. dunno la.. but it feels nice..

emo time.. anw.. din get any reply from her until 2day.. well.. haiz.. nvm la.. oledi biasa wif dat.. 2molo going to see her.. for some occations.. but, hope she wont feel angry when she see me.. coz like dat i rather not go den to go lo.. maybe last time i din care bout her feelings, now i do.. haha.. weird weird weird...

anw, wanted to post some pic but i forgot to bring my thumbdrive to college 2day.. so forget bout it la.. haha.. anw.. gtg d.. some jokers waited for me 1 hours jus to go for lunch.. haha.. anw.. ciao ciao

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jOkEr

when will she reply?? when??

not at home

hmm.. was not at home now.. was in my fren hse in subang writting dis post.. hehe.. jus finish playing badminton and now hanging out here.. hmm..

haiz.. until now she din reply my msg.. well.. it dosen really trouble me much now.. but jus still worried dat she is still angry.. jus dat..

haha.. feeling tired.. and whole body smelly, coz haven bath.. haha.. anw.. got thing much to blog now.. have fun ok??.. is a holiday...

Signning off
jOkEr

hmm.. i wonder did she ever read my blog.. maybe now no.. haiz.. hope she is fine the whole day 2day..

Emo time

well.. jus browsing through my other post and i realise dat most are them are emo.. hmm.. maybe i got no happy stuff to tok about.. haha.. nvm.. well.. got a more important things to blog today.. is about a boy.. yup.. his name is CALEB.. i dunno how old is he.. but, as young as him, has to go through such an operation, is really hard time for him, for he dunno anything.. to undergo something dat u dunno wats happening, is a very hard to go through.. i visited him yesterday, wif my parents, sawgot i think around 5 things poking inside him.. and he really do feel uncomfortable.. well, is very sad for him.. but thank God he got very patient parents, who really take good care of him, bring all his favorite pillow case, toys, and alot of other stuff to make him feel like home.. really really touching.. but there is something more touching.. the sunday skuls kids actually do some handcraft work and give it to him.. all his frens, classmate really do care for him.. the sunday skul teachers, give him card of encouragement.. well, i heard from uncle thin fook dat caleb ask him to read the card 3 rounds.. wow!!.. see how much those ppl care for him.. well, and i taken the photo of the cards and handcraft that the ppl write for him..

dunno why cant connect my phone to the college pc.. nvm.. will think of ways to put up the photos.. hehe

God teach me something yesterday.. or better words, reminds me.. He reminds me that he will not give me something dat i cannot bear.. coz if caleb can hold on through his pains at such a young age, we as young adults oso can bear through.. and of coz, God is there to help us.. when i nearly gave up yesterday on dat things, my sms kaki ask me how am i.. well, so i jus told her wat happen on monday.. well, she gave some very good advice.. den when i visited caleb, his strength in tahaning d pain, really touched me.. he is such a brave boy.. God really used dis 2 persons to tell me, to move on.. and specially wan to thank my sms kaki, though she wont read dis post, dat really thank her for her help.. well, she is d person who support my decisions.. haha.. thank u thank u..

now.. for the most emo part of this post.. i really hope she will understand watever things dat i did.. i've explained to her.. trying to make her understand.. but, things jus dosen worked out the way i wanted..

to those who are in a relationshop, i mean BGR(not building Godly relationship, althought u shud), pls try and understand wat ur partner are doing.. last time, i always ask her to understand my feelings, and all those things, but i nvr ever try to understand her.. thats why things got bad.. and i admit i nv try to put myself in her shoe.. i was very demanding.. haiz.. until now, i still nv think about her feelings.. all i did is to care about myself onli..

well.. i gtg now, class starting.. will post the photo later or on friday..

Signning off
jOkEr

things has gone better, but will these last?? i wonder.......

Am i feeling better?? Shud I change church??

Well, finally got an msg from her which she sounded angry.. ya, but nvm.. looks like is time to let go of stuff which i cant control.. hope everything will be fine when 2day is over.. i dun think i would want to msg her dis few days.. let her anger cool down 1st la..

i finished my 8am class early, so went wif those january intake ppl for "breakfast" at Kopitiam.. well, is good to noe more ppl rite.. ya, so was like chit chatting and my reputation nearly gone.. haha.. but it was fun toking wif them.. so ya, went for lecture after dat, and i nearly slept.. coz was too tired.. and she was boring.. so, trying very hard to pay attention in class.. but cant.. and my mind was full of that stuff.. so still trying to forget..

reuben come and find us during lunch time jus now.. ya, he is working like "mad" now.. haha a long time din see fren.. well, good fren i can say when me, him, neoh, leonard chua hang out most of the nite in subang doing stupid things.. well, dat was the past.. miss those 2 jokers.. haha..

holiday coming, but more assignment pilling up.. now is time for worrying.... haha.. hope i can let go all these stuff dat is going.. well.. thank God!!

dunno whether is there any CC dis week coz holiday.. if got, wish to bring my church worship team to go there for a visit.. coz they can observe how those ppl play..

was thinking bout some stuff in mind.. shud i change church?? i mean really, as i look at the things dat are happening around me, i somehow felt dissapointed.. not at them, but at myself.. the thing is, i cant actually communicate much wif dem now.. really praying very hard now.. maybe i shud wait till after chen wee come back from his back packing 1st.. i think the way i do things now is making most of the ppl around me feel mad at me.. maybe of the words i say or the things i do.. maybe my attitude.. basically, i dun think im actually "qualified" in being their teacher.. yup.. is jus me dat is being weird.. well.. i really dunno wat to do now.. feel like changing to HGC though.. a church that is started by ps ryan.. they ask me to visit dem, but until now cant find a suitable time to go there.. maybe one of dis week, will go there.. wat shud i do.. the things that are really holding me back from switching church is the "kam ching"(cantonese), the worship team, and TC.. dis 3 is really holding me in SWCC.. dunno la.. how will i handle this problems.. maybe i shud consult ps ryan, or calvin tay.. haiz..

well.. got presentation later.. better prepare soon.. and of coz, play my facebook 1st.. give some advice on the matter of changing church.. i really need alot of advice on dat..

signning off
jOkEr

wat can i do now?? i've pray.. i better pray more...

jOkeR

i was being a jerk for the whole nite yesterday.. well.. maybe bcoz of my new found attitude dat is so &&$% dat im jus so tired of being me.. maybe i did pissed someone off yesterday, and really, dun like d way i am now..

i somehow got an answer yesterday.. i dunno is dat d one, but, at least i know im in deep trouble.. weird case scenario.. din noe how to put it in words, but, feel so bad bout it..

Thank God dat i felt much more better 2day, den yesterday which i force myself to sleep so dat i dun have to think so many things.. now im jus worried bout one thing.. is she really mad at me now?? i msged her, but no reply.. wonder how is she..

din noe wat to write.. maybe i shud not write so long 2day.. but if things are really going the way i hope to, i hope, she will forgive me...

Well, is too early to tok bout bday's present for me, or wish.. but, if i get to choose, i choose to have a present that will make my thoughts/troubles/worriedness/jerk-attitude, go away.. dats the things i hope for.. i felt bad..

though u may not noe who am i writting about, jus wish to say sorry..

Signning off
jOkEr

Sorry for all the shit things i did to make u angry.. will u forgive??

more answers??

hmm.. cant concentrate well during class jus now.. my mind was wondering away, and i cant tahan the "jokes" dat my lecturer made.. it was quite funny, but, not for my mood today to laugh.. i kind of felt irritated by dat.. my mind was full of things, questions, dat i could not answer.. maybe not today.. but i hope, those answer will come to me asap.. really.. i really hope so..

was very quiet the whole day 2day.. lunch time, i almost bored Kiwi and Nicole to death.. coz both oso ask me why am i quiet.. but, nah, din really answer them.. jus dun feel like toking.. haih.. reason i blogged quite alot dis few days is bcoz there are things i really dunno who to tell.. there are problems, but as i scroll down my contacts on my phone, i could not find anyone suitable to tell of my problems.. and come to think of it, i dun really have any really close to heart frens where i can pour out my problems wif.. Jesus is there, but i cant really find anyone else.. maybe im not frenly enuf gua.. there is one sms kaki la, but if things get too personal, i really dunno who can i accountable wif.. haiz.. wat kind of fren am i.. real bad..

anw.. somehow do not feel like going back, coz once i reach back, thoughts will jus fill my minds.. but.. nah, no choice.. jus really pray dat i will get over those things fast enuf.. if God do not give me any answer, i hope He helped me forget it.. haha.. weird prayer..

gtg now.. tired of classes d.. began to feel sleepy.. dats it for 2day..

nitez
(although is onli 5pm)

Signning off
jOkEr

I really hope dat God will provide me a way out of this place..

answer??

For the whole day yesterday, which is a sunday, i was asking for some answers to some of my questions dat are really bugging me.. it has been really distract me from worshipping properly, from studying and many other things.. i realise dis few days, i have not been focusing on the things im suppose to do.. and that thought jus came into my mind most of the time.. i really hope i get an answer to those question asap.. sometimes i jus hope dat God will give me an answer directly den to give me hints here and there, coz i dunno is dat a hint or not oso.. haiz

i was sick the whole day on sat, after coming back from worship practice.. i got an severe headache.. i mean real bad.. yea, so i was jus lying down, trying to fall asleep.. den i jus thought of last time when i fall sick, dat person will jus be there to ask me to get well.. erm.. jus some normal things, but dunno why dat time i felt so special about it.. haih.. maybe is jus those time of happiness.. haiz.. too bad, time has gone...

on sunday, really played my best for worship, trying not to be distracted at all.. i think im the only musician is moving around.. haha.. coz, i boring if i jus stand there and play.. and yang keep changing his guitar here and then.. haha..

on my way to college, heard this song from Casting Crown, Voice Of Truth.. is a song which really reminds me of who am i listening to.. izzit the voice of the evil one, or the voice of God.. the evil one tells me dat i will fail, but God, tells a different story.. is a really nice song to hear, the lyrics jus struck me..

Was browsing through the photos taken by my phone.. well, pick some nice pic and post here..

This is my car key....

Hoc mun typing stuff into his laptop.. this is when we are having camp comm meeting

This belongs to my students.. kasihan the dog..

Dun ask me how they come out wif this.. anw.. dis are my teens....

gtg now.. class starting

after a tiring day

CC was awesome yesterday.. d worship was good, lots of new ppl came 2day.. but, one thing dat really impact me most is Elder's msg.. seriously.. when he say the sentence "let go of ur hurt, God has healed it", i felt is being directly speaking to me.. coz during pre-service prayer, i prayed dat God will help me go through these times (cant share here, but u all are allowed to guess), and i do not want all these things to distract my service to Him.. den suddenly God speak through Elder and the msg really speaks to me.. when i pray dat prayer, i began to feel more relax.. yes, the "hurt" can't straight away go, but i noe God is putting back my heart, and patching it up.. really thank God for dat.. THANK GOD..

after CC, rush of to play badminton.. had a great time there wif my classmate.. after dat, went for tea.. order this roti called, roti tampal.. is rotil canai wif an egg in the middle.. i wonder how they did it, it is not roti telur... is roti tampal.. haha.. den ask them wanna play dota or not.. den all play.. 4 of us.. wif our humilating losses.. haha.. though we lost, but, we had lots of fun joking around.. haha.. good frens... hehe.. den went of for dinner.. at least i noe the food at PINKEE was not bad actually.. haha.. i thot is bad at 1st, but after trying it, not bad la.. hehe..

yesterday reach home around 10pm after everything, den after doing my normal stuff, went to sleep at 11 something.. coz was too tired to do anything.. eheh..

dis morning, woke up, fetch my mum to work, was stuck at the sunway ldp toll for around 30 minutes.. i was like so dam pissed wif that toll.. joker la.. make's ppl life miserable.. haha.. thank God i got no class 2day, if not, will be late.. haha.. den came back, watch tv, 10 something, rush of to jo's hse to pass her the song for this sunday.. and im scared of her hse dogs.. they are scary.. maybe i got no "yuen" wif them.. see me den barked at me.. haiz.. sad case..

later going to play ping pong wif my class mates.. hope they dun fong my fei kei.. purposely come to play.. if not, will be sleeping at home.. hehe..

anw, gtg now.. now my muscle ache like nobody's business.. haha.. anw, began to like this song.. is "Lift Your Name Up" by planet shakers.. coz was playing dat song for CC yesterday too.. so, ya, here's the lyrics..

verse1
I'm gonna lift You up
Higher than all things
Above every name

Cause You are my God and King
You made everything
So I give You all my praise

pre-chorus
I'm gonna lift Your name up
So everyone can see You live in me

Chorus
Shine Your light in me
So all the world will see
The power of Your majesty
Jesus I will lift Your name up
Let Your Spirit fall on me
Now so that all the
World will know that You're my God
Jesus I will lift Your name up

Verse3
I'm so in love with You
Everything You do
Everything You say

You never let me go
You're always in control
And I give You all my praise

Bridge
Jesus I will liftYour name up
Higher than all other names
You are my God
You are my King
You are my


Dats all ppl..

Signning off
jOkEr

nothing to write

Dreams

Are dreams not true?? izzit dat dreams wont come true.. coz there is a pharse that says, " dream dat will come true, is not a dream". so is dat statement correct?? haiz.. really felt weird sometimes when i dream of something nice, it somehow wont happen.. haha.. nvm.. jus some weird emo kind of thinking.. anw.. dream of something nice yesterday.. i mean quite nice la.. haha..

anw.. was here early in college coz got meeting for our FA assignment.. well.. i have no idea coz i haven read the financial report yet.. nvm, will go wif the flow of the meeting.. so that ppl think as if i read it.. haha.. chun rite??

had the TC's teacher's meeting and we discuss bout things dat will be doing next year.. so was pouring my ideas.. well, hope it does help.. anw.. wat TC camp is one step closer to being done as we have one adult following us.. yes.. thank God for answered prayer.. now we have to pray for speaker and for campers.. and i believe if God wants us to have dis camp, he will surely provide.. Jehovah Jireh (do u noe wat he means).. read ur bible ppl!!!

i will be playing at CC service 2day.. on bass.. and dis song really keeps on plays in my mind yesterday and 2day.. the song is called.. "till i see u".. it was not a new songs, but the words really speaks to me.. let me see if i can find the lyrics..

Verse1
The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

Verse2
With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

Chorus
I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

Verse3
You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

Bridge
You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

Signning off
Joker

Where are u??

morning at Uni

Was suppose to have lecture at 8am, but was cancelled due to he ask us to find out information for our assignment.. so.. was in com lab as early as possible.. but, still haven start searching coz wanna do some personal stuff 1st.. like checking facebook and blogging..

sometimes i find it quite shocking where i can write so many things here.. maybe there is too many things on my mind which i dunno where to tell.. so by using my fingers, begin to write stuff and nonsense here.. yea.. so was thinking much yesterday nite.. but din think too long coz was too sleepy.. so finally knocked up at 11 something.. dats early for me.. haha

i jus finished watching d drama "on the 1st beat".. is d 2nd part of "police academy", which is shown in astro i think beginnging dis year.. well.. someone actually told me most of the part of the story.. so jus the last 2 episods.. well.. d ending was not dat nice la.. but it still a nice show which can make me think.. haha.. some drama is jus for entertaining.. but at least dis makes me think.. haha.. well.. i rmb in d 1st episod where dis police's gf went overseas to furthur her studies.. well.. it somehows remind me on the things dat happens in the airport when i went overseas to study.. it somehow still very fresh in my memories.. it was one of the saddest moment of my life, where to leave everything behind here and go there.. haiz.. but thank God im back here.. haha.. but somehow, my thoughts will lead me to her.. hmm.. how would i say it.. jus will think bout her whenever i saw things/someone dat will reminds me of her.. haiz.. den dun really feel like toking to anybody else for a few moments.. haha.. well.. dun really like dat...

nvm.. stop toking bout dat things d.. well.. no target for me at this moment.. coz unreachable target=no target..

so, no point.. haha.. nvm.. guess im confusing everyone who is reading dis post now.. haha..

Well, finally, wanna congrats Kien Kiet and Boon Heong for winning the danish open.. well, they played really really well in finishing up those veterans.. haha.. must win again in France..

and AC, start winning some games..

Both of dem wont read dis post.. ya, so dunno i write for wat.. haha.. (lame)

anw.. gtg and find some article for my assignment.. if not... DEAD!!

Signning off
jOkEr

hmm.. i wonder............

not in the mood

hmm.. jus finish my lunch.. i mean half an hour ago.. well.. ate at uncle seng.. hmm.. dunno why 2day i dun have the mood to tok wif anyone though.. was very quiet the whole time as i ate my food.. is weird.. things really got into my mind.. maybe i was thinking bout her.. dat makes me wonder why.. things in the past, things dat had happens really bugged me most of the time though.. sometimes is jus hard to stop thinking bout stuff, but when situation is bored, u will jus somehow think of somethings.. so.. was looking as if was seeing some other ppl.. was looking here and there but my mind is at another place.. haiz.. wat a joker am i.......

jus hope that things will get better later.. i really hope so...

no mood until dunno wat to write.. so wont be writting much..

Signning off
jOkEr

still wondering wat d brazilian is writting..

Last class at bsf

Yesterday after my post, went to class.. oh man.. i was so damm sleepy.. haha.. maybe bcoz i watch tvb series on sunday nite until 2 in the morning.. ya.. so was like zombie.. especially in my HRM class.. cant stop yawning and dozing off.. haha.. i think ms daphne(my lecturer) saw me doing dat, and dozing, but she din say anything lo.. coz she noes im still listening.. hehe i hope.. ya.. after dat really tired class, went for lunch.. eat Chicken rice again.. maybe i dunno anything else to eat.. so makan..... tok....... haha.. den kacau my tax lecturer until he can rmb my name.. i was like WAT!! how can he noe my name.. haiz.. dis time die d.. going to suffer for the rest of my life in his class.. hehe..

Well, rush back after class.. bought my new FM modulator.. so now can plugged in my mp3 player in my car to listen to more songs.. yea.... den sleep for 20 minutes before i dragged myself out from bed to go for bsf.. had fellowship at Raju, which is not bad.. i mean the food there is nice la.. for a mamak la.. so makan makan, den hop into Han Tang's car and go for bsf.. wasn't really paying attention to the sharing (last class for bsf is the sharing by the members).. coz my one of my closest frens having some problems.. ya so smsing all the way.. but still managed to catch some of the things they shared.. hehe.. ya.. after dat, followed my dad to collect my car from the mamak there.. lucky nothing happens to my car.. den makan supper wif my dad.. hehe.. at the restaurant, met the RBS committee who was having their meeting there.. argh.. miss the times ups in cameron.. dunno hows everyone now.. coz no one logged in to circles d.. especially my mission trip members.. dunno how are they.. hope watever they do, dey will succeed..

ya, actually planned to cont watching the show, but realise i havent done my hw.. so try and do afap(as fast as possible).. manage to finished it.. den sleep.. hehe.. too tired d..

anw.. hope u guys have a great day ahead.. especially........ haha.. nah.. gtg soon.. class starting soon.. ciao

Signning off
jOkEr

hope she will have a great day ahead 2day..

wats my future like??

I attend the FES annivesary dinner last sat.. well, it was good.. coz the food was ok.. and there are lots of ppl at PJGH.. well, manage to sit at a comfortable place.. well, to cut the crap.. during the dinner, i actually thought of going into full time ministry wif FES.. din noe why, but im touch by AYA/Campus City, i wanted to do the same next time after i graduate, maybe few years later as i need to earn some basic money 1st.. hmm.. maybe 3 to 5 years after i graduate, i would want to be an FES workers.. well, though im not directly "thought" by dem, bt dunno, i was touched by all the things they did in diff campuses.. well, still praying about it..

dat saturday morning, went for worship workshop at my church.. thanks to uncle richie, ben tay, and nigel tay, they thought us many things on how to play as a band.. really learn alot from them.. hope can invite them again to teach us more things.. hehe

on sunday, nothing much happens.. but i think my bass playing is too much.. i mean i goreng too much until it sounded not dat nice d.. well, shud not goreng and goreng.. after teens, forget to ask yaw eng bout the camp speaker and all.. argh!!!.. now the camp dunno izzit going to be on coz worried got no speaker and worried got not enuf campers going.. well.. jus have to pray hard for dat.. hopes everything will be fine.. hehe.. ya, manage to get discount from chen wee's mum for the price for accomodation.. Thank God!!

things about her keeps me wondering most of the time actually.. dunno why, though jus lying down on my bed.. well, really hope there will be a time i manage to handle these things properly.. haiz.. relationships really makes ppl feel happy, and feel sad.. and the happy times makes u feel happy, but, sometimes, it hurts u.. well.. not going to dwell too much on it..

anw.. gtg now.. class starting soon.. in 15 minutes.. bye bye

hmm, when will be the time for changes to happens

Signning off

Italy

I wonder.. why not many ppl will support Italy in football international or in their local football clubs.. hmm.. they say the way they play is boring.. well, i dun really think so.. bcoz i believe in their style where AC has this Moto in mind, dat defence is the key.. well.. long time ago, Italy or better to say AC Milan has always been a defensive team.. their main tactic is to defend kao kao until no one can score.. their offside trap became famous coz they manage to trap those fowards who jus noe how to run in front but dunno how to come back.. hmm.. with a strong defence team back there, den onli ur fowards can attack without worrying about defence.. coz they trust their defenders will do a perfect job in defending the backline.. in AC, with a strong line of defence, lead by their captain, they manage to reduce the number of loses in goals.. yes, sometimes, dey din score much, they din show their fans of their attacking skills like those in the EPL, or spain, but they do show a good quality in their defence against all Giant Attackers..

I dunno how true is it, but i think the defence team is the backbone of the football team.. without defence, the whole team will be gone.. and of coz AC is oso famous of their counter attack.. when they got the ball from the opponent, they have very good playmaker like KAKA and Pirlo to deliever the attack.. with Nesta behind defending, Pirlo can help in attacking.. so, is good to have a good defence, onli attacking can go on smoothly.. well, dats why i support Italy, and AC.. hehe..

ok.. better stop here, coz all the EPL fans will kill me for this.. haha.. well, no offence, but everyone is different..

Hmm.. enuf about football.. finally get t0 sleep properly yesterday.. until 2day dun feel like waking up for class.. had replacement at 8 to 10.. haiz.. wat a terrible day.. not serving today in CC.. its ok coz i really need some rest dis week, due to tiredness.. haha..

still manage to think through some stuff again yesterday.. but i think i've forgotten.. coz i cant rmb anything (Lame)..

well, is towards the end of the month, and i haven got my dvd writer yet.. haiz.. coz most of my money gone for petrol.. haha.. nola, but dunno gone to where d.. cant think where i spend those money..

hope u guys have a great day 2day.. or 2molo..

signning off
jOkEr

cant sleep again..

haiz.. another quite a sleepless nite.. hmm.. how le?? being so tired.. well.. jus finish watching this show called "Father and Son".. dunno wat show is dat?? is erm.. a tvb series which called "Pa Pa Pai Ngai".. dats d one on astro on demand.. yea.. so touching.. i mean quite touching la.. haha... maybe dats y i cant sleep.. coz watch too much tvb series liao..

hmm.. anw.. looks like i make my student angry d.. haha.. sorry ya..

hmm.. i was thinking bout something while driving back.. i find dis quite true base on some observation.. but most likely is onli applicable to guys.. ya.. if u wanna noe whether a gurl trust u or not, u make sure u ask her to sit in ur car, den drive fast.. if she keep on shouting and screaming after u told her to relax and trust u, den she dosen really trust u (but make sure u noe how to drive fast and safe 1st la).. if she relax and trust u, hmm.. den u noe she will trust u for the rest of ur life, until u cheat on her again la.. den dats a diff story.. where i get this conclusion from?? well.. there are so many times when my mum sits in my car and i go less den 100km/h, she oso like very scared.. but when my dad drive more than 100km/h, she jus relax onli.. dat means she trust my dad more.. and trust that he will drive her safely.. hmm.. true??.. so as the same case as some ppl, who don dare to sit at at other ppl's car who drive more den 100, but is ok to sit in their parents car who drive more den 100.. dat means dey trust their parents.. so if a gurl, willing to sit at ur car, and dun scream, and trust u, well, u are lucky coz she really trust u.. well.. jus some conclusion i made.. but, is not proven.. so believe or not??.. up to u.. but, no offense to anyone..

anw, class starting soon, really have to go and book space.. if not, die lo.. haha.. ciao....

thought of yesterday, today

finish my lunch an hour ago and now writting dis blog using elaine's laptop coz there are no available pc for me to use.. ya.. so use her laptop.. sad for her coz she have to go and print out her tutorial questions coz when she let me use her laptop, she cant read the questions.. aw... so sad.. haha.. anw.. dunno where is she now..

anw.. jus not the connection was totally bad coz i cant even open dis page.. but now is better coz i can enter.. hehe.. isn't dat great.. hehe..

anw.. was thinking bout few things yesterday while trying to sleep which makes me cant sleep until 3 in the morning.. wow.. dat was terrible.. had some weird dreams while sleeping too.. haiz.. there are few things really troubling me dis few days.. maybe things dat does not concern me much, but yea, still think how to go over it..

1) was thinking bout how my church worship team us going to operate without chen wee as worship director.. he has done a wonderful job in bringing the team back to life.. but without him next year, and mabel will be in rbs for a month.. dis look like jean is going to play by her own.. not only dat, but going to be her only.. hmm.. can she take dat up.. and there are some issues dat the worship team are facing, which i think is not suitable to write here.. how can we improve??

2) this is about our teens camp.. now, i really dunno and i have no idea on wat am i suppose to do.. we got no camp speaker.. are we going to have a camp without a spaker?? which is done before, or how?? dunno wat can we do.. hope dat God will provide us with all the things we need..

the last is about one of my bsf question.. " do u have anything during the past one year dat u give God the glory?" i repharse the questions as i cant rmb the full question, but this is basically wat it is about.. yea.. so was thinking bout how God has brought me through my ups and downs.. where downs are more dominant.. haha.. but, can a person really give God the glory during bad times??.. i rmb when bad things do happens, the 1st thing i did was to complaint to God why he has given me situations where i would not had think dat i will be there facing it.. its really a tough time for me, until now, as i look back, it still hunts me here and there.. i mean how can i get over it?? haiz..

until i was really tired at 3, i finally slept.. i dun think i have the answer for all these things now, but im sure dat he will provide..

well.. elaine's comp got no more battery d.. so.. better finish up this post.. ya.. ciao ciao...

my com kena spyware

ARH!!!.. my com kena spyware.. ish.. somemore my antivirus cannot detect where is the file.. but this spyware thing keep on poping out on my screen.. ish ish ish.. does anyone have a anti virus that cant detect spyware.. except kapersky.. if u spell it dat way.. haih..

anw.. really tired yesterday.. after morning service, went for breakfast.. after dat went for teens club.. teach a bunch of kids and they have this world war 3 going on between the 2 genders.. had a hard time getting dem to clam down.. need some ideas to stop dem.. hmm.. shud i shout at them?? maybe i shud.. den after dat rush off to FBC for the nepalese cultural concert.. luke ask me to help him to do sound.. so, have been running up and down on stage to make sure everything is in order... but quite teruk la.. d things dey say and the things they actually do is diff.. so have to really go by try and error.. haha.. dats bad.. really bad.. went back and rest.. when i wake up, have to go for the camp comm meeting.. wah.. everything is gone haywire.. we cant have bentong, den both our speakers cant make it.. now have to really pray hard that God will provide us with a good campsite and a good speaker.. well.. the campsite most likely will be in Cameron Highlands.. erm.. at kg raja, chen wee's banglo.. well.. most likely there.. dunno how to arrange..

Hmm.. will i be serving dis thursday at CC??.. well, hope i will though sometimes i play quite badly.. haha.. now im actuallly having my break.. so rush my lunch.. and write things here.. before "someone" keep saying dat i din update.. haha..

anw.. gtg now.. got something really bugging me 2day as i woke up.. must be something to do wif my dream yesterday.. which is too personal to share.. so, jus pray dat i will jus let it go like dat.. coz i began to wonder off when my lecture gets boring.. well.. it does jus now.. and i bet it will be later too.. how nice if my lecturers and teach in an interesting way.. like how ms irene and ratnesh does.. haha.. den i wont be able to sleep... hehe..

really got to print out my stuff.. so ciau 1st.. u jokers........!!!!

another day at college

well.. in college now, coz jus send my mum to work.. and now waiting for my class to start at 10.. so waiting.. got a few questions which i dunnno how to do.. dunno la dis time, hope she wont chase me out of her class.. hehe..

wat shall i tok about today.. hmm.. actually nothing much happen during dis days.. so shud be all fine and alright..

really been exploring my facebook account like crazy... haha.. coz there are alot of stuff to do..

anw.. will cont to update later if got anything..

i felt the peace...

Yo.. campus city is awesome 2day.. had our 1st prayer service 2day.. i reached there at almost 3 coz i got class, when i reach there, everyone was praying like nobody's business.. aiks, i miss most of it.. too bad.. but, i realise dat im not as nervous as yesterday during practice.. well.. take up my bass, and try playing something.. den Lucas teached me some parts, coz there is some changes in my bass line.. so ya.. learn dat up..

When the service started, i jus play my best out.. play and play, worshiping God.. i realise dat my tempo is out.. but somehow, im not dat worried, bcoz everyone seems to be having much fun down there.. so ya, after dat, we pray for those who are having exams and all, listen to some testimony about how God has change some of the lives of the ppl through exams and all.. well, since i dun have any exams at these moment, so my feeling was like.. yea, cool.. haha..

after the whole service, my bandmates, which is aidan, and luke came to tell me how to improve my playing coz they realise there are quite alot of mistake, den lucas oso came to tell me where i made my mistake.. and of coz Ben Ji too.. he realise that my playing not consistent.. well, thx to all of dem, i can improve myself.. Good frens are those who tells the truth.. hehe.. thank God i got a bunch of very good musicians who can tell me where my mistakes are.. hehe..

dats all bout prayer service.. hmm.. jus wonder.. has anyone who drive at 120km/h at Federal highway.. sure got rite?? but have u try it on a Kancil... hehe.. that feeling is so.... quite nice.. haha..

anw.. got my facebook account, thx to elaine who keep asking me to create one.. ya, so created and spend most of my time on it exploring those application.. hehe.. add me if u have..

arogon2004@hotmail.com........

bye bye ppl.....

Am I talented

jus came back from college, den CC's worship practice.. dunno why, 2day, i jus felt like dun have the joy in playing bass.. maybe bcoz im too nervous coz got few songs i cant play properly and keep on making mistakes like nobody's business.. dunno la.. felt weird throughout the practice.. haiz, hope 2molo will be better..

anw, i also jus ask myself dis question on my way back.. AM I TALENTED?? i really dunno?? coz i jus felt my performance are not really up to par, and is not consistent.. sometimes is good, sometimes is bad.. really dunno when can my playing really be consistent.. really disappointed at myself..

haiz.. and i've been sick for almost 2 weeks.. my nose cant stop leaking "water".. my classmates are kind enuf to keep on supplying me wif tissue paper.. for 2 weeks without failed, i will always ask "....(name), can i have some tissue??" den without fail, my frens will supply me wif packets and packets of tissue.. haha.. thank you ppl..

anw.. i will have to go have dinner now..

Camp Comm meeting

After much meetings (onli a few), discussion, and much thinking, finally, SWCC Teens Club is having their youth camp.. Yahoo.. the last camp dat we had is in 2003, where i was in form 5, and the camp was held in STM..

4 years later, we finally decide to have our youth camp revive.. hehe.. dis time is going to be on 20 to 23 of dec.. well, is near christmas, but, that is the onli time where most of the comm members are free.. especially for me and yang.. well, really hope dis camp will be a meaningful time for the youth..

over here, would like to thank my comm members who have given many ideas on how to impact the youths in my church.. and thx to their ideas, i believe we are going to have a fun time there.. i actually din contribute much in giving ideas, coz i really cant think of any except for a few.. haiz.. wat a person.. haha

Anw, read yang's blog yesterday and read bout his post bout being a nice guy.. well, to add on to wat he said.. being a nice guy is a really tough "job" as to say.. jus take an example.. if the nice guy broke up wif his ex, but until now(few years after they broke up), still treat her nice, care for her, or even still waiting for her.. how hard must it be for that nice guy.. haiz..

I think dis post is full of nonsense coz there are not one single topic and my england is jus too powderful.. haha.. coz my mind is not really focusing on one single thing..

2molo is wed, and ellie msg me yesterday that i will be playing bass.. yup.. Campus City is having a special prayer service for those who are having exams.. so ppl who are in SUBang, or anywhere else who thinks that u're free on thursday.. come come come.. 3.10 to 4.10pm.. so hop up to the hub.. above AYA Cafe, 3rd floor, opposite Taylors University College, Main Campus.. hehe.. See u there

my new bass

Wanna see my new BASS???

Introducing, the most elegant........
















"15".. haha.. wonder i put such a weird name.. "She" has a nice body, smooth, and nice feeling of holding it.. haha.. pls do not think the wrong way.. hehe..

Wanna have a look at the head??















dosen it looks cool??
haha

dis is my new bass.. 15......

my blog is not dead

haha.. well, my blog is not dead.. haha.. it was very long time since the last time i updated my blog.. coz due to some reason, i have n0t been blogging.. anw, since i got 3 hours of break b4 my next class, i shall write something..

Hmmmm.. nothing much really happens to me dis few months, the recent one is dat, my class started and i got lots of things to cope with.. can u imagine, after 4 months din touch my text books, and all my accounting books, i almost forget wat is accounting.. haha.. but, Thank God, i recall my memory fast enuf to get on..

Most of my lecturers sux, especially dis lecturer who teach Tax.. haiz, really cant explain how bad he is in teaching and explaining.. the only word i can rmb him saying is "pls ah, go back and read your textbook".. when we dun even have our text book.. so, dunno wat am i going to do about dat sub..

The other thing dat happens is I GOT A NEW BASS!!!!!.. is yamaha brand.. but sad to say, i haven got the chance to really play with it coz i din really play with it in church coz is not my turn, and in CC, which is Campus City.. i din play with it yet coz is not my turn too.. so.. see how la when i can play with my bass.. hehe

Hmm.. anw, i've decide to called my bass.. "15".. wonder why, keep wondering... haha.. but, if u noe, jus keep it in your heart..

I have to go now, coz i think there are class going on soon.. so better ciao b4 kena chase out..

HOC MUN!!, i update my blog ok??

a fun and a not so happy day..

Hmm.. like wat the title says, is fun 2day hanging out after work wif d data capture stuff with our project manager, which is koon and jason.. well.. the food was ok, but we have a fun time conversing with each other.. well.. i think dats the fun part.. oh ya, and d other was the time when i was coming back from kl.. my driver fren, who is known as the crazy driver, drive 150km/h on the highway which have lots of car.. u can see how he selip here and there.. alamak.. but i was cool enuf to see how he drive... some new tricks to learn.. haha.. but one thing.. rmb, safety 1st..

the bad part about 2day is when there are so called breaking of groups between my collegues, bcoz of some arguement bout the claim and everything..well.. i wont say that dey are wrong or dat my the other fren like to tok bad.. jus dat, i felt sad seeing dis happen.. coz beginning all of us are good frens.. haiz.. jus hope dat they wont bcoz of some little things break the friendship between them..

Maybe is my own experience dat now i began to treasure friendship.. not that i have no frens.. but, the incident that happen last time, makes me treasure my frens more..

August 6 is time coming monday.. dunno how will dat day b.. 2 years ago dat day.. something happen.. hope it will happen again, which i think will not.. but, is good to have a hope.. maybe a hope dat will come true, or maybe not.. haiz.. i hate few days in a year.. one of them is my bday.. not dat i dun like myself, but bcoz of other things..

Haiz.. i cant change any facts now.. so hope dat everything will be ok..

2molo will be playing drums.. coz jon cant make it.. so think i have to sleep early 2nite.. nitez